I wish I had the words to show you how I feel about the situation. No, I wish I had a camera to show you what plays in my head. No, I wish I had a baseball bat to show you exactly.
But there are no emotions, none sad enough, none angry enough, none bleak enough, none loud enough, none ugly enough, none violent enough,...
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wan:
did you have something to say?
sorry about your friend. it sounds more random than an earthquake.
sorry about your friend. it sounds more random than an earthquake.
sarahg:
time for an update soon, my good man. don't you think?
i know you have things to say.
i know you have things to say.
Ruby, you were right. Pedestrian isnt so bad....the alternative is this:
chicago tribune link
if the link doesnt work, go to www.chicagotribune.com, then on the left choose "local news," then the third link down "prosecuters tell details of attack"
Prosecutors tell details of attack
2 suspects beat, kicked UIC student, authorities say
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By Brett McNeil and Josh Noel, Tribune staff reporters. Tribune staff
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chicago tribune link
if the link doesnt work, go to www.chicagotribune.com, then on the left choose "local news," then the third link down "prosecuters tell details of attack"
Prosecutors tell details of attack
2 suspects beat, kicked UIC student, authorities say
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By Brett McNeil and Josh Noel, Tribune staff reporters. Tribune staff
reporter...
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nogodsnomanagers:
oh man. i hope my email came across right. i hope you are ok. either get swamped in the eternal shittiness or keep brushing it off and feel weird and in denial. there's a knack to this life business and i don't think i got it yet
thinking of you
thinking of you
sarahg:
i'm always thiiiiis close to giving up on the world when i remember that i'm still on it, you know?
"Perhaps our eyes are merely a blank film which is taken from us after our deaths to be developed elsewhere and screened as our life story." -- Jean Baudrillard
"What makes a river so restful to people is that it doesn't have any doubt - it is sure to get where it is going, and it doesn't want to go anywhere else." -- Hal Boyle...
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"What makes a river so restful to people is that it doesn't have any doubt - it is sure to get where it is going, and it doesn't want to go anywhere else." -- Hal Boyle...
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signalnoise:
hola -
re: bombs in nowhere - you're so right about how people who live in nowhere are worried for no reason. galvagin has complained - more than once - about how messed up homeland security funds are: medium cities in iowa get as much/proportional funds as NYC, DC, SF and so on, when they have a much, much *smaller* chance of being attacked. it's a breakdown of self-interest (thanks adam smith
). you're also right that an attack there would be absolutely too terrifying for words. a lot of the attacks now make a sick kind of sense ... that would seem so irrational, beyond logic...
remember: there's always time to do something.
re: bombs in nowhere - you're so right about how people who live in nowhere are worried for no reason. galvagin has complained - more than once - about how messed up homeland security funds are: medium cities in iowa get as much/proportional funds as NYC, DC, SF and so on, when they have a much, much *smaller* chance of being attacked. it's a breakdown of self-interest (thanks adam smith
). you're also right that an attack there would be absolutely too terrifying for words. a lot of the attacks now make a sick kind of sense ... that would seem so irrational, beyond logic...
remember: there's always time to do something.
hyenahell:
happy belated.
also- i think it's not the story which really matters, but the way you tell the story. the best stories sometimes can be utterly benign and boring and pedestrian... it's the way one tells the story that makes it magical, tragic, profound, and meaningful. and also editing. careful, careful, editing.
i think i was writing something about life as a movie... some huge, extended metaphor, the other day.
if i find an easy way to discover a direction, purpose, or meaningful pursuit, you'll be the first i share it with. i think the key is focus, which i've always been terrible at. i hear they make drugs for this, but am hesitant to look towards chemicals as the solution.
sorry if i'm scattered today. surreal experience yesterday and vivid, strange dreams last night have my head all cloudy and out of sorts...
love.
-Hyena.
also- i think it's not the story which really matters, but the way you tell the story. the best stories sometimes can be utterly benign and boring and pedestrian... it's the way one tells the story that makes it magical, tragic, profound, and meaningful. and also editing. careful, careful, editing.
i think i was writing something about life as a movie... some huge, extended metaphor, the other day.
if i find an easy way to discover a direction, purpose, or meaningful pursuit, you'll be the first i share it with. i think the key is focus, which i've always been terrible at. i hear they make drugs for this, but am hesitant to look towards chemicals as the solution.
sorry if i'm scattered today. surreal experience yesterday and vivid, strange dreams last night have my head all cloudy and out of sorts...
love.
-Hyena.
do you remember when as a child you were genuinely scared watching horror movies...that you would cover your eyes and face with your hands, and peak at the screen through the cracks in your fingers, or through the holes in the blanket? that you couldnt bear to look, but couldnt bear to look away? so you only saw glimpses of what was really going on?...
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marigold:
also:
happy birthday!
happy birthday!
lottie:
"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery... None but ourselves can free our minds." I can not argue with Bob Marley. Happy Birthday.
the soul/essence/identity/necessity/spirit has been on my mind recently.
"How strange a thing this is! The Priest telleth me that the Soul is worth all the gold in the world, and the merchants say that it is not worth a clipped piece of silver."
-- Oscar Wilde
well oscar, what is your soul worth? how do you enrich and nurture it? how do you destroy it?...
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"How strange a thing this is! The Priest telleth me that the Soul is worth all the gold in the world, and the merchants say that it is not worth a clipped piece of silver."
-- Oscar Wilde
well oscar, what is your soul worth? how do you enrich and nurture it? how do you destroy it?...
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scumbag:
blah blah blah hahahah
sarahg:
that's how i've been feeling.
the value of my soul is unknown until i'm dead.
that's a fucked up thought.
the value of my soul is unknown until i'm dead.
that's a fucked up thought.
saw the indigo girls, felt their music, made my heart sigh.
does anybody wonder where/how they fuck they are going to dispose of the hundreds of thousands of huge batteries from hybrid gas-electric autos?
a calander year ago things were different. its now a lifetime later, and its better now.
currently reading some foucault [madness and civilization, discipline and punish]....makes you really think about crime/punish/reform/prison...
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does anybody wonder where/how they fuck they are going to dispose of the hundreds of thousands of huge batteries from hybrid gas-electric autos?
a calander year ago things were different. its now a lifetime later, and its better now.
currently reading some foucault [madness and civilization, discipline and punish]....makes you really think about crime/punish/reform/prison...
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heatherann007:
What Marigold said. That would rule all.
charley:
They are mean and evil 
"We have weapons of mass destruction we have to address here at home.
Poverty is a weapon of mass destruction.
Homelessness is a weapon of mass destruction.
Unemployment is a weapon of mass destruction."
Dennis Kucinich
"In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and enough shadows to blind those who don't."
Blaise Pascal
Poverty is a weapon of mass destruction.
Homelessness is a weapon of mass destruction.
Unemployment is a weapon of mass destruction."
Dennis Kucinich
"In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and enough shadows to blind those who don't."
Blaise Pascal
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signalnoise:
kucinish is a good guy. he's a bit, well, he's a bit extreme so no one is ever gonna listen to him. but he has the right idea.
jedimindtrick:
nyc finally cooled off. thank god!
my health has not been so good lately, and the only thing that sucks about it is realizing that nobody really gives a fuck.
i am wishing my sister was here to take care of me.
the heat is so sweltering that i feel physically suffocated.
wouldnt it be the most amazing thing ever to inspire someone? the flip side of that is, wouldnt it...
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i am wishing my sister was here to take care of me.
the heat is so sweltering that i feel physically suffocated.
wouldnt it be the most amazing thing ever to inspire someone? the flip side of that is, wouldnt it...
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tbauc:
Are not we all everyone?
[Edited on Jun 10, 2005 4:59PM]
[Edited on Jun 10, 2005 4:59PM]
coops:
I'm so sorry to hear about your health. 
I know exactly where you are coming from with the health issues.
Keep your head up. Whether you know it or not, many people DO care.
And another thing...
you may have been an inspiration to many, but have never known. Most of the people that I am inspired by, haven't the slightest clue.
If you need to talk , vent, whatever, you know how to get me by e-mail!
Love you!
I know exactly where you are coming from with the health issues.
Keep your head up. Whether you know it or not, many people DO care.
And another thing...
you may have been an inspiration to many, but have never known. Most of the people that I am inspired by, haven't the slightest clue.
If you need to talk , vent, whatever, you know how to get me by e-mail!
Love you!
hi! omg, like, i think your journals/sets are so (superlative)!!! i'm (synonym: speechless)! i mean, i don't know anything about you, but the character/personality you put out over the intimate internet community is so (complimentary adjective)! i feel like i know you so well! i'm going to send you some private emails that will include a naked picture of me, my email address, home address,...
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starryeyed:
You always write the funniest entries... problem is: they always leave me like this: 
annalee:
Thanks for that email, why are you telling it to everyone else now on your journal? hehe 
hehe hypothesis:
prisons do not rehabilitate lawbreakers.
procedures:
unfair, immoral, unlawful, unhumane, blind, overreaching lockup of urban city dwellers.
materrials:
handcuffs, policemen, ignorance, inedible DOC food
data:
from the Bureau of Justice Statistics:
the US prison population: 2.1 million - thats 1 in every 138 americans.
thats also 900 new inmates every week.
thats also 48,000 more a year than in 2003, a 2.3% increase.
the...
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prisons do not rehabilitate lawbreakers.
procedures:
unfair, immoral, unlawful, unhumane, blind, overreaching lockup of urban city dwellers.
materrials:
handcuffs, policemen, ignorance, inedible DOC food
data:
from the Bureau of Justice Statistics:
the US prison population: 2.1 million - thats 1 in every 138 americans.
thats also 900 new inmates every week.
thats also 48,000 more a year than in 2003, a 2.3% increase.
the...
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verandi:
yeh, i like it. and the list's still growing... in inverse proportion to my bank account. weep.
rickets:
Nah. Eating at mom's.
Ikea does have pretty decent food, though.
Ikea does have pretty decent food, though.
what makes a man a man?
tension fills the air like a silent but deadly killer.
happiness is either a fading memory or an unobtainable dream these days.
technology free existence is thoreauvian or kazinski-esque?
i experienced a brand new sensation recently, i got a taste of what being prey for a predator is like...and i dont like it.
spring is in the air, summer...
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tension fills the air like a silent but deadly killer.
happiness is either a fading memory or an unobtainable dream these days.
technology free existence is thoreauvian or kazinski-esque?
i experienced a brand new sensation recently, i got a taste of what being prey for a predator is like...and i dont like it.
spring is in the air, summer...
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starryeyed:
That was an update!!!
I had just updated. I don't get it.
Well, here I am! What's new?
I had just updated. I don't get it.
Well, here I am! What's new?
lily:
well sweetheart, you know i love you, and your cracked nose as well.
Yes sometimes I wish it snowed here. You know I'v never seen or touched snow.
Jazz