OMG moving is a pain in the effin ARSE! Gladly I have my wonderful husband that carries everything for me **looks dreamily at my hubby and gives an enlightened sigh**
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Well the power got turned on over there right as we were getting there with our first load (talk about good timing) so we have AIR FINALLY (cuz our air broke at the...
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Well the power got turned on over there right as we were getting there with our first load (talk about good timing) so we have AIR FINALLY (cuz our air broke at the...
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So this is what Im up to.. I have now decided that my portfolio needs a piece of it that flows and shall we call it is more "set" like... so what I have decided to do is touch base with my FAVORITE subject in like the whole world... I have decided to do a composit of the Zodiac... its not easy to do...
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So this is what Im up to.. I have now decided that my portfolio needs a piece of it that flows and shall we call it is more "set" like... so what I have decided to do is touch base with my FAVORITE subject in like the whole world... I have decided to do a composit of the Zodiac... its not easy to do...
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koriana:
I love the photo's. It's a really interesting concept.
When we come down to South Florida I would love to swap ideas and talk about photography. I'll even let you to use my D50 and show you how to use an SLR.
I think you totally have "the eye" now you just need to learn the lighting portion. After all Photography literally translates to "light drawing".
When we come down to South Florida I would love to swap ideas and talk about photography. I'll even let you to use my D50 and show you how to use an SLR.
I think you totally have "the eye" now you just need to learn the lighting portion. After all Photography literally translates to "light drawing".
Stress acumilates way too effin fast! One minute everything was so lax and chill and all was quiet! And now I feel like all bloody hell has broken loose!!!1 I have 2 weeks to move out of my apartment and I have worse than horendous credit! HELP! also i have a model that wants me to make a package for her and i cant figure...
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lilandra:
Things in life get outta hand so fast!!!
brightredscream:
Stress really does accumulate quickly...it builds and sky rockets and comes rolling at you at super fast paces...
I hope that you're doing better now beautiful
I hope that you're doing better now beautiful
I need models that are not afraid to pose!!! ARGHHH!! why cant i find someone that isn't afraid to do a crazy pose for the sake of art?!?!?! ERGH sorry bitterness ensues and all is lost with me!!! 
koriana:
A-Freakin-men!!!
well I guess its about time that I post the pics I kept talking about... I'm only pissed cause my hair kinda looks red in them... even though i bought two effin bottles to make it look purple! lol.. freaking Hot Topic!! Anywho.. I htink it was more so the lighting but whatever... ehre are my pictures and proof that although a photog i SUCK...
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Exhiliration, possible in the simplest forms of life.
I went walking in the rain.
cold and bitter
just like life and I trudged through it.
pushed my way through the cold drops that hit my face
just like obstacles,
I wiped my face and kept walking
I thought of my husband and how much I should use his love to my advantage.
I thought of...
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I went walking in the rain.
cold and bitter
just like life and I trudged through it.
pushed my way through the cold drops that hit my face
just like obstacles,
I wiped my face and kept walking
I thought of my husband and how much I should use his love to my advantage.
I thought of...
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nixie_____:
me and my friend chris used to go running in the rain. we'd run for miles, just chatting bout whatever shit was on our minds/pissing us off. we'd get back and warm down, then sit around with a few beers watching mindless crap on tv or playing computer games.
it's amazing how good you feel afterwards, as if the rain has cleansed you of your worries.
it's amazing how good you feel afterwards, as if the rain has cleansed you of your worries.
meow:
Thanks for the comments on my new set!
Well Im distracting myself like everyone advised... I was in the mood for a lil pain so I got my lip pierced... I'm such a pussy though and the dumbass did it too damn slow and it hurt like a bizznitch! i was like
but anyhow... now I'm going to bleach my hair and then dye it purple! I'll post some pix when I'm done! 
but anyhow... now I'm going to bleach my hair and then dye it purple! I'll post some pix when I'm done! 
froggin:
Saw your set in photography. you have talent. I think you need to cut back on the photoshop and focus more on making great exposure and clear images first... the artistic impression is for later.... i did love the shot with you standing over what looks like a pool. And i for one would love to see you stay with this effort.
As far as your earlier post. far be it from anyone really to understand exactly what is inside.. someone told me life is a mess and we claw our way through it.. becoming is birth and birth is painful (as you well know). I think it is very normal to have the feelings that you do about your child... people don't want to admit it, and for some it is unthinkable but it is natural. These people (child, husband) put a stress on you that you might resent.. your dreams and fantasies are the hope for more... it may not have anything to do with the people that are in your life but the crying of your soul for meaning and purpose.... it is that call that keeps us striving on.... its a process and at times it really really sucks...and other times it is like heaven..
Keep striving... meds can help you keep perspecitve and from crashing but they can't stop the inner calling to become...
My two cents...
As far as your earlier post. far be it from anyone really to understand exactly what is inside.. someone told me life is a mess and we claw our way through it.. becoming is birth and birth is painful (as you well know). I think it is very normal to have the feelings that you do about your child... people don't want to admit it, and for some it is unthinkable but it is natural. These people (child, husband) put a stress on you that you might resent.. your dreams and fantasies are the hope for more... it may not have anything to do with the people that are in your life but the crying of your soul for meaning and purpose.... it is that call that keeps us striving on.... its a process and at times it really really sucks...and other times it is like heaven..
Keep striving... meds can help you keep perspecitve and from crashing but they can't stop the inner calling to become...
My two cents...
brightredscream:
*hugs*
I hope you're feeling better lovely ♥
I hope you're feeling better lovely ♥
I've been thinking alot lately and i still cannot decide if thats a good thing or not. I remember how I was when I was 14 and 15. For some reason even though at that time I thought I was going through the hardest times of my life I really like who I was back then. Sure I was a fuck up at school and...
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nixie_____:
hey, thanks for the add.
and i'm no psychiatrist, but maybe your psyche created max as a why to deal with everything else that's going on. you said that you feel like you don't love anyone, so you're mind has created someone for you to love.
one thing i would recommend though, is seeking professional help. as much as you don't to, or feel that they can't do anything, they know what they're doing, and will be able to help in some way.
and i sometimes wish i could go back to when i was in school. it's strange, you spend the whole of your school years hating school, but when you leave, you wish you could go back.
and i'm no psychiatrist, but maybe your psyche created max as a why to deal with everything else that's going on. you said that you feel like you don't love anyone, so you're mind has created someone for you to love.
one thing i would recommend though, is seeking professional help. as much as you don't to, or feel that they can't do anything, they know what they're doing, and will be able to help in some way.
and i sometimes wish i could go back to when i was in school. it's strange, you spend the whole of your school years hating school, but when you leave, you wish you could go back.
redmess:
oh, darlin'. we have all been there. sometimes i feel like my own thoughts and anger are gonna rip my insides apart. the only way i can cope with my inner demons is simple distraction. make a conscious effort to distract yourself through books, movies, nature, whatever. there is a lot of ugly out there but you have to try to see the beauty, too. like your photographs -my favorite is the one with the palmettos in the background. throw yourself into the beauty you are creating through your lens. i know it's so much easier to crawl deeper inside yourself and into imagined fantasies but that is the last thing you want to do to improve your situation.
i hope you find some peace soon. and if you need someone to talk to i'll be around.
xo
i hope you find some peace soon. and if you need someone to talk to i'll be around.
xo
Good freaking lord I was finally able to upload the pix and put them onto their own damn album... ok so ladies and gentlemen, and flamboyant gentle men!!! Introducing! The Nature Shoot! lol.... go check my ish out blitches!
brightredscream:
You are incredibly talented 
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poiyzin:
ok well not all of the are working but im going to put them in a seperate album called Nature Shoot
poiyzin:
okay nevermind NONE of the damn picutres are working!!! ACK i feel like just giving up on everything sometimes!!! sorry im not exactly in the best mood. but whatever,, , hope u guys enjoy what i was able to upload
revelation:
I love the second one
brightredscream:
Those shots are beautiful..especially the second one.