peaches101

my friend is collecting coloring books n crayons to bring to an orphange in columbia (she was adopted from this orphange), they have nothing for the kids to do much n are asking for coloring books n crayons to be donated for the kids - she leaves to go down there on the 12th of july - i will be dropping off books n crayons...
Read More

i sit here wondering what to do with my life - i mean its good i'm happy but thats just it - they say the first 4 years of ur life are crucial that a child with a happy beginning can get thru things better - but like me a child with a bad start has problems with coping n being ok when life gets...
Read More

so the sentancing was today...

he got 6 yrs, he's up for parol in 14 months, he's going to state instead of avanel, he's under megan's law and has to register with most of the sex offender stuff

its over but i'm still not dealing well with this, i'm still depressed over it, i should be happy but i'm not

i just lost most of...
Read More

wow so yea i haven't been on here in awhile - i've been mentally going thru alot again - my depression is trying to come back n its kind of winning - the sentancing of my uncle was supposed to be the 2nd and then the 9th n now the 20th - i think i may have posted that already tho - but for once...
Read More

the sentancing has been cancelled again its gonna be rescheduled either the 16th or the 20th - this pisses me off - it's taking too long - this is the 3rd!! cancellation

i was happy yesterday for a bit n then i got a call......

yes n that call was that the sentancing for my uncle has been moved yet again, to march 2nd ^(^^%$%^&_)(*&*&*%$**%^$^@^*(()*!!!!!!!!!! - n that same day my uncle gets to try n get a 3rd trial %$*&##@#&*^)(^^&%&!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - i wish it would just happen already!!

my uncle wants a 3rd trial - it wasn't fair enough for him - the judge gets to deside - i know i dont have much to worry about since the 1st was hung n the 2nd was guilty n the desiding judge is the same judge n he believed me - but still - n i found out thru my dad that someone from...
Read More

i've been feeling fat lately - i've also been bingeing - n i've purged a few times - i try not to binge - but now all i wanna do is restrict i hate it - my boyfriend is doing all he can n i feel bad - i just wish i felt better

i just woke up n already i feel fat - i dunno why - yesterday i felt pretty damn good - i'm trying to be good - i know that when i go downstairs that i will eat - i will eat a bagel with cream cheese - what makes things worse is i have to watch my fat in take b/c my cloesteral is...
Read More

i'm acctually feeling good 2day, which is a rareity for me. i'm just sitting n listening to hootie & the blowfish, in jeans n a button down dress, bopping around to the beat w/ a smile on my face. lol. i post new pics b/c i'm feeling good about myself. well i better get to doing the laundry...

Merry Yule everyone!!

my introduction
i'm 18 n from nj, i'm an artist, i love making things n helping people n animals. i'm bi polar n an insomniac. i have an eating disorder that i've been dealing with for the past 7yrs n have descided to get help. i used to have a cutting addiction but i have been working on it. i have been hospitalized for suicide...
Read More