Aw, I hope you're ok?
I really hate when something bad just gets dropped on you.. I like to build up resistance before facing something rough, sadly though the hardest things tend to be the ones that come "out of the blue".
Still dead. Can't sleep, bad dreams when I do. Panic attacks. Agoraphobia. I cry at the drop of a hat.
Friends of friends coming over tonight, maybe that will help. Chill, smoke some shisha. Maybe drink a little. Or I might just go hide in my room until they leave.
♥
-m
Oh yeah, I'm having a party this Saturday. I live in Aptos now, so this sort of applies to the SC crowd. If I've already met you (I'm really wary of creeps) you should PM me and I dunno, come over. More details to the people that actually respond to this.
Ok, I realize that I JUST updated, but I have something to say:
People who I've never spoken to before: STOP SENDING ME FRIEND REQUESTS.
I still approve most of them, because it feels mean to reject folks (unless you seem like something of a creep).
However.
I really like it if you at least comment on my journal first.
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I am a huge fan of She Wants... let me know how the live show plays. I'm curious given the level of angst in the tunes, as to how it goes with an audience.
I'm going to see the Peppers in a week or so. Can't wait... it'll be my fourth time to see them over a 15 yr, span. Oh, and Hi by the way!
I'm guessing that women probably get more out-of-the-blue friend requests here than guys do. But I do get them occassionally, and I don't understand what's going through the person's mind.
I mean, if they've been reading my journal and want to be friends, that's cool. But if they want to be friends, they could at least say hi first.
-I'm feeling better now. I finally may have a different house, and it's even better than the last place I was planning on living (before the shit hit the fan), so I'm really happy. I usually get a little nauseous when people say "everything happens for a reason," but it really feels like that right now.
I pretty much want to die right now.
Not to me melodramatic or anything.
I'm probably the biggest idiot in the history of the universe.
Bleh. Don't feel like details right now.
Just know that I'm a grade-A, prize-winning moron.
I'm feeling pretty icky these days. I need a break, so I decided to take the weekend and go up to my family's cabin in the Sierras. My friend was going to go with me, but she flaked. Which is kind of her deal, so I really shouldn't be as dissapointed as I am. Looks like I'm going alone, which is ok, because I have... Read More
Ugh.
I feel so...blah.
Every other minute I go from fine to not fine. Fine, not fine. Repeat, repeat, repeat. In the "fine" moments I'm mostly numb. So maybe "fine" wouldn't be the right word.
The thing about breaking up with someone you'v been with for a long time is that you have to start defining yourself in different terms. You are now "single." The... Read More
Dealing with a change this big is never easy. The fact that your "alone" in this just makes it harder. Well just know that you'll always have people to turn to here on SG. I know that a message from some random person on a website isn't exactly the same as a nice shoulder to cry on or a big teddy bear to cuddle, but sometimes its just hits the spot.
I really hate when something bad just gets dropped on you.. I like to build up resistance before facing something rough, sadly though the hardest things tend to be the ones that come "out of the blue".