nolan_void

Thinking about the future scares me. It's nice to see that I'm not alone in that thought process.

You already have boundless wealth. What you would do if you had it is to wonder what you would do if you had it, as you try to reify something you can posess and cling to and are being used by your sense of self that's trying to reify itself. Once you try and cling to something it slips away. To cling to nothing is to posess boundless wealth. I'd say you're actually a lot closer to it than me though, if you've really managed to put aside your thoughts and just be, as you describe in a couple of earlier postings. Well done, in that respect.

aleikum salaam

i have never heard anyone speak of the mountains like that before. it's pretty interesting though.

Speaking of deadlines. I have 25 pages due next week and am on SG instead. Awesome.
So, last I was on you were talking of leaving school (or am I mistaken)??? You did it Im assuming?

I cant wait for my worldview to alter- fuckin veil of academia! Anyway...

So about roaming- actually- I might just take you up on that! As it were, I was planing on making GA a destination, thats not so very far off from NC! (comparatively).

"He who is not everyday conquering some fear has not learned the secret of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is freedom." - Marilyn Ferguson

thank you so much for writing your thoughts in my journal

I used to live in fayetteville NC

I enjoy sunlight, but don't like tanning or burning

this was a journal entry of mine back on 16 January:

I just want to fly again... I just want to close my eyes and fly.

I haven't been out there in sooo long...
I need to feel connected.

I need to soar and I need to wander.
I need to meet myself again.

I need to see the Universe in all of It's vastness.
there- I will find myself again.

I need to once again realize that I am constantly traveling and the journey does not stop here.
Therefore, I must pick myself back up and
regain my strength to continue this leg of the journey.

after feeling almost exactly like you are mentioning, I went on this writing binge. I found that I really just needed to sit and look and be quiet. I just stared into space and out my living room window. I didn't think. I was just quiet and I watched.
it was almost instantaneously that I felt this inner calm and so many good thoughts came to my head. as a result, I went on this writing binge, and I felt so much better. I found that I just needed an outlet to calm down.

I wish that I had Jesse's Girl!

That is total fun with french. That journal entry was hilarious!!

So about the pirate and the ninjas, would they all be fighting? My piratey friend hates ninjas, and if there was a ninja present in the room, they would be a lot of fighting. Would it lead to crazy pirate/ninja sex? Maybe.

Woo! Im totally whore for first editions of anything! Hence my trajectory toward a career in special collections, maybe. And unfortunately, UT isnt going to put me in tennessee! I have this wierd magnetisim with the south however...Everyone I've ever loved coincidentally was a southerner (I've lived in north ca my whole 21 years). ( And by anyone I've ever loved, i mean romantically and deeply- which would be...3 people.)

Anywho, its going to put me in Austin. Thats still closer than Ca!

ps. Long distance is burtal. A complete blight on the heart, no matter how true the love is. I say this, because I know from a few too many experiences. I say this because of those southerners referenced above! Good call indeed, friend.

Sean Connery is hot.

Im glad I was coherent.

I've never been able to get over the whole "sex is a meaningful ritual" thing myself.
I think that scared one away.

My thought is that if we are all that we can be within that love, then whether it is accepted by the other is already as written in the stars.

Best of luck to you my friend...
and perhaps may those stars write a stanza for you to remember