mosfet

well, it might have also been partly due applying for a job that hadn't being officially posted yet.. so we have to wait until they have authorization to post about the position, and then wait for them to "scrutiniz(e) all
requests for hire" and then then then, they get to interviews, at which point i MAY get a call.. so..... yeah.. not holding my breath or anything.. hah.

philosophy in the movies, eh? sounds interesting. i don't have any friday classes, just work... which means i probably ought to go to bed so i'm actually awake..

a writing intensive class that consists of three movie reviews online? what the... hah.. wow.

i feel like i'm kinda slacking this semester, i'm only taking 13 credits [usually i have 16-17, and i just did 12 credits in an 8week summercourse.. that was fun]. the classes that will take the most effort are animation/director and computerized commercial design. other than that, i'm taking drawing V + yoga [ohmmmm...] yeah.. slacking off.

it's probably alright that the jlabs thing isn't really working, as one of the instructors here really wants to find me an internship somewhere that fits me better. i'm not entirely sure what that means.. but.. hm. i hate trying to apply for those sorts of things. so if she wants to hook me up with somewhere else, okidokie..

hope you're having a good weekend so far.. someone else needs to leave you comments BESIDES me.

I saw it written...

Yes. And yet...

I will try to give you an interesting response soon...

Still pumping out those journal entries, I see...

Twinkle twinkle little bat...

Today I had a cold shower. It wasn't the ducks or the cowboy hat. It was that our appartment block's boilers have failed.

I ought to do some work. I ought to go take a piss. But this morning all I want to do is write and listen to Radiohead.

Humpf.

I know, I know but I had some emails and a numer of comments which seemed to suggest that I was being misunderstood. Actually I still think I might be having trouble expressing myself to Hermes. Maybe I should have chosen a different word/phrase - ah, "will to power"!

you got it

Ah ha! The Mosfet returns!

Well, you're either studying or you got lucky - "making electricity". hehhehheh.

I'm in paper writing hell. No sign of let up. I have a gig I'm going to on Tuesday (Pretty Girls Make Graves - hot rock goth chicks punking it up on stage - yeah), a family dinner on Friday, and a piss up to end all piss ups on Saturday, which almost certainly rules out working on Sunday. I'm screwed.

You know what's cool? I just remembered a conversation I had with Robert Smith (The Cure) back in the day. I was lurking groupie-like in the green room and said something like, "You know what would be cool? Blending gothic like classical music into electronic stuff." My gf then pitched in with, "Yeah, have you read any Mervyn Peake?" That was about the time of 17 Seconds and before Faith.

Edited to say: Fuck Gothicism!

[Edited on Apr 10, 2005 10:06AM]

You OK over there?

That quote at the end of your comment - fucking brilliant. (Was it Lyotard or someone else?) It's what I've been arguing for bloody ages over here (certainly since 1985) and until really recently everyone seems to think I'm on crack or something. They simply ignore it and retreat to the complexities of Hiedegger, Sartre or Merleau Ponty - all of whom are interesting in their own ways of course. I think there's a real fear about the "loss" of individual sovereignty and freedom and the messiness that ensues from there. Oh, and also perhaps how it suddenly makes oneself rather more responsible for other people. Oops. You see I hear way too often things like: "If he/she wants to kill him/herself, then that's entirely their choice to make and I will not do anything to subvert or alter that choice" or "This teen is choosing to be an offender and he can continue to choose to be that way but he will face consequences." No mention or understanding that these human beings are in situations where they feel powerless, where they feel no hope for ever feeling like they're not just trash. There are always contexts and these aren't just backdrops, they form an integral part of who we are and can choose to be.

Ooops, gone off on a bit of a rant! Sorry 'bout that. I blame society.

How about a "fuck x" each day? (Btw, I doubt that "Fuck teleology" can be bettered!) Today I choose: "Fuck sympathy."

TESTING SG MARKUP
(IGNORE)

[s]GIMMIE GIMMIE strikethrough?[/s]



[edit] GOD DAMN IT! I WANT STRIKETHROUGH! [/edit]

[Edited on Mar 18, 2005 5:42PM]

Yeah, I lucked out with the NIN gig being the first in the tour and being within wlking distance of home!! The venue is really intimate too and I'm anticipating one of the best gigs ever. The gf is going nuts already about it, aren't ya Meep?!

I'm supposed to be writing a paper riaght about now but am procrastinating. Fuck it. Just can't find anything interesting to say on the topic. Guess I should go take a look again...

Something compelling - yeah. I haven't got time to write much right now but I think it's compelling because we are not actually totally alone in the classic existential sense. Part of our being is intrinsically social, interwoven and made up of language and narratives. I don't find it helpful to think that these are "bolt-ons" or additions to some core being.

Snowboarding. Sigh. I really like the idea and I was just about OK on skis but its been such a long time. OH wasn't exactly bristling with mountains. There's Mad River Mountain, which as a name is hilarious. MRM is actually a hill, not a mountain, and is roughly equivalent of the hill from Kensington High Street to Notting Hill tube station, here in London. Granted, one can certainly ski and snowboard down it (I once knew an excentric judge - are there any other kinds? - who skiied to work in Edinburgh when it snowed) but it's hardly an Alpine black run.

So, hope you're having/had a fine time out there in the snow. I can only imagine with some jealousy that you are/did. And I am happy for you.