Mr. Lonely
blah...I'm not supposed to sit around the house because it compounds my depression, but hell...no job, no love interest, no goal...my life would make a shitty movie.
this really sucks! I want a job, a love, a goal...but it just doesn't seem to be the way the world turns for me...and all i can think of is pitying myself. The only women who...
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blah...I'm not supposed to sit around the house because it compounds my depression, but hell...no job, no love interest, no goal...my life would make a shitty movie.
this really sucks! I want a job, a love, a goal...but it just doesn't seem to be the way the world turns for me...and all i can think of is pitying myself. The only women who...
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A solitary existence
bereft of love, bereft of companionship
In a sea of tears I drown myself
and let the waters of sorrow take me down
let the fluid fill my lungs and wash away the knowledge of a better life
I long to die and remove myself from this world of feeling
let the poison I take, take me away
no longer for the...
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bereft of love, bereft of companionship
In a sea of tears I drown myself
and let the waters of sorrow take me down
let the fluid fill my lungs and wash away the knowledge of a better life
I long to die and remove myself from this world of feeling
let the poison I take, take me away
no longer for the...
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lost my job...this time to business collapse, 6 weeks of bouncing checks and slow business has closed the restaurant, so now i'm on the hunt for a new job...do i find a new place to sling food or do i try a new endeavor?
I'm so damn tired of my life, of lack there of...do i take out a shitload of loans and go back...
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I'm so damn tired of my life, of lack there of...do i take out a shitload of loans and go back...
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kay:
You better stick around.
mercie:
I'll work on that for you. It probably won't be at a nice location like the ones that are posted though.
mortius:
hehe...I want you not your location...you'd make a black hole shine!
priscila:
fantastic SG logos!!!!!
well I finally got a new job, slinging food at Bennigans in the mall. I go in tomorrow morning for orientation so I'll prolly be on the floor sometime next week! i'm still on the look for a new weedman and down town should open up some new opportunities 
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monacataldo:
Wow!
new job sound great ahaha
kisses
new job sound great ahaha
kisses
well, spent the last week in the CRU (Crisis Recovery Unit) after getting drunk and having a manic episode...whoo fuckin hoo...but if you ever want to feel better about yourself, go to a mental hygiene ward.
now i'm not saying i'm the sanest person in the world by any means, but try being locked up with schizophrenics, bi-polars not on their meds, and sociopaths when...
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now i'm not saying i'm the sanest person in the world by any means, but try being locked up with schizophrenics, bi-polars not on their meds, and sociopaths when...
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mortius:
i was getting drunk and a house two doors down (a known crack dealer's house) was having a very loud party...i live in a nice quiet suburb and they have cars coming and going at all hours of the day and night, but this night something clicked in my head and i got really pissed and yelled "shut the fuck up" out my window. at that point my dad came upstairs to calm me down, which didn't work but redirected my rage. he asked me if i wanted them coming over and vandalizing the house to which i said "if they do that I'll kill'em and do it with a smile on my face. he said i wasn't going to do anything and i asked him if he was going to do anything about it and he said no...so i called him names and started packing shit up to leave. now i collect knives and swords, medieval stuff, and i threw one of my knives into the floor (which i do regularly just playing around...even when i'm sober and sane). he was frightened for my well being and that of the family so he called the cops and they took me to the hospital where i sat in a very sparse room till my alcohol level went down low enough to transport me to the CRU which was like a dorm for 8 people all with mental illness. there were people pacing the hall and talking to themselves and saying nonsense things over and over...they even had to actually take one patient out in hand cuffs to a real mental hospital. so mostly i stayed in my room reading and playing free cell (which is very difficult without a computer) today, after five days of "observation" and "therapy" (therapy for disorders that had nothing to do with my personal problems) they finally released me and are requiring me to see a psychiatrist again, which i hate because i hate talking about myself and usually my weeks are uneventful and i really have nothing to talk about...so i'm back where i was 3 years ago when i had to ramble on for an hour about my feelings weather i'm having any or not.
kay:
Oh love. Sounds like quite the mess.
EvilVampireRyoko (12:57:56 AM): mew?
Mortius Risen (12:58:41 AM): sup girl
EvilVampireRyoko (12:59:06 AM): not a whole lot..was sleeping but my comp woke me up..
Mortius Risen (12:59:35 AM): how ya feelin'?
EvilVampireRyoko (1:00:02 AM): bleh.. I could use someone to hold me right now..btw sorry about last night
Mortius Risen (1:00:30 AM): hey...no reason to be sorry
Mortius Risen (1:01:32 AM): i just wish i...
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Mortius Risen (12:58:41 AM): sup girl
EvilVampireRyoko (12:59:06 AM): not a whole lot..was sleeping but my comp woke me up..
Mortius Risen (12:59:35 AM): how ya feelin'?
EvilVampireRyoko (1:00:02 AM): bleh.. I could use someone to hold me right now..btw sorry about last night
Mortius Risen (1:00:30 AM): hey...no reason to be sorry
Mortius Risen (1:01:32 AM): i just wish i...
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threestares:
an interesting conversation. i wonder what happened next.
as a former full time enabler i avoid anyone i am over eager to assist.
how are you?
as a former full time enabler i avoid anyone i am over eager to assist.
how are you?
well hell, i went on that okcupid place and filled out all the stuff, and who do i meet...another chick as crazy as i am and not in the good way. plus as it is i'm not attracted to her physically...but being lonely as hell, we go out and end up making out, get a lil bj action, but can't cum! i mean is my...
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kay:
I'm sorry love.
I'm sorry love.Winter...
That reoccurring theme running through my soul.
Deadening my heart and stilling my will.
Mad and frost bitten I plea for deaths final embrace.
As the season pushes onward
Spring never coming soon enough,
Never warming the core.
As I sit in silence watching the snow,
I see myself falling further into freezing.
I see useless hands blackened and dead.
I thought these fingers...
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That reoccurring theme running through my soul.
Deadening my heart and stilling my will.
Mad and frost bitten I plea for deaths final embrace.
As the season pushes onward
Spring never coming soon enough,
Never warming the core.
As I sit in silence watching the snow,
I see myself falling further into freezing.
I see useless hands blackened and dead.
I thought these fingers...
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threestares:
hello my friend. how is life in wv?
threestares:
i'm good. spending more time with cyberian porn than i should....
is the snow in your poem metaphorical, or does it snow that far down south?
is the snow in your poem metaphorical, or does it snow that far down south?
The first Vampire...
Lilith birthed many children but the angels Sanvai, Sansanvai, and Semanglof came for each. After her union with Cain, Lilith returned to the abandoned gardens of Eden and gave birth inside the cave where she slept after first leaving Adam to name his paradise. Inside the cave she warned her son "Hide well from the light of the sun for it is...
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Lilith birthed many children but the angels Sanvai, Sansanvai, and Semanglof came for each. After her union with Cain, Lilith returned to the abandoned gardens of Eden and gave birth inside the cave where she slept after first leaving Adam to name his paradise. Inside the cave she warned her son "Hide well from the light of the sun for it is...
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kay:
Sorry I have not been around so much. I'm having serious problems with the computer. I cannot even get connected to chats or IM's it would seem. GAH.
Hope you are well love.
~cheers
Hope you are well love.
~cheers