i still didnt sleep. FUCK. im crabby and i feel hostile.
nightvixen get up you silly ass, your one of the few worthy ones! *bows to you too!* i told xip about our roadtrip. altho i dont know where we r going fuckit lets go. well stop by and kidnap her and we can grab ash, hopefully her tooth is better.
anyone else comin...
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nightvixen get up you silly ass, your one of the few worthy ones! *bows to you too!* i told xip about our roadtrip. altho i dont know where we r going fuckit lets go. well stop by and kidnap her and we can grab ash, hopefully her tooth is better.
anyone else comin...
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takesatraintocry:
I'm glad your pool party incident had a happy ending... great story
takesatraintocry:
I know - I'm in chicago too, and mushrooms are hard to come by around here. fucking climate sucks in so many ways... oh well. where's your roadtrip heading?
i feel ok.
i think i'll actually sleep tonight
nini sg
if i were a whisper id live in your soul and make love with your dreams
big wet kisses and some mad zombie love xip
get me some ACID i could use a step out of this dimension
bow down to HER you unworthy fuckers
i think i'll actually sleep tonight
nini sg
if i were a whisper id live in your soul and make love with your dreams
big wet kisses and some mad zombie love xip
get me some ACID i could use a step out of this dimension
bow down to HER you unworthy fuckers
i have given YOU every oportunity to stand up and do the right thing and let me go. And yet YOU still refuse. Now YOU arent even responding to me.
YOU tell me its YOU who coudnt do this and that and its YOU who hasnt the CONVICTION to release me, yet I am the one suffering for it.
i WILL not suffer for YOUR...
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YOU tell me its YOU who coudnt do this and that and its YOU who hasnt the CONVICTION to release me, yet I am the one suffering for it.
i WILL not suffer for YOUR...
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if you have never heard the music of claire voyant
DO SO NOW!
i recommend the song Pieces
new song to really fit my current situation
"Sooner or Later" by Breaking Benjamin
wish he could hear it
xip baby scroll lol i wrote a big one for u v
nightvixen im ok sexy just trying to breathe. you havent been on yahoo!
DO SO NOW!
i recommend the song Pieces
new song to really fit my current situation
"Sooner or Later" by Breaking Benjamin
wish he could hear it
xip baby scroll lol i wrote a big one for u v
nightvixen im ok sexy just trying to breathe. you havent been on yahoo!
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nightvixen:
woo hoo...been working my ass off,im gonna enjoy a few days off now,happy to hear you're ok.ill be online feel free to buzz me!
later you sexy ass thing!
later you sexy ass thing!
chanel:
awwwwwwwww. you definately have me beat with the stap-on.
touche.
touche.
another day. another night of no sleep. i feel like a zombie.
my tummy hurts.
ive made too many entries in the last cpl days.
wish they werent all so painful sounding.
someday they wont be.
i have a headache.
fuck
another day in paradise
my tummy hurts.
ive made too many entries in the last cpl days.
wish they werent all so painful sounding.
someday they wont be.
i have a headache.
fuck
another day in paradise
GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD
fuck.
i have to sleep
i havent slept in days
fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck!
life is so fucked up
i really tried to pretend i was over it
im so not
fuck
fuck.
i have to sleep
i havent slept in days
fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck!
life is so fucked up
i really tried to pretend i was over it
im so not
fuck
nightvixen:
ive been in meetings alot this week,is everything ok?im here if you need me chick!
if i had to use one word to describe myself, it would be, at the present moment, numb.
im not sure i feel to much right now.
im really unsure if i want to know what word people would pick for me, but fuck it.
what would you use?
xip, my sweet and raunchy love muffin, your last response in my journal made me jump...
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im not sure i feel to much right now.
im really unsure if i want to know what word people would pick for me, but fuck it.
what would you use?
xip, my sweet and raunchy love muffin, your last response in my journal made me jump...
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to answer your ?? xip :
"real"
but truth be told i could write a novel about you.
one word isnt fair
much love
things need to be done in threes. 2nd plea help me plz
"real"
but truth be told i could write a novel about you.
one word isnt fair
much love
things need to be done in threes. 2nd plea help me plz
xip:
There is a particular set that I think you will really like but it'll probably take a while for the set to go live, as SG initially rejected it because I started out topless and I needed to start out completely clothed for it to be acceptable... so I have to do a reshoot, possibly tomorrow, and resend it... I think you'll really love it... it's very gritty and more artistic I think than sexual, but beautiful.
As far as your "master"... like I said, I went thru something very, -very- similar to what you're going through now... I used to regard my master as god-like, I literally worshipped him, I did everything he asked, I never questioned him, my ONLY care was to make myself perfect for him... and as he became more and more obsessed with keeping me and forging me into his "perfect woman," he started really losing control, and finally things just spiraled so BADLY that I was forced to see him as what he was, a fucking human being, not a god, but just another man... people only have as much control as we give them and we CAN take it back...
My "master"? He fucked other women while I cried about it in front of his face, and did nothing but tell me that as long as I was going to let him do it (as long as I wouldn't leave him over it), he would do it... my "Master" described to me in genuine detail the ways in which he would kill me if I left him, including hurting my little sister and impregnating me and forcing me to self-abort by feeding me poison... my "Master" had a complete mental breakdown when I left him and started living my own life again, was told to get counseling by his advisor... told out-and-out lies about me to other people, like that I was violent and insane... oh yeah last but not least RAPED ME... which is something I have -only- ever mentioned on this site, no one, NO ONE in my real personal life knows... raped me anally, while I screamed no and he held me against him and I clawed the bedspread, then later told me he was sorry, it was MY fault because I -made- him so hedonistic...
DOMS AREN'T GODS
DOMS ARE JUST MEN THAT WE GIVE GOD-LIKE POWER
We give it and we can take it away, when they make it abundantly clear that they don't deserve it, they're not all-knowing, they're not all-powerful, they're just regular old DICKS who happened to trick GIRLS LIKE US into thinking they were something better, something so strong and important that they DESERVED the superior power and allegiance we gave them... but they DON'T.
It took me a long time to -start- walking away, and then it still took me a long time to walk away for GOOD, and never speak to him again... even after all he did to me.. because of all that prescribed power we give them..
but they are just men, not doms but fucking loserass ex-boyfriends, they're SELFISH, they USED us, and MANIPULATED us into thinking they were better than they were so we'd give them more than we should've... but it's not too late to take it back.
I hope this helped
love you
xip
As far as your "master"... like I said, I went thru something very, -very- similar to what you're going through now... I used to regard my master as god-like, I literally worshipped him, I did everything he asked, I never questioned him, my ONLY care was to make myself perfect for him... and as he became more and more obsessed with keeping me and forging me into his "perfect woman," he started really losing control, and finally things just spiraled so BADLY that I was forced to see him as what he was, a fucking human being, not a god, but just another man... people only have as much control as we give them and we CAN take it back...
My "master"? He fucked other women while I cried about it in front of his face, and did nothing but tell me that as long as I was going to let him do it (as long as I wouldn't leave him over it), he would do it... my "Master" described to me in genuine detail the ways in which he would kill me if I left him, including hurting my little sister and impregnating me and forcing me to self-abort by feeding me poison... my "Master" had a complete mental breakdown when I left him and started living my own life again, was told to get counseling by his advisor... told out-and-out lies about me to other people, like that I was violent and insane... oh yeah last but not least RAPED ME... which is something I have -only- ever mentioned on this site, no one, NO ONE in my real personal life knows... raped me anally, while I screamed no and he held me against him and I clawed the bedspread, then later told me he was sorry, it was MY fault because I -made- him so hedonistic...
DOMS AREN'T GODS
DOMS ARE JUST MEN THAT WE GIVE GOD-LIKE POWER
We give it and we can take it away, when they make it abundantly clear that they don't deserve it, they're not all-knowing, they're not all-powerful, they're just regular old DICKS who happened to trick GIRLS LIKE US into thinking they were something better, something so strong and important that they DESERVED the superior power and allegiance we gave them... but they DON'T.
It took me a long time to -start- walking away, and then it still took me a long time to walk away for GOOD, and never speak to him again... even after all he did to me.. because of all that prescribed power we give them..
but they are just men, not doms but fucking loserass ex-boyfriends, they're SELFISH, they USED us, and MANIPULATED us into thinking they were better than they were so we'd give them more than we should've... but it's not too late to take it back.
I hope this helped
love you
xip
jordan:
hey hey whatcha doin 
thanx btw for letting me know there's another 'six feet under' season, maybe one day my broke ass will be able to afford HBO, or even a flippin' issue of Maxim which i only want cos its got britney murphy in there and she blows my mind! anyway talk to you later 
thanx btw for letting me know there's another 'six feet under' season, maybe one day my broke ass will be able to afford HBO, or even a flippin' issue of Maxim which i only want cos its got britney murphy in there and she blows my mind! anyway talk to you later A publicly personal plea from me
i may be foul mouthed and brash and whatever but i am also a submissive.
goddess please i need your help
he took me, he took my heart and he trained my soul
he pushed me farther than any other
he twisted me so hard inside i moved and breathed
For Him Alone
i gave all i was and...
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i may be foul mouthed and brash and whatever but i am also a submissive.
goddess please i need your help
he took me, he took my heart and he trained my soul
he pushed me farther than any other
he twisted me so hard inside i moved and breathed
For Him Alone
i gave all i was and...
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well its officially over now.
not only did he lie until the LAST SECOND
he didnt even bother to leave me for her
he was already with her
so i left him
you cant turn off the way you feel. i still love him
and part of me even thinks i want him back
but im better than that
and worth more than that
she...
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not only did he lie until the LAST SECOND
he didnt even bother to leave me for her
he was already with her
so i left him
you cant turn off the way you feel. i still love him
and part of me even thinks i want him back
but im better than that
and worth more than that
she...
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poem:
aww, poor thing. I know how you feel
xip:
I once had a "master" too... treating another human being at such a super-human level and then having them prove to you that they were so undeserving... just makes you feel stupid. But at least I learned to never make that mistake again.
Aww you like me more than anyone else ever has I think I dedicate my nude image to you!
xip
Aww you like me more than anyone else ever has I think
I dedicate my nude image to you!
xip
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
here ya go fuckers
some amusement
http://www.threebrain.com/weeeeee.shtml
http://www.threebrain.com/songs/hypo.html
GONADS and Strife!!
here ya go fuckers
some amusement
http://www.threebrain.com/weeeeee.shtml
http://www.threebrain.com/songs/hypo.html
GONADS and Strife!!
xip:
*kiss*
Glad you're feeling better.
I'd go look at those links but for some strange, FUCKED UP reason, SG is the only site that is working on my Internet right now.
But I guess I don't really mind because SG is the only website I ever go to or care about...
xip
Glad you're feeling better.
I'd go look at those links but for some strange, FUCKED UP reason, SG is the only site that is working on my Internet right now.
But I guess I don't really mind because SG is the only website I ever go to or care about...
xip
over it.
nini
nini