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Nothing too long but longing itself...

I really can't keep up that kind of bitterness for any length of time. A few years ago it was a kind of companion, but the self-doubt that comes along with it is just not my scene anymore.

My optimism has taken a little bit of a blow. I believe that I ought to give that glimmering a rest,...
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complicity:
confusion and clouded judgement rule my world at the moment. Bittterness i guess, is just the flipside of optimism and self doubt the thing that allows us to feel achievment when we overcome adversity. smile
saintadatha:
tell me about it.
still upwards and onwards, as they say.

kiss
and if there was a *hug* emoticonthingummy, one of those too...
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suicidedoggie:
Oh, and thanks for the poem reference. But I can't seem to find it in print...?
stupidpony:
Dude your so right men suck! I saw the Chinese president, Hu Jintao today, he's a man & he blows bigger than a whale. At least it's not raining... or is it.?
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sunfeather:
I am looking forward to it.
mrstars:
hey gorgeous,
thought id say hi havent spoke in a little while, i been so busy with college and work. having fun though.....did tracingpaper negatives and other fun stuff i aint done in ages. yay.
xxxxxx
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I am off to Prague for 4 days work. Yay! I woke up dreaming of it this morning. Prague is a special place for me, I spent a magical 3 months there when I first came to Europe from Australia.

I worry, I worry that boys just want to be fucked by me, and nothing more. Or that I somehow make them think that all...
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addae:
I'm longing the moment of your return.
jena:
WHAT, you are not classy?! Why do you say this? Your name and profile pic indicates otherwise. smile
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Maybe he's no romeo
But he's my lovin' one man show
Oh, woh, oh oh!
Let's hear it for the boy!


Ha, this song has been circling my head and making me smirk all day. Yes, I got some. How much of a brat am I? Ask you and shall recieve eh?

Things I thought today:
- Sex is like a conversation, remember to respond...
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perdy:
Ha you just wait, miserable vulnerabilityis my secret weapon, if you wup my ass i'll just cry on you, so there.
xcdat:
Congrats on your good fortune. wink

Just read your response to Perdy's journal... Very well put. Courage never has been entered into my mental equation, but I agree it should be there.
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so, today i thunk...


1. Don't compare yourself to others, just do your best every time. I find it kind of troubling that often when I admire another I then look to myself and find self wanting. I'm a hard judge, and I don't think it's a good way to be. I met a lovely lady named Leif a few weeks ago and I liked...
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sunfeather:
'It seems that every month is about some type of wine for you.'
Ha, touch!
tongue

I explained the K-hole to birdgirl here.

As for Valerie Solanas and Keith Ansell Pearson: the latter was in my journal several times (=twice) last month; the former founded the Society for Cutting Up Men (SCUM).
biggrin

Innocence is doubtless a film I'll have to see, although we lag a few weeks behind you out here in the sticks...
wink

Er, that's it!
escottie:
http://www.met-art.com

actually swiped from another member, but that's the original source.
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I was dreamin' when I wrote this
I still dream of Organon
Forgive me if it goes astray
I wake up crying
But when I woke up this mornin'
You're making rain
Coulda sworn it was judgment day
And you're just in reach
The sky was all purple,
there were people runnin' everywhere
When you and sleep escape me
Tryin' to run from the destruction,...
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brit:
Hi miss! *waves*!

sorry its taken me forever and a million to get back to you! craziness ahoy in brits life!

hope all is good with you!
xxxxxx kiss
babygiantsquid:
what can i say... i'm all talk. blackeyed
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I'm feeling much cheerier now, thanks guys.
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forkandles:
Good smile
I've finished updating now ..... yep more fucking photo's whatever
sunfeather:
Glad to hear it.
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I feel like a bad Budding Photographer, I'm taking a day off. I know, I know, it's important to not overload, take time out, but nonetheless I feel bad. If I was a good dedicated budding photographer I would be editing and retouching today, and if I forced myself I could... But forcing it ain't the way.

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bedheadchicken:
yeah, I'm very happy to hear that because that's what you SHOULD be doing.

good!
forkandles:
I'm not too bad thanks. smile I know those moods too well, so I sympathise. Today any better?
What an excellent picture. smile

I've just spent almost 2 full days editing & retouching 90-odd pics. I'm not very good with photoshop, which is partly the reason it took so long, so I cna identify with that too.

Ciel is a one-off, in a nice way. It's hard to describe someone's personality but quirky, witty & sensitive come into it, along with 'no fool'.
It's weird that someone can still be contactable elsewhere, as she is, but it doesn't feel the same in the 'outside' world.