hey sweetheart, thank you so much for supporting mesmile ...because I lose the motivation...thank you<3

From cadavre

your comment on my Waking The Dead set just made me tear up! Thank you so much for the support!love

Wednesday May 28, 2008

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Reload


Sometimes turmoil just loves to compound itself with an everincreasing number of additional layers. And of course, with a layer of chocolate syrup on top sp that it looks appealing to anyone else unfamiliar with the details. It's as if it isn't happy enough throwing the biggest monkey at you that you've ever seen. In fact, sometimes I'd about swear...
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jensen:

Yeah my dog has no manners, he is kind of a jerk, haha.

turbulence:

Thanks a lot! The silver reflector worked magic with the blue hair. Otherwise it would have been featured less. The color consistency is not perfect, but as I wrote .. in the end i liked it better smile

Tuesday Apr 01, 2008

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Okay, I've got to make a new post. I look back at this and it's just a flurry of bitches and whines about Megan. Eh, well I suppose I had a surprisingly rough time with that, but within a few weeks it was fine. I should have come back sooner to update my shit, but I'm lazy sometimes I suppose.

It's...
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Monday Jan 01, 2007

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Thoughts over New Year's

Enough here to post before Week 3


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In one sense
I should be pretty self-assured
After all, I got Megan on my own
Why wouldn't I be good enough?
Then again
By the "end"
She seemed to be wavering
But was it because of me?
Or just her?
Did the mention of my fears
Drive her away?
Hadn't...
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saafirebutterfly:

Thank you for the comment.. It sounds like you're experiencing some of what I am, except maybe from the other side. If you want to talk, feel free to come to me. I'm around all the time. I'll talk to you then.

-Candace

shell:

hi hun.. thank u so much for your absolutly nice comment.smile cheers from Switzerland

Sunday Dec 31, 2006

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Thoughts from week 2


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She's only been 21 a couple months
Where's the surprise that she had only been to a bar twice?
Especially since I wanted to take her
And she knew that I didn't want to push her
Against seeing Tony
She did that on her own
I let her know she didn't have to do it
And then...
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Thursday Dec 28, 2006

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What a twisted reality we've created for ourselves


Thoughts from week 1 (a little delayed)


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How can she be gone?
I just needed her to love me
To care about my feelings
To help me face my fears
To tell me that everything would be okay

But she couldn't
And so I couldn't let go
The way I needed to
And now...
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Wednesday Dec 13, 2006

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*pluck* She wants to date other people
*pluck* She doesn't want to date other people
*pluck* She wants to date other people
*pluck* She doesn't want to date other people


Because it *IS* dating. No way around that one.


Her decision will decide everything.


I'll find out Friday night.


Or maybe Thursday. As much as I want to ask for her decision...
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Tuesday Dec 12, 2006

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Well, today has been very interesting indeed.


First, it was an almost opposite of how I was feeling 2 days ago in the middle of typing up my blog here. It was like NOTHING could bother me ALL DAY. I wasn't worried about anything, and I wasn't even feeling like my normal "bluuugh, but I'm okay anyway" self. It was almost like...
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Monday Dec 11, 2006

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So I've been thinking it's not really THAT big a deal.


Once I got to work yesterday and started my proper day, my fears just seemed to change. It's amazing what can happen when your brain is processing better and the anxieties aren't so strong. For a little while, it was like I wasn't afraid at ALL.


As in so...
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Sunday Dec 10, 2006

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I know that it was technically today that I posted the last message, but since my schedule runs later than most, I still consider it last night.


I didn't get much sleep due to watching a movie with DN and driving his ass to a place near his job so that he could see if they had his cell phone. Blaugh.


So anyway, this...
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