melvina

Im so sorry, I am very depressed and I dont have a job so I know where youre coming from; if you need anything let me know.

same here. i don't know what i'm going to do damn it. meh. just a big, fat. MEH.

I know that felling of being empty.

I hope the tattoo terns out good.

I hope I get a job soon; Im so stressed about it.

Im sorry.

yay, no dying and no, there are no plaid high waters at this wal mart. i am sad because i need them.

i got my official letter today. mad mad paper work. i am now an OFFICIAL employee of SAIC and i make several thousand dollars more than those fucks at oakwood, MU HAHHAHAHAHAHA!

oh. that is. if i pass the drug test, meds and all. meh. and. YOU LOOK SO FUCKING HOT. just. you know. sayin'.

What do you mean by this P.S. somebody please tell me when SGKY is up, eh? Id really really like to go. MWAH! Thx.

I was talking about all of it.

You know I would find your comments a lot sooner if you put them on my journal but what ever.

medusa. i love those... plus with your lips. it would look grand. call me. oh. and mel. i had to say "driving through the hurricane in the dark, we do not hydroplane and die" about a million times on tuesday. it was bad. there were sheets of water flying across the road. and the truck did not like driving through them. but i got home safe. we had to stop in slidell because it was too dangerous to try and cross the lake. fuck. next time i go anywhere. i am flying. because planes crash much less often than cars. and also, there are no mac trucks going 100 mph in the dangerous roads that look like rivers but are really roads. just very wet ones. and torrential downpours. it was not a hurricane. it was a tropical storm. but the damage was worse than Ivan, so. fuck it. also in birmingham i saw a church with a fountain made of blood. not real blood. but it was supposed to look like blood. and it did. and a sign in montgomery that said "go to church or the devil will get you". and alabama is a god state, very much so. but i have no had coffee yet. so if this all makes no sense, that is why. but call me today. yes. indeed. i miss you. rawr. that is all.

love. the beck.

next year is next year.
before then...We need to get together!!!!!!!!

of course we will!!!

you will be coming out my direction if you get it then. I live at the begining of 461. You better get your butt to the SGKY event too. Its out this direction also.

OMG when it the SGKY thingie?!?!

mu ha ha haa.. i took a nap with no dreams on the couch. i did not light myself on fire and I.AM.GLAD. <3

You know? I'm not sure how I would feel. When I lost Eric, I grasped for anything of his for weeks, and then the anger set in of the fact he was never true. honest. or apreciative. Plus he had left me alone, with his bills. his kids. and a broken heart.
and yet. it still hurts. I feel for you and your sister. I hope you have many lovely nights waiting for the whispers I have already tried to forget in my own home.
i do not find it strange. i find it intriging. more confident than you know. and loving.
you to will meet again in person(not just spirit) one day.
-tash

mu ha ha ha ha haaaaaaaa. okid oki, ma'm.

just tell her "no", sternly when she bites. or "no biting"- that's what i used with the ponch. hold her mouth gently closed, but be careful not to make her bite her own tongue. when she loses her puppy teeth it will not be as bad. those fuckers are sharp! also another thing that works is, if she gets to riled up and is play biting, roll her on her back and hold her there, telling her "settle" or "calm down" or something. hold her (not too hard, but firm enough to keep her there) until she settle down and stops fighting you. then tell her good girl, and let her up. this is an excersise in establishing your dominance as the "alpha dog", and will teach her in a way that she understands that you are the boss. if you do these things over and over again while she's a pup, she'll learn it pretty quickly. poncho still play bites, but stops when i tell him "no biting". hope that helps...

and give me a call today. rar! i haven't talked to you in weeks, bitch!

love. <3 beck.

there are pics in my profile!! and good luck dont cut you fucking hair!!!! or i shall do something very really really bad!!

oooo! threats of violence upon my person.

how. oddly. exciting. yar.

cackle. fantastic you, justin... and. love.the.hawk.

n'sync?

mu ha ha. i wasted my two days off with sleeping, which is a luxury i never am permitted. work tomorrow.

I HAVE THE PUPPY. her name is pallu. she is a chiuaua. and SHE LOVES ME. more later. my throat hurts. i am getting sick. AGAIN. and damn it. derelict. i should straighten this place up and have a get together when i get the weekend off. i think it's.. not this weekend but next... hum? i should. look at the schedule and see.

more later. more more later, yes. <3