littlelolita

wow, it's so funny when you don't write in your online journal for a few months to see just how quckily you and life are changing.
So i ended up being that guys 5th kiss. he inspires me to draw which is the most fulfilling aspect of our relationship, but he scares me at the same time. it's deathly frightening not knowing someone enough to...
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so i like a boy again....i'm not usually attracted to boys so when i am, it's a real special thing for me. he makes me all giddy! i went over to his house after we both got off work-yes we do work together! and i stayed three hours longer than i was supposed to and even as i was leaving he kept tellimg me not...
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well dating my girlfriend was nice until it wasn't so nice...ultimately I just don't like open relationships. So now I'm perfeclty content acutally being alone and able to focus on myself in my solitude. I got accepted to Sonoma State's Psych department for the fall, that's groovy by my standards. What else is update worthy...uhm my dad is finally going to get remarried, my parents...
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it's been a hectic couple of weeks. my ex boyfriend has been gone three weeks and he just got a cell phone and has called me twice, since he misses me so much. it's nice how a little time and distance help you appreciate what was once there. I am now involved with a girl, a mutual friend of my ex as well, which he...
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me ex and i connected on a wonderful level just before and up until the point he left on the 19th. i used to identify as his girlfriend for so long, now i am in the middle of discovering a more centralized identity. I really want to eat a burrito tomorrow and go for a hike. i have some exciting pictures to post soon!

dude relationships are exactly like drugs. at first it's good, then the come down fucking blows!!!! sex is similar...it's hard to continue having sex with someone you love more intimately and pretend it doesn't hurt.

well, i'm at a happy place, that involves happiness, but just as i think all is going well, i get in a car accident, all my fault too of course. my hood won't open, and my car has already been salvaged after someone backed into me in a parking lot last summer....it's official, i drive a beater!
school has begun again, that's nice, i actualy...
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today i woke up and i feel so free. waiting around until the boy gets back from australia seems silly. I'm looking forward to the experiences of wonderful new people in my life....

i am in so much pain right now, this really realy sucks..i've been sick ever since new years, it's my own fault i know, but school starts next monday and i have to be at work at 6 am tomorrow, all my friends are in town visiting before returning to their respective colleges, and here i am, cold and achy, this really sucks! so, i...
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so my ex boyfriend decided that he still wants to see me until he leaves for australia for three months, but he still wants his freedom....so i've tried dealing with some sort of new relationship but now we are not dating, but we are more than friends, and everytime i'm with him it's nice, but then when i wake up the next morning i feel...
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i just finished eating dinner at my family's christmas reunion, and it was really quite pleasant to see all of the family get closer to one another, I finally have a lot in common with all my cousins, and it makes me smile as I think now about all my family that loves me.....and i feel sad for people who are not close with their...
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