Thursday Mar 18, 2004

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if anyone wants to keep in contact, please do so now. I may not be long for this particular scene.

the sword of damocles is fallen.

it must be nice to have absolute power. I comment and it vanishes. I speak and I am silenced.

this is not truth. why am I suffering libel without allowance to defend myself?
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lordpyrate:

I hate this. Probably not as much as you do, but I hate it just the same.

lotus:

oh please. give me a freaking break. You deserve this.

Wednesday Mar 17, 2004

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as a break from all my emo BS

"we are from finland..."

"1 2 3 4
you are not my friend
you are my foe
you are two feet tall
you have got to go!

THIS IS DWARF INVASION

shut up diak

this is not a friend
you are very small
you can barely stand up to me
you can't play basketball

THIS IS...
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stipud:

Not bad. I like my song more. When you listen to it (and you will), make sure your volume is cranked.

toria:

come out and visit me!!!!! smile smile smile

Tuesday Mar 16, 2004

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I could fight the fact that my life is changing. I could struggle against this fluctuation and end up breaking like a wave on the shore.

Instead, I'm going with it. I think the best thing to do is to roll with this feeling. So I'm quitting my job and getting out of this town. I've made some really good friends that...
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oryx:

are you going to be able to see your brother?

oryx:

good.

and thanks.

Monday Mar 15, 2004

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These are tears I won't soon forget.
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lotus:

I hear you. I love you

lord_shade:

Tell me about it sometime. I'm curious what the tears are all about.

Don't forget how you felt awhile back, like nothing was going to stop you. I know I didn't.

Sunday Mar 14, 2004

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A revelation. Read this and NEVER FORGET.

Being happy causes suffering. The only way to survive is to reconcile how much suffering you are capable of causing with how happy you need to be.

I have never felt so callous.
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oryx:

i won't forget, don't worry.

edited to add: hey wait, i'm happy, and there is no one suffering... i wonder how that works.

[Edited on Mar 15, 2004 12:25AM]

rin:

skull

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Sunday Mar 14, 2004

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Will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs
and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over: I will block the door
like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter
of a tied-game of rivalry

So just say how to make it right
and I swear I'll do...
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malloreigh:

you will hear
the shrillest highs and lowest lows with
the windows down when this is guiding you home


there is no such thing as overuse of good poetry.

[Edited on Mar 14, 2004 8:00PM]

malloreigh:

yes, most of the time it is, and why aren't you on msn, silly?

Friday Mar 12, 2004

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*sigh* I don't have a journal to write. I just can't stand my last one.

The drama of my personal life is so all-consuming I think I may end up having an aneurysm. So much stress.

Does someone want to decide the course of my life for me, please?
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malloreigh:

HAHAHAHA oh my god you get more sexual harassment than i do!

atrasties:

Nope, each persons destiny is theirs to mold, but just be sure the choices are yours and made with honesty and an open heart. I do wish you good luck though, you hot canuck fella. wink

Thursday Mar 11, 2004

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I am a technology whore. I am posting this from my hours old ibook. Another item to add to the pile of things I desired but did not truly need. I am, howver, very happy with.

My life remains in a state of flux, alternately fluid and frightening and stable and solid. I am coming closer to deciding exactly what it is that makes me...
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aya:

How comforting yet traitorous our consumerism is..

It's nice to have stuff but it costs too damn much smile

lotus:

that scares me

Wednesday Mar 10, 2004

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sometimes nothing makes sense.
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lotus:

soy and sauce baby
even more

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yurikoviolet:

can I email-rant to you about my life?
y.v.

Tuesday Mar 09, 2004

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promise me the sun will rise again
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lotus:

my head is empty, my toes are warm, I am safe from harm...

asreal1:

i hope you're doing ok, too.

Monday Mar 08, 2004

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Sometimes I tire of defending myself.

Edit: I'm feeling in a very aggravated mood and am unable to cope with it. It's really making me angry and shaky and I'm totally on edge. Relaxation is a faint memory.

Urgh.
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lemonkid:

Join me in my search for power...

lemonkid:

yeah.. and his body's soaked in sacred oils.. perfumed herbs will heal your sores.

re-patriate to your home province...

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