Forgetting how to talk o.O

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So fairly often I don't see anyone at all for a week or two. This used to be longer but now I have some people I like to see in London :) anyway when I am not seeing anyone and I have no work coming up I tend to not speak at all.

If I go to the supermarket I use the self-checkout, if I...
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delmantus:

Used to do it regularly, however I came across the same thing my voice sounded different to how I remembered it. kinda freaked me out so I try not to do it anymore.

Time to remember that you're all alone

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So I am continuing my tradition of failing to find a really awesome woman who is single... I've met so many gorgeous women in the past 12 months but all of them are in relationships/married/lesbians it really makes me want to go and kick someone in the face for screwing with me :)

I've never really been someone who goes out specifically...
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almost_missed:

You are not alone bro! And if it makes you feel any better there are thousands of only heart out there with you man! :D And I pretty much slept the whole day away today cause finally there wasn't any school today and I don't have a date either, so was thinking hey might as well make good use of my day :P

stuff

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Since Saturday I've had a lot of time to think. I have been sick since then and have only gone outside twice, anyway...

One of the things I have been thinking about is how well I know people: do I really like them or am I just nice because it's culturally expected in social situations, do I know them or have I barely...
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huno:

I'mjust the opposite of you guys. The way I make friends is totallydifferent. I'm mostly open with anyone that doesn't seem hostile andI treat pretty much everyone as a friend from the moment I know them.That sometimes makes things complicated because people are not usedto someone so friendly. ThenI get to know people and I get disappointed, or sometimes thingsappear that are difficult to handle, and we end up taking separateroutes. Just like a little filter.Anyway,at the end of the day, I think a friend is that person that is goodfor you to spend time with, and you are good for them to spend timewith. Friends make you better and make you feel better, and youshould be the same for them. Some people can unintentionally harmyou, and I walk away from those too. Even if they are wonderfulpeople. AndI understand friendship as something pressure free. I don't like yoursecond definition, because I don't like the "attached"there. I don't like people getting attached from me and I definitelyhate getting attached to people. I always get hurt if any of thosethings happen. Having someone attached to me wasthe most horrible experience I ever had. And being heavily attachedto someone myself wasn't any better. So friendship should not haveany of that.

huno:

Copy and paste here is shit :S

Title...

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So I went to see @skye_ in Manchester over the weekend with @salliss and so far as I am aware and remeber, good times were had by all :)

I made not my best but definitely a delicious shepherds pie with a good amount of weed in it :D Skye and Sal decided to go out shortly after the noms and came back 2hrs later giggling...
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skye_:

It was a great weekend and I love you too... Despite being northern!! Xxxx

From skye_

You are one of my favouritest peoples <3

kili:

:) thanks skye <3 <3 you are pretty damn awesome yourself ^^

2013, the year that was

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So, I expected 2013 to follow on in the pattern of the previous 3 years I have lived in London. Despite moving and living here and having a few jobs I didn't know anyone and I find it uncomfortable to go out to pubs/clubs etc so I didn't actually make any friends or meet anyone outside of people I worked for, and...
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karma:

Happy New Year indeed!

trills:

Hope your new year is great :)

CHRISTMASSS!!!! or close enough... and we wanted presents >.>

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So on Saturday I baked some nom cookies that I forgot to take a picture of since taking pictures of food to share with people and make them jealous of the food you have just doesn't make sense to me. Anywayyyy it was these ones Snickerdoodles, and I was making them to take with me to see @huno for our meal + presents night before...
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kili:

I will remember for future xD but it became a habit while writing :p

almost_missed:

The presents are dope! really awesome!

CBT & Referals to Behavioural Psychiatrists

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So I have now been told that CBT will not work for me. The issues I have socially are far to complex for me to just "face my fear" and overcome the problems. I am being referred to a Behavioral Psychiatrist who will hopefully be able to think of new ideas and possibly increase the amount of time I can spend with groups of people...
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huno:

Well, I think you are doing much better than what you think you are. :) And hopefully that guy will be full of fresh ideas about how to cope better. And even if you say your covering up your inability to understand or interact normally with people I've got first hand knowledge and I do know you can connect with people and make new friends. Ok, I know it's hard, I know not going out that much doesn't help. But you can, and when you do it's awesome. And can I just say how fortunate I feel to be your friend??? 

kili:

love you too @huno xx

From huno

I have to improve that testimonial I left, cause you're not only an awesome man, but one of the most intelligent, fun, cuddly, crazy, non judgemental, amazing people that I have met in years!! 

kili:

<3 gatita

huno:

I miss you!!!!