my boy wrote me the most ridiculous, over-the-top head-inflating, somewhat tongue-in-cheek, quasi slam-poetry birthday card ever, which ended up totally being my favorite gift. it's crammed full of in-jokes, but that's what 12 years (mostly) together will do. i share because i'm an exhibitionist. i stay loyal to his shit because of this.
fuck yeah, my one friend who needed the liver got one. surgery went from 6 am to noon. haven't heard anything about complications . . . so weird that she was just laying there unconscious on a respirator, waiting for someone to die, for their organs to be "harvested." fingers crossed.
meanwhile, my other friend got his right ball hacked off yesterday. the cancer metastasized... Read More
feelin like crap, so i decided to postpone my birthday til next sunday. which means i have to be 29 for another week!
rescheduled the few little things i had planned (tattoo appointment, amateur photoshoot, dinner), contacted close friends, etc. now i can just unravel and drift in pieces for a while.
the problem is clearly that i blew my wad last weekend, partying and... Read More
Read the new play "UP!" by Bridget Carpenter. It is one of the greatest shows I've ever seen. A fictional parable about the later years of Walter Griffin, the guy who invented a balloon chair. The decline of his life as an inventor, as well as a sweet treatise on love and relationships. It also has tightrope walkers, and a fifteen year old who speaks French and is preggers. What more do you want. If you don't get back to fightin' speed. you sucka MC, there will be hell to pay. The love thing isn't working out for the best. When I get to Seattle I'll message you the juice.
this also filed under official: (het) guys, when you're leaning in to make that first move (assuming you're the one starting to fire things up and not her) please don't first say "hi," all soft and sultry, like, okay, now let's cut the bullshit and really get down to business, hi. i don't like it. maybe others do.... Read More
You can only "hi" if it comes across like a mutual joke. Opening up the joint understanding of the sneaky "hi" now makes it acceptable on pretense of trying to be boyishly charming. I also dislike the L-word. Nothing hurts me more than trying to watch beautiful makeout, only to have them fight about nothing for an hour. MOre to say but I'm going to the theater
i should totally go into PR, as i seem to have created a bit of a stir about something that's really not that big a deal. so PR it is!
thanks for all your sweet anticipatory comments (there are only 3 photos, guys. and none of them are dirty per se, unless you count the fact that in the third one, that black blur is... Read More
My mom used to put me in the car and drive me around the block to make me fall asleep...when I was a baby, not now. Now it just happens with anybody driving.
foiled! the photog decided she liked me better with NO MAKEUP! mommy?
it was okay though, it was very fun and way more intimate than i'd imagined (oh, you'll see). i like doing arty modeling. i want to do more (yup, add it to the list).
in other news, i bought like $70 worth of vintage and cheesy designer shoes today (quite... Read More
some grad school chick's coming over today. i'm gonna model for some (clothed) photos for a project she's working on.
she's doing my makeup, which is the most exciting part to me. it's usually so hard for me to just sit back and be catered to/taken care of in any way, but in this context, it's all business. i get lulled when people do (non-sexual)... Read More
i love having my make-up done. its been years. hmm, maybe i should indulge. my sister compulsively goes to MAC and lets them have at her for the slightest reason (fri nite anyone?)
I know, sooo bored. I took it upon myself to comment on at least ten stranger's journals. I'm beginning to think I won't hear back though, because I'm not a girl and I no longer have a cute kitty as a profile pic. I guess one has to expect a certain level of shallowness from a naked girl site
It's not that you're my stalker, it's just that most of my peeps are MySpacers, and Friendsterians...aaand yeeeaaahhh, I'm still " ". It's just a smidge complicated and shitty because we don't have time enough together to get into it. Because in order to be successful at what I do it seems I'm bound to always be moving. She's an amazing person. I just have to hope it'll keep. Yet the only right thing to do is let it alone, and I can't rightly think of anyhtin' else. The suck part is this means I'm gonna miss out on all kinds of meaningless sex in Seattle. se l'amour. If I was half the man my facial hair is, I'd let it go and be handsomely heartless. Unfortunately, reading the Sunday Times aloud, with her snuggled against me, destroys a Rome of hotel threesomes.
P.S. I just got Lasik. I have to wear action goggles when I sleep. Sweet Dreams, Honey.
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". It's just a smidge complicated and shitty because we don't have time enough together to get into it. Because in order to be successful at what I do it seems I'm bound to always be moving. She's an amazing person. I just have to hope it'll keep. Yet the only right thing to do is let it alone, and I can't rightly think of anyhtin' else. The suck part is this means I'm gonna miss out on all kinds of meaningless sex in Seattle. se l'amour. If I was half the man my facial hair is, I'd let it go and be handsomely heartless. Unfortunately, reading the Sunday Times aloud, with her snuggled against me, destroys a Rome of hotel threesomes. 