Wow it is indeed amazing how time flies when you're having fun Or when you're being ground into pulp by your soul-crushing job. Or too busy pretending to be somewhere else to pay much attention to RL
So Warsaw was cool - very cold but very pretty. Also some wonderful food - the Polish are into their game so I had wild boar, venison, goose,... Read More
I think I really need to get away from myself as horribly cliched as that sounds. DrewBeckett is definitely right, I'm just stuck in a perpetual routine that never really changes even if I want it to. It's a poor state of affairs when you can't even tell the days apart sometimes.
I can empathise with your work situation, things never stay good or settled for long where I am. Management restructuring can be a nightmare or a blessing it's purely down to luck. There's 400 odd people where I work and it's inherently political it's not what you know but who you know. I feel sorry for people actually trying to make a career out of it since if the store manager doesn't like you for whatever reason then you'll go nowhere regardless of how good you are at your job. Working your arse off for 5 years to then be completely looked over? No thanks.
I've not got it myself yet, although I'll pick it up shortly. I'm totally picking up the new Twisted Metal too.
So I've reverted to being something of a hermit lately. Partly this has been to distinct lack of cash to spare, and partly it's also been due to a string of recurring illnesses. Nothing that's put me a death's door or that requires a great deal of sympathy, but enough to mess with my work, my sleeping patterns and my pitiful attempts at a social... Read More
I think my utter lack of friends who live nearby has just made my life a completely and utterly predictable routine, it's really hard to get motivated about things when you really don't like going places on your own. I spend a lot of time writing, watching films, reading, playing games or teaching myself new stuff like how to make GIFS in Photoshop or whatever and it's all stuff I like doing but sometimes you just want some company you know, someone you can talk to but I don't go anywhere to meet people and I really don't make friends easily and keeping them is even harder.
That's the reason I don't really want to be on my own, I would just lose it big time I'm bad enough as it is now.
If you're friends with Secretary on Fezbook find me through her I've got the same photo just add me sir.
So recently I seemed to have recovered something of my old creative mojo. Winning the award for the TRON game earlier this year has galvanised me somewhat and so I've been setting out to prove I'm more than a one trick pony games designer. In the last month or so I've completed several games for playtesting and I'm already talks with a prospective publisher. Without... Read More
XPS? I know not of what you speak sir. I was just browsing wasn't thinking of actually getting from PCworld since they're pretty awful. Had a look 'round the local "megastore" and everything they have is crap, tiny crap at that. I've got a HP at the moment.
So two months have slipped by with nary a post. It would be fair to say I've been reasonably busy, but it's also fair to say that I mostly just fail at blogging, mainly because I still have this ongoing difficulty believing that many people would actually be that interested in what I have to say.
This extends even to face-to-face social time to the... Read More
Sorry for skipping England , still, I miss it so much, but sometimes I'm seriously afraid of going to England again as I fear I may not be able to leave it once again. And to stay there forever. Really. :- )
Disney's Tangled was a pleasant surprise, if something of a guilty pleasure. A novel spin on the tale of Rapunzel, the tiular girl has magic hair that is not only incredibly long, strong and prehensile, but can also heal people and make them younger. She is kept in a tower by an witch who is obssessed with... Read More
Sorority Row was more of a see how bad it is kind of deal, it's definitely up there with Valentine in the sheer tedium scale. I thought Pandorum had some good stuff going on, like the ship being at the bottom on an ocean explaining the lack of stars when they finally open the viewing port but the reveal just raises too many questions like how had the mutants survived for that long even if they were resorting to cannibalism since it's a sealed environment. It would take longer than that for them to evolve so much and adapt to the environment of the ship too but I think they kind of explained that with some sciencey sounding stuff.
I've only been following Witchblade really and only since they rebooted it with #100 and did away with the whole t and a vibe and Ron Marz started writing it, plus the art by stjepan sejic is amazing. I think it shows that pretty much the entire Topcow universe is being overseen by one writer since all the pieces he's put into play are coming together First Born and Broken Trinity were really good concise events and Artifacts actually seems way more worthy of attention than Marvels latest Big Event.
Three weeks into 2011 so far and it hasn't been so bad.
The Xmas break was nice enough, although not long enough. Spent Xmas day with my folks and my brother - it's always nice to spend time with them, even if our close proximity is usually a little trying. Ate way too much, watched Kick Ass and played a couple of board games. Caught... Read More
Oh I agree completely, they've been shopping the film at festivals for a while but despite winning rave reviews from critics at said festivals no-one's picked it up yet which is a bit disgraceful really and shows how backwards the film industry is in America really.
Thank you for your reply to my last blog. The kind words I've received have been a great help to me.
It was great to see you at Prom. Congrats on your good work news too - I've been off work for over a month now, and oddly I kind of miss having something structured to do! Never thought I'd miss work! xx
Some of you may already know that I work for a venture startup that focuses on VoIP telephony services for small business. Although a great idea in theory, our CEO and major sharedholder refuses to invest in enough staff to make sure that the work that needs doing gets done properly. In fact, there is an excess of work largely... Read More
Though I was sorry to hear about your financial woes, it sounds like you were having a very eventful time around your last post. I hope the holidays gave you what you needed and had plenty of joy left over. I can't help but notice that some of you seem to understand my rather scarce updating, as you too seem to have the same "affliction" as it were. Not that it's bad, actually it makes me smile, and I think "well, it would seem you're still keeping quite busy" and I hope to myself that it means things are going well for you and you've been perhaps having too much fun to update. As opposed to the difficulties life can sometimes present us with. I stopped in to say thank you for your words of wisdom, they have bought me comfort on many occasions when it was needed most. And you are of course, right. I keep wondering though, that different though we are, if we were so smart wouldn't we be able to relate better? Have better patience with at least some of our same kind? FIne, I get running out of patience for idiocy and politics and bullshit in general. But what about the other stuff? Why do we let it all run like this, if we're so tired of it? What is stopping us from standing up and really changing the world? That's how humans have always done it in the past, instead of fighting nature, why can't we nurture it and live with it as it is? Why do we always have to tell everyone else what is right and how to live? And why is it that all the activists and all the fanatics promote naught but hatred for the other side? Why don't they they actually try supporting something other than hate? For instance, why don't pro-lifers promote adoption? Donate to kids who did make it only to wind up unwelcome and unwanted, another number in a countless system that doesn't work? Why Why Why all the time.And most of all, what are we doing to the world?
I have, if nothing else, had lots of time to think lately.
Anyway, before that rant popped out, I stopped in to say that yes, your words did help. Thank you. And I am hanging in there. I hope you are doing the same.
I hope the new year has brought you fortune, joy, and comfort. And I hope you are well.
Hugs-
Well that last entry was both miserable and rather cryptic. Sorry about that. Sorry too for taking so long to update. And sorry a third time for this uber-long blog catchup.
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Headaches
Shortly after TheQuestion's birthday do I was plagued with a bout of nasty headaches. I had them before a couple of years ago for a couple of months straight and they... Read More
The computer like parts of my brain were all that were functioning for quite some time. In its attempts to analyse my surroundings it came up with many new concepts and analogies to categorise the world, sadly all with unmemorable gibberish names.
Hello!
Heheh, thank you good sir. You should definitely get some finger moustaches, they are highly amusing and perfect for all occasions. I may start a business.
Your trip to New Orleans sounds absolutely immense! Good work on slaying the free bars
xx
Cluster headaches are excruciating unilateral headaches of extreme intensity. The duration of the common attack ranges from as short as 15 minutes to three hours or more. The onset of an attack is rapid, and most often without the preliminary signs that are characteristic of a migraine. However, some sufferers report preliminary sensations of pain in the general area of attack, often referred... Read More
I had a conversation recently with an old friend on the subject of friendship. In the case of this particular friend, he's only recently come to appreciate how much his friendships mean to him, and how much he has handicapped himself by moving to Stoke-on-Trent, so far away from the people he knows in London and elsewhere. I pointed out that although the distance was... Read More
I think Splice has been treated a bit unfairly really, there's been pretty much zero publicity about it's release, I wouldn't have even known about it myself were it not for checking the times of another film and spotting it and I was interested in it from the start . Maybe it's not really designed with cinema in mind unlike a lot of the guff that shows nowadays. It is interesting and (perhaps deliberate?) that the film itself is a combination of an intelligent character piece and a B-movie.
The Pusher Trilogy is good, really good. I recommend you watch all three films within a few days of each other then you'll be able to pick up the re-occurring minor characters and the interconnectedness.
I've recently started doing an Open University course but I'm not very good at it and I'm not really enjoying it at all either to be frank. I think I've realised that I can write loads about things I have a vested interest in be it music, films or comics or something else as you've probably gathered but as for academia I just can't get the words to flow and it comes out stilted .
I've often toyed with the idea of doing a blog with music and film reviews and stuff on, which other people have suggested, guess I've just never got 'round to it and as weird as it may sound it kind of feels less impersonal when you know the people who read your stuff, although there's no doubt lots of people I don't know too given the size of SG.
I can empathise with your thoughts on friendship, outside of SG I have hardly any friends at all. I have one who's probably more of an acquaintance really rather than a friend that I met through work who I see occasionally for cinema outings and mutual therapy sessions. Since I'm outside her social circle she tells me anything and everything about what's troubling her in the knowledge that none of her friends are going to find out. Aside from that it's just acquaintances from night school that I don't really see outside of nightchool and no-one else.
I used to be good friends with someone else I met through work and we'd go to gigs,go see films and go to the pub pretty regularly but he got another job and we just started meeting up less and less and I seemed to be the only one making an effort and it really got me down as to why suddenly I wasn't worth the effort any more and I didn't have anyone to go to gigs with any more either which got me down even more. I don't make friends easily due to my insecurity and lack of self confidence, especially when it comes to guys. I think I compare myself to them and get reminded of all the things I don't have, case in point an old school friend is now living next door to me with his wife and 2 kids in the house he bought and he's also a manager for the same company I work for, which is a bit of a kick in the teeth in the what have you done with your life? sense really.
Friendship is a funny thing, I genuinely don't understand how it works sometimes, the girl I met at work I mentioned before, we have nothing in common aside from we used to work at the same place but we always have loads to talk about when we meet up. Another girl I used to be involved with randomly texts me occasionally just to see how I am out of some misguided notion we're friends even though the only thing between us is we used to be involved,we'll never see each other again so it confuses me that the pretence of friendship continues especially when she asks me whether I've met anyone else and tells me how amazing I am, etc, erm it's a bit late for that no?
I think I can pretty safely say that I'd be a complete utter mess if I didn't have the friends I've met through SG, since I wouldn't have anyone of evenremotely similar tastes to socially engage.
I always appreciate comments from people whether they're regular or just pop up and say something profound every six months like a literary Silent Bob. I appreciate other people's views on things and I'm always up for debate about stuff since frankly I don't get much in the way of intelligent conversation on an average week. The vast majority of people where I work seem to be from some other alternate dimension where people seem to either read The Sun and only talk about sex,football and the weather or The Daily Mail and voice their xenophobic opinions about anyone who isn't exactly like them and talk about the weather.
I realise this is probably the longest comment in the history of SG, I write like I talk.
Or when you're being ground into pulp by your soul-crushing job. 
Or too busy pretending to be somewhere else to pay much attention to RL 
, still, I miss it so much, but sometimes I'm seriously afraid of going to England again as I fear I may not be able to leave it once again. And to stay there forever. Really. :- )
