So Zepyher's best friend bitched at me about some of the things I have said lately, saying that Zephyer needs support because Mike being in Baghdad is hard on her etc etc.
Wait a second...
She dumps me for my best friend, after I have fallen in love with her, effectively ripping my heart out, AGAIN...
and I am supposed to be careful of what I say to make sure it doesn't hurt HER feelings?
Oh I forgot, I am a guy...I am supposed to just handle this shit with a fucking smile and not feel ANYTHING about it.
Men aren't allowed to have emotions.
I keep forgetting that society doesn't want men to be sensitive and emotional.
They have to be hard and "MANLY".
Don't get me wrong...I am not trying to say things that will hurt her. Her being hurt is the last thing I want, even though she seemed to have NO problem tearing my fucking heart out...
but it all boils down to me loving her...
but NOT being able to do anything about it...
Sometimes I really hate being alive.
Wait a second...
She dumps me for my best friend, after I have fallen in love with her, effectively ripping my heart out, AGAIN...
and I am supposed to be careful of what I say to make sure it doesn't hurt HER feelings?
Oh I forgot, I am a guy...I am supposed to just handle this shit with a fucking smile and not feel ANYTHING about it.
Men aren't allowed to have emotions.
I keep forgetting that society doesn't want men to be sensitive and emotional.
They have to be hard and "MANLY".
Don't get me wrong...I am not trying to say things that will hurt her. Her being hurt is the last thing I want, even though she seemed to have NO problem tearing my fucking heart out...
but it all boils down to me loving her...
but NOT being able to do anything about it...
Sometimes I really hate being alive.