Tuesday Jun 18, 2013

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Okay, so not repulsive.

This is proven by the fact that experience is proving to me that I'm only as good as what's between my legs. Any man I'm interested in, is more interested in fucking me than getting to know me.

Maybe I should follow all those rumors about ms, and just be a giant slut, of that's all men...
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skoosh:

What Shiz said.

skoosh:

Plus, let me add, it's harder to gain respect from a man when you're right away and up front just opening your legs for him. A sure bet in finding a guy who truly cares about you is to wait until marriage. If you don't want to wait until marriage you're going to have to use your instinct, gut, common sense to tell you whether or not he's a keeper. Sometimes that's difficult to figure out....for many reasons.

Hang in there. There's more to you than just what's between your legs. kiss

Saturday Jun 15, 2013

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Well that's over.

Big fat heaps of lies, I guess. I don't know. I don't understand.

I love him so much, and I can't believe that everything could be a lie, but he won't even talk to me now.

Am I really that repulsive?
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lord_renob:

You are far from repulsive hon. You deserve better then that, trust me it's his loss all the way. @};- I know it hurts now but there's def someone out there for you, someone you deserve and that'll treat you the way you should be treated.

curioustomcat:

You might never understand and the lack of understanding between you is showing that to split might simply be the right decision..

A lie goes against truth but sometimes the shape of truth is just a matter of perception. It might all look different once the view is no longer screwed by pain.
I am only guessing, lacking Details but anyway healing is now the main Task. Do not linger in searching momnets of pain for a reason you might not beable to see right now.


SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Sometimes the simply things can help a lot. Do yourself something good: This might be ice cream, a hot bath with scented oils or a dinner with friends wink


Monday May 13, 2013

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Mmmm. That was a wonderful trip down to Seaside.

Over the passed couple weeks the boyfriend and I have been discussing things, feelings, and other things. One of those things is my pain tolerance, how much I like pain, and why.

Things got a little heated before I went down there, I had a momentary lapse on judgement, and ended up carving for the first...
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lord_renob:

Wow, a very fascinating blog. That's fantastic you've found someone to share your life and fantasies with. Glad you had such a great weekend, here's to many many more to come. @};-

Wednesday May 01, 2013

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Okay, lets have an update shall we?

In my last blog, I expressed concern that my boyfriend might be going behind my back, lying, and of course: cheating. I asked for advice, and opinions, and I got some. Definitely not what I was hoping for, the general consensus being that he is cheating, or at least hiding something from me. Well, here's what I...
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brightredscream:

But he doesn't love or respect you enough to be honest with you,
To be faithful to you.
What if he contracts something?

I'm sorry hon, but no. He could be texting and calling other girls telling them the same shit.

lord_renob:

It sucks being alone. And every relationship is unique. He shouldn't be hiding things from you though, but it sounds like you know what you want and are willing to accept things as they are. You should def talk to him about, and about rules and guidelines if for no other reason then your own health and safety. Good luck, be happy. @};-

Tuesday Apr 23, 2013

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So, um, back on the cheating thing again. I'm having a really hard time.

He and I met on a dating site, and I honestly don't see a problem with that.

We've stated that cheating is ANYTHING done with someone else other than the two of us. No sexting other people, no more dating sites, no flings. None of that.

So, this...
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strider57:

You really are a gifted writer, as for the rest, you already know.....

el_bandito:

here's my thoughts. the phone lock thing means nothing. I keep my phone locked cause I don't want people fucking with it. the okcupid thing? I'll give it a pass only if you guys haven't been together long and he hasn't made an effort to completely delete it yet. maybe he's scared things might not work out right away or something. the localsin thing? complete crap. especially if he had the app on his phone. since he already mentioned being paranoid about people messing with it. and if the account was fake, im sure his buddies would have filled it with crap info and lies for a laugh. not legit info. so in my eyes. he's being shady.

Sunday Apr 21, 2013

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Hmm, where to begin, where to begin.

Down in Seaside for the weekend with my man, so wonderful. Ugh so wonderful. The sex is absolutely phenomenal. Really, it blows my mind, and I have intense and insane orgasm after orgasm. Ugh. Not having it every day kills me.

Anyhow. We started off the weekend going to Frenchy's in Santa Cruz and picking up some...
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lauretta:

I've found out that when I'm truly in love, sex gets better. I can totally relate on what you're saying and I wish the both of us to keep on enjoying having sex as much as we're doing these days ^^
wink

lord_renob:

Congrats! On both finding someone you connect with so completely and the mind blowing, soul searing sex that entails. wink

Wednesday Apr 17, 2013

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Is it true that if a guy can cheat (e.g. has the opportunity to), he will?
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shiz:

No. I'd have to be some kind of moron to cheat on my wife.

But it can depend on the opportunity. If, for instance, your tired, and emotionally close to a woman, it's late, you're alone together, and out of the blue she starts touching your cock through your pants or grinding against you, it'd be really damn difficult to put a stop to where things are going, and I doubt there are many who could. Worse still if, in addition to all that, you're "going through a rough spot".

So, maybe there's "the right circumstance" for every man that could result in cheating, I don't know. But part of guarding against that sort of shit is guarding against those opportunities, too. If, for example, I found myself alone late at night with a woman I liked in some way, well, damn, I'm probably not where I should be in the first place.

My wife and I have talked extensively about this sort of thing, though, and we're both agreed: cheating would be an issue, but one we'd get over; much worse is all the lying and deception that tends to go with it.

The best relationships are the ones that are 100% honest (but loving honesty, not like the "brutal honesty" from Jerry McGuire). Not everyone can handle that - Sara and I tell each other about our crushes, and sexual impulses, and some people are just way too fucking jealous for that shit. But we both know we're safe with each other, and that impulses and urges are just that. But it's actually a big part of why we feel safe with each other - because we know nobody's lying or playing games.

el_bandito:

any person CAN cheat. there's no magic force stopping anyone except themselves.

Thursday Apr 11, 2013

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How weird/scary is it to tell someone that you think you might love them? Is there a statute of limitation on this phrase? Is it only acceptable during the first meeting as a joke? Is it just weird if you've been dating for a month? Cause I think I might. I don't know. It feels like. Or something. It feels good. I...
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brightredscream:

We told each other we loved each other after about a month

brightredscream:

I say love all the time without it meaning "love" wink

Monday Apr 08, 2013

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So, my nips are healing relatively well. I mean, it's only been two days, but they haven't bled except for a little bit when I clean them, and that's because I'm messing with the jewelry. Um, what else. They're only hurty if they're touched or brushed up against. Idk. I like them. And I think they are beautiful on...
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countryval:

it looks great on you

lord_renob:

Looks good from what I can see! wink Glad they are healing well, enjoy 'em!