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So the surgery was cancelled today 10 minutes before the procedure. Apparently her being diagnosed 3 different times by doctors with having cancer isn't enough evidence for the insurance company to know if she should even have the surgery. I'm severely pissed right now. Why wait till the last second to decide this? I will never understand america's medical system.

My mom's surgery starts tomorrow afternoon. The doctors said it will take around 10 hours to finish everything up and then after 2 months of recovery they will begin the reconstructive surgery. Everyone is on edge now and it's only going to get worse tomorrow. A few people from my mother's side of the family will be coming to stay with us and that's just...
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I wrote a new poem today called Feeling of Fear. Let me know what you think.

This feeling of fear from having everything to lose.
A feeling of hate because you don't get to choose.
Beyond a road of black lays a gentle auburn sky.
But you were never meant to reach it, just meant to idle by.

If the right path leads to heaven...
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My mom's surgery has been scheduled for in 2 weeks. She's worried about the breast removal surgery, but every one in my family is supporting her. My family doesn't usually get along or agree on much but we're all coming together to make her feel secure. Things have been stressful around the house since christmas. Between family fighting and the usual holiday stress it's been...
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This year the holidays haven't taken as much out of me as they usually have the past few years. On 11/24/08 I became a father of twins and was happier than anyone in the world, but on Christmas morning the next month
my son Aiden had passed away. I had fallen farther than I ever thought possible and then the unthinkable happened. Just a short...
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I feel like crap today. I'm sick as a dog, tired as hell, and soo much left to do around the house. My dad is feeling the same way I am so maybe there's a bug going around or something. If it is a bug I hope it passes quickly because I don't have time to be sick. I have to clean the house between...
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Yesterday pretty much brightened up my whole month in an instant. I went over to my sister's house to watch my nephew while her and her husband went shopping. My nephew is 3 years old and is usually doesn't listen at all, but yesterday we had soo much fun. For almost 2 hours we just simply played with pillows. I'd throw one across the room...
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Today has been a lot better than I expected it to be. I can honestly say if it wasn't for my best friend I probably wouldn't be the same person I am now. When every one of my others friends turned away from me when I needed them most she was always there. She has been a rock to hold me up when all I...
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These past few days have been hell. My family really can't catch a break. First the death of one close to the family, next my father gets a severe case of the shingles, and today my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer again. This is now her 4th time getting cancer. The first two were ovarian cancer and the last two were breast cancer. That...
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I've been busy as hell all this week. The breaks on my sister's car went out on monday so i've been taking my niece to school and her to work and back all this week. I think i've been at home for maybe 10 hours all week. I've slept only 5 hours until this morning. I'm worn out, but the good thing is I don't...
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