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i like ot enjoy life whille broke too, but it's hard to find free things to go do

Virtual hugs to you beauitful lady! I hope your mind feels peace soon. And I'm TOTALY feeling your pain in many ways.... try and smile through it. Even if you're faking it!

Wow, that so sucks. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. the very few assholes on here will for sure ruin it for the rest of us. I wish you better days sweetheart!

Whoa! You know this comes off somewhat disrespectful. I do not think anyone was trying to tell you what to do. It is suggestions. It's only natural that if you talk about such stuff, some people are going to try to help, others are going to try to comfort. It is not a personal attack that deserves name calling.

School is definitely good, builds skills, but even a degree is generally not yet a career. Speaking in regards to professionalism. It is great start though. Meanwhile there are plenty of people that never make a career out of their degree. Like actors with a psychology degree. Besides life can often take unexpected turns. At 19 one is not expected to have a career yet, only to ideally be aiming toward starting one.

relax enjoy yourself have fun your not hurting anyone
most of all trust your own jugdement

Its honestly ok to talk about your ex or friend however he is too you at the moment trust me i know what your going through i'm sorta in the same predicment as you but we are actually trying to work things out at this point considering what has happened and what is going to make us stronger but the advice i can give you is well you are trying to make a difference for yourself looking for a job and what not keep being you and trying to improve yourself that will only make you stronger

Writing things out like that is definitely good. Talking about things is too, but it is best to vent, and keep moving. If you were living together that quick.... that is usually a bad idea to start, very straining to any relationship. Plus I'd still be weary of the hurtful behavior he displayed before, and even before you broke up, I recall a mention that he was saying your too needing of him, other things. I think there is still a lot to him you do not know. A female artist I produced has a song called "Pretty Truth" it is about how everybody puts up a somewhat false front when a relationship begins, sometimes after you are involved a while (a year or so) the facade drops... sometimes it can be a Pretty Truth, or sometimes is can be an Ugly Truth. You almost never see the real person in the beginning.

The main thing though, it sound like you really need to work on developing your life, not focusing on relationships. You do not need to be so dependent on ANY guy. I think a lot of young people do the same thing with getting priorities mixed up. And I have met many girls that end up in there late twenties with little to show when all the effort went into a relationship, young love, that ultimately failed. Sometimes because it never was meant to be, other times because EVERYONE changes a lot in their young adulthood. Find a career, get more hobbies, build that independence.

Viva la Revolution

hmm... well not sure where that sonic is.. i know of the one on lancaster...
but hmm keizer.
hmmm.
meh
sure its not that far, salem isnt that big.

a big hug for you darling !!!♥ ♥

easy on them drugs, stay away from the meth and that powdery stuff...

OMG OMG OMG YOU HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE TO MOVE TO SALEM!
i'll show you all the lameness.... and awesome things to do.... which is almost nothing
..but whatever!
cuz i only live in beaverton as a coverup for creepers

Oh those video games, maybe you were right to be harsh. I kid, I kid.

Anyway yup, little rubber hammerheads.

Never worry! You are beautiful, you are a suicide girl, you will always have a place in France for hosting.

It's a defense mechanism. He isn't getting what he wants. So, he retaliates against you to make himself feel better. By putting you down, he justifying to himself that he doesn't want to be with you (since you don't want to be with him). It's definitely not right, but that's what I think he is doing. If he really thought those things, he wouldn't have been with you in the first place.

I don't buy the defense excuse. I think you saw the real person. Sometimes emotions bring down the facade. He showed you his true character. Don't let his evil words bring you down. Just let it go, and move on. And, remember what I said before, I'm always here if you need someone to talk.

hmm are you going back to him girl ?

*hugs* I'm here for you Hun

WOW, so sorry to hear about this crappy turn of events. It always sucks when major things go wrong ALL at once, or they've built to a head at the same time.

These things can and will work out, maybe not for the most positive outcome, but they will iron out.

Stay strong, for yourself, and for your Gran .

Whenever things get tough, I always try to remind myself that everything happens for a reason. There is no way that this planet was positioned like this, within meters of sustaining life. Whatever it may be, I believe in a higher order and thing beyond our normal perception. Staying strong, moving forward, and following what feels right is the best way to go.

Sorry to hear about your grandma. It is probably not disillusion. People often see family passed when the end is near. Not to say that this is it. However, as we all get much older and health starts to slip, the inevitable is certainly closer. Just remember that death is not the end. Merely a transition. It is best to cherish the time we have.

I think you are getting a lot of good advice to keep some distance for a while. Many people do not realize that sex actually releases certain chemicals in the brain that causes one to want to be with the other. Even if it is not a healthy relationship. It is something left over from nature to encourage us to stay together to care for offspring. One of the many pitfalls of starting, or basing a relationship on sex. It can often mask what is true.

Good luck with the job interview