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Instead of the shredder, these strange papers documenting odd spots of the past--bail receipts and vagrancy charges, old credit reports and collections notices--they will be set afire.

We are going to watch the dead cellulose of our history smolder into a smoky whisper.

And start anew, anew.
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In California it's been a balmy 85 degrees (F), and our winter travels have already been spent on family in the middle of the country. The ride down I-40 has become a familiar path of shockingly barren and beautiful landscape.

Peppered by military bases, cloud factories, and a dozen billboards in a row glorifying and pleading at once that you visit another authentic trading...
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helmx:
I bet you could get that billboard for cheap though.

... as to your comment over on my bloggy thing, I have to say that the one thing I've learned since self-obsessing myself with writing is that ART IS HARD. For all my joy in creating things, actually going out and setting it down to paper or screen or whatever is hard. It's harder than just about anything in the world.

I wish I realized it when I was younger. Perhaps, I could have used that realization to devote myself harder towards actually perfecting my drawing skills. Instead I gave up because I didn't think I had any skill for it. When it was really just really hard.

Hindsight and all that.
dinah:
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You are so invasive. You are so invasive and I hate you for it. You take up too much space, like a frog inhaling, and inhaling, and inhaling, waiting for that moment to explode into splats of muscle. Maybe I'm just paying to watch you burn. A show, a box seat with the best view.
helmx:
Exploding in to splats of muscle...

That sounds about right.
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...If I explained it to you, would you really believe it? Would you really understand it?

There I sat with three of my friends on bits of broken stump in a field of grass, a cliff sinking into the water, knuckles pressed to my teeth, staring out over the bay and over the ocean simultaneously, the woods behind and before me, sinking into deeper levels...
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Crazy is understanding too much and not knowing what to do about it. Save your revelations for your death.
juliana:
Or save it for just moments before, ideally.
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I haven't been very active online. No apologies there. I do feel rather rude for not responding to the .05% of you that are sweet enough to still look at my forsaken little entries; the people I know through the magic of technology tend to drop out of my life like flies because of my horrible correspondence.

On the other hand, I managed to...
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reina:
i think you are a interest person.
sorry i don t speak english.. blackeyed
giddyiguana:
Hey now, I still drop by occasionally! I'm wondering whatever happened to your "with bated breath, eh" website that never seemed to get beyond the "under construction" stage.

From one multiple-accident-survivor to a new inductee to the club....get better soon! (Assuming you haven't already...how long has it been? wink
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cynicalkoolaid:
Nothing wrong with aging as long as you don't let yourself feel it.

And the kitty thing is freakin' awesome.
soma:
your knitting is awesome! i want to be crafty like that, i just don't have the patience. but seeing your stuff inspires me to commit to a project. perhaps a scarf? knowing me half a year is a perfect deadline...
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Inevitable change.

One day, my face, too, will deteriorate into a mass of rotting flesh draped over a thick wad of bone. And so will yours.

I plan to have a Viking's funeral, without all the crazy ceremony. Place me on a boat, put me in the sea, set it afire with flaming arrows. Bonfire party on the beach? No better way to spend...
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xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo:
Viking funerals are quite the thing. I've never had one with an actual corpse but over the years my friends and I have held a few for ex-girlfriends' gifts, inflatable sheep etc.

Any excuse for a good fire.
juliana:
What the fuck! I didn't know you were still active, yo!

When are you coming back?
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Some cycles seem inevitable; the artistry I cannot avoid, no matter how I feel about anything else related to the matter.

This seems to be my lifelong dilemma--contrast of feelings and thoughts, of truth and true emotion, of understanding things all around. Life has been heavy, light, sweet, bitter, salty, bright, dark, soft, rough.

Last year I traveled across the continent; this year it is...
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newtex:
Amen Ed.....glad to see your search is filling you out....plz take care and know that
I think nice thoughts about you. Stay true. and safe. robot robot robot
norritt:
nice new drawing
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...I didn't know I was still here. I don't know if I care much one way or the other. Life has been busy.

This summer, I embarked upon a journey from the east to the west, voluntarily trying to make it out for free. For the most part, it worked. And for the most part, it was a lot of fun.

Suffice to...
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ultraloveninja:
You can always jsut copy paste whateve ryou got going here....or just little scream here a there....
BUT: I do want to see this comic thing, hon, fo' sho. so please send it my way to take a look.
cynicalkoolaid:
Man, here I am finally back and you're not here. *SIGH*

Hope to see you return soon and what not.