ectasia

Hell motherfucking yes. I love it when things work out for me, especially when it comes to jobs and finances.

*feeling a little rejected*

seriously. this has to stop. or my head is going to stop processing normal things because it will be too occupied with this. oh wait, too late.

you know. sometimes someone not wanting to let you in just hurts. i know it shouldnt because it should just be something your flattered by when it happens, but when they dont for some reason i feel left out.

i love everyone i work with, but i hate working. five am isnt when you get up and go to work, it's whne your supposed to finally go to bed.

whos seeing deathcab tonight? i am. even if i have to go by myself.

i feel like such a tool.

so im trying desperately to not get woken up by the sun every day. thus far it isnt working.

i feel utterly alone right now. every last one of my new friends is now on a no list because their loyalties still lie with my ex and now he doesnt want anything to do with me apparently, so i assume neither do they. all my old friends wont return my calls. i need to find some new friends that wont ditch out on me...
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so yeah. I quit jimmy johns last night. it was just more than i could handle right now. at least I have more time to devote to barista training now. but i also have more time to be lonely.

i hate both of my jobs. so which one do I quit?