In a haze of smoke i watch as walls slowly crumble down around me i try to think of how to stop them but cannot i struggle beneath their weight the smoke fills my head with random thoughts non of them pertaining to the work at hand for mere seconds i can hold onto a thought just to watch it flutter away as a lazy...
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sapphire777:
now you are intense.
thank you for your advice about dealing with tyler and his retarded disrespect, but i am worried about her getting angry about me tellin him off for it. i'm sure it will get better as time goes on.
new topic: is 6 days long enough to be going out with someone before sleeping with them? because wed night me and heather ended up making out.....and...
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new topic: is 6 days long enough to be going out with someone before sleeping with them? because wed night me and heather ended up making out.....and...
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seapuppy:
6 days does sound a little bit fast, but I can't really talk; about 13 days for me. 
Let me think.....starting on the 14th.....yeah, so far, since last thursday we've done it at least once a day. 
Let me think.....starting on the 14th.....yeah, so far, since last thursday we've done it at least once a day. 
cipher:
You know, you're my only SGTC friend I've never met in person. We need to fix that one of these days, my friend. But for now we're both happily occupied, so I say we just enjoy. Best of luck.
so i am now dating this wonderful girl named heather, i mean, i adore her to no extent. but....our friend tyler, who she has known for a 7 years is beginning to bother me. see, as long as he has known her for, he has had this obsesive crush on her. but they are still just friends because she doesn't want to hook up with...
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abyssia:
I've got to go with darth on this. He said everything I was thinking beyond, ICK! ACK! and UGH!!! As they are nothing more than primal responses and we're all civilized here, I thought it best I keep them to myself. Trouble is, I have a no censorship rule and so since I've already typed them, they stay. Sometimes, it's good to get primal.
cv:
That's just wrong. Wrong. So wrong.
I second the getting drunk first thing. Then if it comes to beating the crap out of him you can blame it on the alcohol.
I second the getting drunk first thing. Then if it comes to beating the crap out of him you can blame it on the alcohol.
i'm still happy, life is good. in fact so good, i decided to pull out the fishnet shirt.
cipher:
Um...cool? I'm sorry, I'm unfamiliar with this particular happiness yardstick.
Just watch your back; happiness always means there's some devil stalking you, waiting for a chance to strike.
Just watch your back; happiness always means there's some devil stalking you, waiting for a chance to strike.
ok, since dustin left things have mellowed out. me and heather have decided to date, we are godamned fucking adorable, or at least i think so...but today i'm bringin tyler to school and then me and heather are goin job hunting, and gonna bring her to the place to help her get her GED too. then back to the crib for a little R&R, and...
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cipher:
Oh...yeah, the wording was a little weird. Although a landlady that acts like your mom is considerably worse...
Man, I just mentioned in my last journal entry that I am, sadly, not gay. So no coyote-lovins for me.
Man, I just mentioned in my last journal entry that I am, sadly, not gay. So no coyote-lovins for me.
sapphire777:
and that's the summary.
so in 3 days, a LOT has happened. when i went over to my friend dustins house to drink on thrusday, my other friend tyler told me that their frind heather likes me a lot. and i admit thati like her too, but that i am way too shy to make any first moves. but i was pretty drunk then and knowing she liked me...
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sapphire777:
sad. 
daekrys:
ok, since dustin left things have mellowed out. me and heather have decided to date, we are godamned fucking adorable, or at least i think so...but today i'm bringin tyler to school and then me and heather are goin job hunting, and gonna bring her to the place to help her get her GED too. then back to the crib for a little R&R, and some alone time, since for the last 4 days tyler has always been right there. finances are starting to balance out again too, so i'm glad. i'm actually happier right now then i have been in a long time, actually make that a really fucking long time. 
hugs and kisses for all!
hugs and kisses for all!more drinkin tonight...yippie. 
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cipher:
Dude...I'm sorry. Didn't mean to rub your schedule in your face. Damned shame I don't have a car, or I would insist on driving over and visiting you at work...wherever you work...yeah, I just realized I don't know how the hell I'd find you. Nevermind.
Don't work too hard.
Don't work too hard.
cv:
Beer = Good
mission accomplished
i've made a goal for myself, tonight i am drinking until i throw up, just because i have this retarded fear of throwing up, i hate it, but i'm going to do it, specifically because i don't like doing it.
me and amber...yeah, no clue what the fuck is goin on there, from what i've gathered we are friends with benifets....with the only benifets being...
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me and amber...yeah, no clue what the fuck is goin on there, from what i've gathered we are friends with benifets....with the only benifets being...
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seapuppy:
I'm free if ian's not; I've also got a few triple blacks stowed away...
no, I'm not dating THAT psycho again. This one isn't psycho
[Edited on Oct 06, 2004 3:01PM]
no, I'm not dating THAT psycho again. This one isn't psycho
[Edited on Oct 06, 2004 3:01PM]
cipher:
Damn I'm sorry, but over dinner I took a serious look at my homework load, and it seems I'm going to have to raincheck on you. I hate doing the responsible thing.
But good luck with the vomiting.
That sounds so weird...
[Edited on Oct 06, 2004 4:51PM]
But good luck with the vomiting.
That sounds so weird...
[Edited on Oct 06, 2004 4:51PM]
no rest for the wicked eh? is that why i can't get one fucking good days sleep?
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neodrunk:
No... that's because your little brother keeps beating on your shit.
Pfft...
Pfft...
cipher:
And no good deed goes unpunished. That's just the human condition, bro: that is, being consistently screwed. This is also why I'm a great believer in naps. You cannot, in spite of what they say, sleep when you're dead. Effin' liars.
what the fuck?!
I think that that about sums it all up.
I think that that about sums it all up.
cipher:
It usually does. Not that I'm not curious.
Sorry about not commenting yesterday. Just seemed a tad too personal to be spouting off my concept of personal commentary.
Sorry about not commenting yesterday. Just seemed a tad too personal to be spouting off my concept of personal commentary.
i'm in a mood, and it's right on time. the mood i get into when i've been left alone for too long. had too much time to think. and the words won't come to me, they won't come into my head and tell me how i feel. because i am confused, and i don't know whats going on. and like a bad episode i sit...
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abyssia:
you don't sound high, you sound familiar. you sound like words i've thought or written time and again. you sound like that attempt to capture the feeling that almost always falls short. you sound depressed. you sound so damn familiar. letting the fly walk on you. wanting to know what you're here for. what's with god? what is a sin? what is that desire for a connection with another? why??? you sound like you're in love. it's the dis-ease of being alive.
you asked about why i write. i write because i have to. if i keep all of that crap in my head.... i don't write unless i've something i need to write about. when i do, i must write it. i write whatever is on my mind. sometimes it is more coherent than others. it is never as beautiful as your romantic visions. they - they move me. there is nothing more i could say without tarnishing them further, so i'll stop.
you asked about why i write. i write because i have to. if i keep all of that crap in my head.... i don't write unless i've something i need to write about. when i do, i must write it. i write whatever is on my mind. sometimes it is more coherent than others. it is never as beautiful as your romantic visions. they - they move me. there is nothing more i could say without tarnishing them further, so i'll stop.