now i have two jobs, but they both need the same hours, which is a pain in the ass. nothin else.
I'm back biatch, ian i hate you, you stinking bastard, but thank you.
i am now 20, that gray void betwee being a teen and being able to drink (legally).
not much has happened in the last half month, i make less money, waste more time. nothin new.
all i have to say is that the guy that took my place at holiday, is fuckin...
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i am now 20, that gray void betwee being a teen and being able to drink (legally).
not much has happened in the last half month, i make less money, waste more time. nothin new.
all i have to say is that the guy that took my place at holiday, is fuckin...
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abyssia:
all i have to say is that i'm really glad you were born. oh, and i hope you figure out what a clotoris is before i have to teach you! ;o)
mizbhaven1:
Happy Birthday. 
I quit my job this morning, told Bonnie that last night was my last, but that if she wanted i would finish out friday and saturday, but that i refuse to work with the bitch Julie who blatently ignores any work related question I have....and she's a fuckin shift lead. she gives me the silent treatment when i do something that pisses her off. well...
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i cleaned the fuck out of my truck, it looks so pretty!
i know i'll be happy with it once i'm done paying it off (just gotta keep tellin myself that).
i got offers from domino's and pizza hut, just gotta find out which pays more and which is busier (busier means more tips).
lalalalala, i'm swearing off a social life to douse myself with...
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i know i'll be happy with it once i'm done paying it off (just gotta keep tellin myself that).
i got offers from domino's and pizza hut, just gotta find out which pays more and which is busier (busier means more tips).
lalalalala, i'm swearing off a social life to douse myself with...
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cipher:
Yes, you do. I suppose you're working tonight?
I respect that you didn't feel the need to make your journal political, but you have/are voting, right? Eh?
I respect that you didn't feel the need to make your journal political, but you have/are voting, right? Eh?
me and ian's manager came into to holiday drunk tonight, she reemed me out, and kept tellin me that i am better then that, better then what? sittin outside havin a cigarette?! she was just gone. and then anothony (guy i hate) was fucked up tryin to impress some girl he is tryin to cheat on his girlfriend with, and hit a cement lightpole thing,...
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abyssia:
sex and intimacy are very different things. i don't know of course, but maybe Heather likes the sex but isn't ready for the intimacy of the cuddling? the spooning all night long??? just a thought. i know i've been that way from time to time. i might want to cuddle for a bit but then i want to be alone. that's all i'm going to say about that.
cipher:
That's the beauty of Rammstein. Just don't say such things in Littleton, CO.
Hmm, much complication. Here's to an easier, drama-free life, right? Right, that'll happen.
I got a light; anytime.
I'd tell you not to worry about the sleeping with you thing, but I can understand the frustration. My ex was like that for months, always felt like a biting insult. But time does change that...well, usually.
Hmm, much complication. Here's to an easier, drama-free life, right? Right, that'll happen.
I got a light; anytime.
I'd tell you not to worry about the sleeping with you thing, but I can understand the frustration. My ex was like that for months, always felt like a biting insult. But time does change that...well, usually.
My life is just one big horrible dream. no matter how much money i don't spend, i keep getting farther behind. it's this fucking truck i bought, fuckin had to let myself get sucked into it. all excited in the moment and the idea of having such a nice truck. and i'm all the worse off for it. if i want to get rid of...
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cipher:
Dude...you can't go...
But understand if you have too...good luck, man. I'll keep in touch, and if you want to talk before I get around to that, write souljacker13@gmail.com
Take care.
But understand if you have too...good luck, man. I'll keep in touch, and if you want to talk before I get around to that, write souljacker13@gmail.com
Take care.
cipher:
Yeah, I'm not trying cold turkey. The headaches are fucking insane, and I know I can't face those.
There's always a place for 'fuck.' Have a good...weekend, I guess.
There's always a place for 'fuck.' Have a good...weekend, I guess.
i hate when my boss gets all mommy on me...."what's wrong mike? i can tell somethings bothering you lately, i'm a good listener, if you ever need one."
she makes it so hard for me to just up and quit with no notice.
i had to explain to heather wha a mustache ride was the other day, that was just funny. she asked me why...
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she makes it so hard for me to just up and quit with no notice.
i had to explain to heather wha a mustache ride was the other day, that was just funny. she asked me why...
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a sea of blood burst forth from my heart and drowned all those before me. i smiled then as i watched them scream in hopless despair. silinced they became as they lost the will to struggle and blood filled their lungs. and i was inside of them, i made them all mine. when they woke they went back to their pitiful boring lives. back to...
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abyssia:
this entry is extraordinary.
cipher:
Ha, nice. Although one has to ask, why would he give you his piss if for a test if it wasn't clean? Or should I even be asking this...
Of course we're all fuckers, sort of in the same way we're all god's children. It's all about perspective.
Of course we're all fuckers, sort of in the same way we're all god's children. It's all about perspective.
HOPE
and working towards it
things could always be worse off
and working towards it
things could always be worse off
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pixie_punch:
hang in there. things can always be worse off.
abyssia:
THIS is maternal instinct --> is everything alright dear?
so for as happy as i was, it was all just a self induced desperate attempt to fool myself into a feeling of joy. heather is going back to kansas to help her mom, because she feels bad for leavin her mom all by herself. which i can understand, but shit, all the things she said to me, all the pretty words, and sweet gestures,...
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so i got a interview on monday at sears, but they do drug tests, and thanks to my new found suseptabilitie to peer preasure (i can't spell right now seeing as i am to high to concentrate on it) about smoking weed, i'm pretty fucked, just hope that my previously very rare smoking and as much water and cranberry juice i can cram down my...
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ok so everything is fine and i just worry too much.
i do need to worry about gettin that second job goin though.
i do need to worry about gettin that second job goin though.
cipher:
If only it were as easy as not worrying too much.
And maybe you are intense. I'm not one to judge such things, as I've been accused of the same, but intensity tends to be a good way to bleed the most out of life. It's wacky fun!
Good luck on the job front; I need a (new) second job, too, as I recently made my second job my only job. Still worth it.
And maybe you are intense. I'm not one to judge such things, as I've been accused of the same, but intensity tends to be a good way to bleed the most out of life. It's wacky fun!
Good luck on the job front; I need a (new) second job, too, as I recently made my second job my only job. Still worth it.