This whole week has been one long steady decline into a hole that I can't seem to crawl out of. Growing up you're taught that if you follow the rules, work hard, get your education, do the right thing, treat people with kindness, that you'll find your success and be happy. At the age of 44 I just think that was a...
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I'd had similar feelings and had to throw out the rules that I was taught (and that I was miserably following) to get over them.

The weekend was mostly uneventful. The parental units decided to go upstate on Saturday which left me to my own lazy devices. Mostly I caught up on forgotten episodes of season 2 of Agents of SHIELD. I took a trip and bought a few comics. Saturday was just another attempt at escapism for me. Comics, TV, video games...whatever I could do to try and...
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It's hard for me sometimes. I try not to think too much about my situation. I don't want to start spiraling down because I feel lonely, unloved, unwanted, etc. Sometimes though I'll be out and see something and it just triggers my depression all over again. I know in my head that I'm not in a place where I can be...
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There are just some days where I just feel a constant struggle going on inside me. There are days where I get it. There are some things that a person can't have simply by wishing or wanting. Money, happiness, the attention of a lovely woman...there are no guarantees in life and it's best to learn to be happy with what you have...
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