I know no one cares because nobody wants to hear your shit but I feel like crap, I feel thoroughly a failure and ugly as fuck and I have no one to talk to about it. So fuck you.

I was reading a comic yesterday and it made me think that I wish I was a superhero like the characters in the comic. I can't be more the opposite. I wish I was tall, and strong, and brave, and muscled. I''m just so the opposite. Short, weak, fat, ugly. No wonder no one likes me.

This whole week has been one long steady decline into a hole that I can't seem to crawl out of. Growing up you're taught that if you follow the rules, work hard, get your education, do the right thing, treat people with kindness, that you'll find your success and be happy. At the age of 44 I just think that was a...
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i:
I'd had similar feelings and had to throw out the rules that I was taught (and that I was miserably following) to get over them.
misa_blake:
I have been there .. That the place that taught me to not care .. Adopt the DILLIGAF motto and believe 1 lie .. That it will all get better

The weekend was mostly uneventful. The parental units decided to go upstate on Saturday which left me to my own lazy devices. Mostly I caught up on forgotten episodes of season 2 of Agents of SHIELD. I took a trip and bought a few comics. Saturday was just another attempt at escapism for me. Comics, TV, video games...whatever I could do to try and...
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It's hard for me sometimes. I try not to think too much about my situation. I don't want to start spiraling down because I feel lonely, unloved, unwanted, etc. Sometimes though I'll be out and see something and it just triggers my depression all over again. I know in my head that I'm not in a place where I can be...
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