School started back up again today. It isn't as bad as it sounds... I'm almost done.
School keeps me from having convictions, because it keeps stretching the boundaries of what I know and, at the same time, withholding information from me. I evolve, but I'm also retarded.
Is it ok to have opinions just to have a place to stand? Opinions that you change as...
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School keeps me from having convictions, because it keeps stretching the boundaries of what I know and, at the same time, withholding information from me. I evolve, but I'm also retarded.
Is it ok to have opinions just to have a place to stand? Opinions that you change as...
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Happy New Year, all.
I'll be witty later... I've got an entire year.
I'll be witty later... I've got an entire year.
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meaney:
happy new year
il_brutto:
"witty later" what did I do. Not enough poetry? 
Thanks for the birthday wishes. 
Thanks for the birthday wishes. 
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nattytattat:
Things are good! I'm still trying to get settled back into home and chores and bills and responsibilities again....so I'm going out tonight! Might meet up with one of the boys, hopefully they are not both out together (they are neighbors afterall). Interestingly enough, Jordan's roommate (boy #2) has 2 friends visiting this week and one of 'em looks eerily like my only ex boyfriend in San Diego....hmmm...good thing he's crushin' on my friend Mary. Anyway, you are welcome to join us if you feel like going out!
il_brutto:
I haven't spoken her name in years. That was an old one. I have a book of them if you didn't know. But that one isn't in there so got an exclusive. Feel special?
Dawn is definitely my favorite time of day. It's so beautiful, no matter where you are.
In Modesto, the armpit of the world, the pine boughs stand out in sprays against the white mist of the fog, and Christmas lights smudge in the cloudy background.
I've been up for two hours and have had the entire morning to myself. The cat and I snuggled. I...
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In Modesto, the armpit of the world, the pine boughs stand out in sprays against the white mist of the fog, and Christmas lights smudge in the cloudy background.
I've been up for two hours and have had the entire morning to myself. The cat and I snuggled. I...
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meaney:
DAWN IS THE BEST TIME TO UPDATE. 
[Edited on Dec 28, 2004 10:48AM]
[Edited on Dec 28, 2004 10:48AM]
xshanerottx:
there's no thrash in poway, except what i play in my room. whats wrong with that. thrash is totally fun.
so you got a tan. lucky you. i an untanable. but one of these days you won't notice(full body ink possibly).
so you got a tan. lucky you. i an untanable. but one of these days you won't notice(full body ink possibly).
Contrary to opinion, I'm not depressed, just thoughtful.. so don't worry, D.
However, I am at my parent's house.. which is as close to depression as externalities come. My mom's driving me up the wall. I don't think I'm going to come back for a while. Happy holidays.
At least I have time to buy a dress for Jess's new year's party. I can't wait...
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However, I am at my parent's house.. which is as close to depression as externalities come. My mom's driving me up the wall. I don't think I'm going to come back for a while. Happy holidays.
At least I have time to buy a dress for Jess's new year's party. I can't wait...
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tear_garden:
Your use of smiley faces is magic..
Hope you have a great Christmas and such.. and glad to hear you are not depressed..
Depression is depressing..
Kinda redundant, no?
Hope you have a great Christmas and such.. and glad to hear you are not depressed..
Depression is depressing..
Kinda redundant, no?
malleusmalefic:
yeah... 8 am doesnt really help. bah...fine...i wont visit you then... *smirk*
Sometimes taillights look like zombie eyes.
Sometimes inevitable death is a good excuse.
Sometimes pain feels good.
Sometimes showers only hit it half way.
And then it's time to go to work.
Sometimes inevitable death is a good excuse.
Sometimes pain feels good.
Sometimes showers only hit it half way.
And then it's time to go to work.
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surreal78:
Sometimes I cry and I don't know why 
Sometimes I fly, how high?
Higher than the minds eye. Clearlii radiance
Sometimes I fly, how high?
Higher than the minds eye. Clearlii radiance
meaney:
sometimes you need to UPDATE.
I'm tired of people saying to me, "You think too much," as if it were a disease or a disorder that I need to repair. Like I can help it. The gears turn on their own.
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I guess maybe the paranoia is a little excessive, though. Yesterday, my coworkers kept telling me how great my hair looked (before I had to put it under...
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I guess maybe the paranoia is a little excessive, though. Yesterday, my coworkers kept telling me how great my hair looked (before I had to put it under...
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nattytattat:
Unfortunately, the sickness has not touched my desire to get it on...I am even more ready to pounce despite the fact that my hair hasn't felt shampoo and I've been wearing the same green pj's for over 24 hours.....see my journal for specifics.
meaney:
yeah... i dated a girl with beautiful, virgin skin. she wanted a tattoo but wouldn't let me do it because 'hey... these things never last and tattoos do.' and it didn't. it used to be i'd go to the bars and count the people i've slept with or made out with or whatever. now i count the people i've tattooed. it's the plague of a small world. that... and my stupidity. regardless, everything comes back to haunt you... or something. or maybe i just think too much.
It's all over.. time to decompress
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coldblood81:
Thank you for the toast. Personaly I was never a big wine drinker, the flavor is always to strong for me. I do enjoy Arbor Mist (Did I spell that right?) and other such fruity wines. As far as drinking, I enjoy things like Whaler's Rum or Mezcal.
I know Why mom moved to this state, I just can't understand why she couldn't find the same things some where better. She moved here for the weather & the price & such. Why she couldn't find all that in another state I have no clue. Oh well, at least I can consider it a great reson to leave & get my life back on track.
If I enjoyed this state to much I might not leave, make a life for myself here... I would end up regerting that at some point down the road.
I know what you mean about Modesto. I spent a few months there when a friend & I were moving around alot. Wow! that was a bring time. I spent my days selling ADT alarms door to door & my nights getting stoned. Not a thing to do there other then watch the "white trash" race their cars on that main road (I forgot the name).
That's why I love S.F., there is always SOMETHING to do. Or at least somewhere to go. I miss going to Japan Town with Malissa & buying the newest anime or cutest memo pad for her. I Really miss the import food stores on Irving st. You can't find half the food I enjoy anywhere here.
I'll be putting up a pick of my new tattoo in a day or 2. It was the oddest thing while I was getting it done. I didn't feel any pain from it. At times I had to look at Scott's hand to know that he was working on me at all. It kinda freaked me out a bit, the fact that I couldn't feel the needle in my skin, not cool. But on the up side, it did make the whole thing go rather fast. Scott worked on my arm for 2 1/2 hours none stop & it seemed like I had only just sat down when he finished up.
Are you on winter vacation yet or not? I hope school has been going well for you. Do enjoy your week! It was great hearing from you!
Personaly I was never a big wine drinker, the flavor is always to strong for me. I do enjoy Arbor Mist (Did I spell that right?) and other such fruity wines. As far as drinking, I enjoy things like Whaler's Rum or Mezcal.
I know Why mom moved to this state, I just can't understand why she couldn't find the same things some where better. She moved here for the weather & the price & such. Why she couldn't find all that in another state I have no clue. Oh well, at least I can consider it a great reson to leave & get my life back on track.
If I enjoyed this state to much I might not leave, make a life for myself here... I would end up regerting that at some point down the road.
I know what you mean about Modesto. I spent a few months there when a friend & I were moving around alot. Wow! that was a bring time. I spent my days selling ADT alarms door to door & my nights getting stoned. Not a thing to do there other then watch the "white trash" race their cars on that main road (I forgot the name).
That's why I love S.F., there is always SOMETHING to do. Or at least somewhere to go. I miss going to Japan Town with Malissa & buying the newest anime or cutest memo pad for her. I Really miss the import food stores on Irving st. You can't find half the food I enjoy anywhere here.
I'll be putting up a pick of my new tattoo in a day or 2. It was the oddest thing while I was getting it done. I didn't feel any pain from it. At times I had to look at Scott's hand to know that he was working on me at all. It kinda freaked me out a bit, the fact that I couldn't feel the needle in my skin, not cool. But on the up side, it did make the whole thing go rather fast. Scott worked on my arm for 2 1/2 hours none stop & it seemed like I had only just sat down when he finished up.
Are you on winter vacation yet or not? I hope school has been going well for you. Do enjoy your week!
It was great hearing from you!
hang_the_dj:
I have no plans, drop me an email if you want to meet up somewhere.. Shakespears, Lamplighter, Dynamite bar, it dont matter to me. Let me know.
RAWR..... finals can kiss my pearly white patootie.
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Hi everyone! I'll visit each of you personally this weekend. And hello my beautiful Lost-in-Translation-alike.
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Why do people say that jealousy is such a bad thing? Yes, it's true that if you are a Fatal Attraction type psycho, then it can be a little inflammatory, but it always makes me reexamine my life, maybe gives...
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Hi everyone! I'll visit each of you personally this weekend. And hello my beautiful Lost-in-Translation-alike.
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Why do people say that jealousy is such a bad thing? Yes, it's true that if you are a Fatal Attraction type psycho, then it can be a little inflammatory, but it always makes me reexamine my life, maybe gives...
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hang_the_dj:
Bjork is having a cocktail party??
coldblood81:
I really Must agree with you about the sweatpants. For a few years I worked at a Walgreens that was really close to a dorm. You can't help but look at their rear. Then you seem like a pig for looking at their butt, even thoe they are the ones with a word wrapping from cheek to cheek. Worst is when I would see girls in junior high wearing thoes pants. Just not right.
Best of luck with your finals grades.
I look forward to hearing from you. Have a great weekend!
Best of luck with your finals grades.
I look forward to hearing from you. Have a great weekend!
K.. so.. things are better, but really busy now. I'll write more later.. I just wanted to get my sob story out of the limelight.
xoxo
xoxo
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hang_the_dj:
Good luck with everything..
nick667:
you are very sexy
I get too excited about love.. it's a bad pattern. That plus a whole past full of baggage, homesickness and exhaustion make for a really bad combination.
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So, Aaron and I were talking Thanksgiving night over the phone.. and I hate the phone, because I always feel so disconnected. Since I was already feeling a little insecure about everything between us, I kinda started...
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So, Aaron and I were talking Thanksgiving night over the phone.. and I hate the phone, because I always feel so disconnected. Since I was already feeling a little insecure about everything between us, I kinda started...
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surreal78:
I do the same thing. Relationships can do a number when your not sure of the other person's intent.
No Doubt their will be a man who can't stand not to be beside you! You've rubbed me the right way. It's only typing, but I can get something out of it. 
No Doubt their will be a man who can't stand not to be beside you! You've rubbed me the right way. It's only typing, but I can get something out of it.
nattytattat:
You do tarot?
Oooohhh....do me, do me!!!
Oooohhh....do me, do me!!!
Alright.. back in action. Feeling better. Had a good cry... and all of a sudden things started moving again. Like the dam broke, and now everything's flowing. So wierd.
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I met someone - a fuzzy feeling someone. It's awesome. But it's also bad. And scary.
The short version.. he's been coming into the shop for a few months now, though sporadically (that word does...
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I met someone - a fuzzy feeling someone. It's awesome. But it's also bad. And scary.
The short version.. he's been coming into the shop for a few months now, though sporadically (that word does...
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il_brutto:
oh, and I only saw that pic once. You put it up while I was on hiatus. It was pure coincidence that I saw it.
nattytattat:
well....I had full hottie garb on on Wednesday night and I only got kicked out of a bar! I don't think I would have taken on this couple...but if I were attracted to both of them, I think I probably would. I wouldn't want to mess around with a married couple or a couple that had a lot of history, though, because I think I would feel too objectified, like their little toy. I'd rather it be a more equal, shared experience ya know? My only true threesome experience was actually with 2 guys when I was 17....we didn't get naked. But on the other side of the campfire were two people watching us and my boyfriend sleeping in my car. Sounds kinda scandalous, huh? That's when I learned to stay away from whiskey! One guy realized what we were doing and stopped and apologized (they were both friends with my bf) and then I realized what I was doing, then the other guy was like, "let's go down to the lake!"....scumbag...he's a cop in L.A. now. Anyway.....this is the sort of thing smalltown WI kids do for fun!
From my experience, under 21 + secret romance= trouble, but it sure makes for a good story! And I love to tell stories....
From my experience, under 21 + secret romance= trouble, but it sure makes for a good story! And I love to tell stories....
i did.