Monday Aug 13, 2012

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Yeah, nope... I lied. Or rather was lied to - he wasn't who I thought....

Ah well. I'm back. And here we go again.

I'll have to put an update on my life one of these nights...

Stay tuned.

Calixtekiss

Saturday Aug 02, 2008

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Got kicked today.
Hard.
The first one to the back of my knees... and I went down.
The pavement scratched my hands and my knees bled.
Surprised.
As I sucked air into my lungs and looked up a second blow came.
I crumpled to the hard ground clutching my stomach against the sudden pain.
There, and thus exposed, a final kick was delivered...
I coughed...
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whiteyford:
GOD DAMMIT!!!

What the fuck?? Are you alright? Did you get help? Did anyone see you get attacked?

Seriously, I would make their lives fucking miserable...first hitting a woman in the first place and then, again, while she's down. What cowards, what complete sniveling cowards.

This shit makes my fucking blood boil!!

wf
brinny:
(I don't think she was being literal whiteyford.)

Thank you for your comment. Our hearts are both heart and i wish i could give you a hug.

Tuesday Jul 29, 2008

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This site isn't what it used to be.

Sad.

whiteyford:
things change...c'est la vie, non?

how are you doing?


kiss kiss

wf

Thursday Jul 24, 2008

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Totally Crushing!

smile


Its a nice feeling to feel this happy.
whiteyford:
Happy looks good on you, dear. Very much so.

wf

Monday Jul 21, 2008

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I dreamed a dream
Lost in a world not like reality

Feelings, emotions, and all things unseen
When did these come to be?

Wondering, - is happiness free?
Is the picture of me?

Dreams shattering reality...
Lost here in this world.


Hello.

Its me.
Still smiling.
Its good.
Very very good.
Like a cup of coffee in the morning.
Or a hug from a friend....
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whiteyford:
I am good...and so are you.

kiss

+wf+

Saturday Nov 17, 2007

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.... the pain of letting go...

Is it for the best? After the anger is past and the reality sinks in...

Funny how some things never seem to change.
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ladyjane:
is Holding On hurting your heart, or helping your spirit?

will Letting Go free your mind & let it breathe?

if you clear the clutter out of your life, you will make room for the new & the beautiful. promise.

...however, sometimes, it just feels comfortable & safe to be stubborn... & to hope.

i know i'm not very wise this morning with your delicate question, darling & i'm sorry frown ... unfortunately, i am EXCELLENT at letting go & wiping the hard drive clean of any existence of pain. but i don't go through the process... so am i really letting go or am i just putting a tiny bandage on a deep wound.

that's a rhetorical question. i haven't been able to answer that one for years. le sigh. frown

hugs kiss
francis:
kiss

Thursday Nov 15, 2007

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There are no words to express the emotions running through me right now... this is childish, but I can't seem to make myself care.... I'm getting help by the way, but tonight, well fuck tonight...

Evidently I fucked up again.
Not surprised... that's what I do.
Fuck up.
And yes, I'm having a pity party.
But then I'm so freaking mad I could spit.
And...
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francis:
i know honey.. life gets complicated sometimes..

yeah i'm pretty brave wink

ouch

kiss
ladyjane:
...i know i'm late to this blog, but i just wanted to say "hey" & give ya hugs from one perfectly messy beautiful sister to another.

hell no are you damaged goods.
we are healing goods together. wink kiss ♥ you girl!

Thursday Nov 01, 2007

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So.... a couple of dear friends have been silent towards me and I fear the worst for our friendships...
Saw an ex and that hurt.
Took a risk and so far haven't been hurt too badly.
Very tired and overwhelmed...
And I think the relationship stresses in my life are getting to me. This is the first day in a week and a half that...
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francis:
i love you

kiss
ladyjane:
i'm sorry about friend hurt & ex sadness... frown
i too am exhausted & overwhelmed... but too overwhelmed to even feel my exhaustion.
i tried to overdose the other day on sleeping pills, but seriously, if that can't get me to sleep or kill me, i dunno what will.
we're twins... can i come over & have a slumber party? smile
hugs darling. i utterly adore you. kiss

Sunday Oct 21, 2007

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I got a new hair cut. That significantly improved my mood. I don't even recoginize myself. Pictures to follow soon...

kiss kiss kiss
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hearse83:
hello, I am back.
beckyjane:
I followed my heart.

Saturday Oct 20, 2007

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Knock if you will.
I will not answer the door today.
Bitterness and anger have come over to play.
Knock if you will, but you will not see me.
I am lost in the mists of the past.
Knock if you dare
To face my twisted haunted face.
Knock if you want,
But you'll not get in today.
whiteyford:
hey there...it is me knocking. can I come in for awhile? I need a hug and a kiss or two. I need to be with someone who _really_ cares for me.

+wf+

Tuesday Oct 16, 2007

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The Silence is a tender companion.
But forget not that he is a moody lover.
He found me tonight, and I am grateful for his attention.
I should think I should like to find him more,
this lover of mine,
But sometimes he brings with him Regret or Self-loathing
or Bitter memories, who leads to both above.
And sometimes he brings Dreams,
I like it...
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soix:
Whew...that is really beautiful.
You are stellar like silence...quietly reminding me of the wind through the brush,
the fallling cool air, damp with stardust tells me you are there.

Sliently awaiting......*soft kisses*
beckyjane:
It's been a while since I stopped by, but in regards to your last comment in my journal--it was too good to last. The hippie boy has a commitment problem.

You ok?
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