brookelynne

the following is a slice from an old spoken word piece of mine...seemed fitting:

...So Ill live in this hell
Until
They find that perfect pill
To contain me
And restrain me
And ascertain what may be
The problem here
Whats her deal?!
Whats she got to be so sad about anyway?
Huh.
Let me know when you've got THAT answer
But that would require reaching within
And Im not so sure
I am interested in
All the shit
Thats buried beneath this skin
It is buried for a reason
And I have got this feeling
(yeah I still sometimes get glimpses of those)
That whatever it is I am hiding from
Would only send me reeling
Further away from any sense of reality
And while I am not holding much
Of that to begin with
It occurs to me that I should salvage
What little I have to contend with
If we really got to the bottom of this
I feel rather secure in saying
We had all better figure out the strategy
In this game we are playing
Because it truly seems endless
And the circles we keep running around
Have left me feeling desperate
Lost inside your underground
There has got to be some relief man
Some closing to this season
It has been winter far too long here
And I have dropped way below freezing...


(edited to add this... )

[Edited on Jun 18, 2004 4:35PM]

just look dead ahead and make the rest of the world think you are in control
better service
less smiles
better service
and I drive like a devil on a leash

yes, i am old school, i am a chivalric.

i know exactly what you mean....

sometimes when girls try to dance with me and what not, i feel bad for blowing them off, just because i want to be into the MUSIC. not trying to grind all up on them (grinding is nice too, but i'm not really there for that)

i'll probably keep going though, because i'm there for the music. not the few jerks around it.

Hey Out there

thanks hon. Hey are you still coming down to see schools here?

uh huh
that's what i'm talking about
sweetheart...

Sounds like a beautiful day.

*joins your group*

so... how was your dinner?

Hello to you too.

Aww, you're sweet, and that's the truth!!

cutting off your hair can be super fun though....I know when I shaved my head after having hair down to the middle of my shoulder blades....it felt great....I thought I would be all freaked out, but it was awesome...I felt a little free...plus I felt good because I was donating my hair to "locks for love", so it was a fun experience for me....I should probably grow my hair back though....its been a year....who knows....anyway, sorry bout the tipsy posting on my journal...that was slightly embarrassing the next morning, but oh well....that was a good night though....hope all is well...

I just got home from work and received your lovely email...what a lovely way to unwind...

I have a funn toy to send for you/ L ...would you be interested in a VHS compilation? I made one for WhiskeyFightPit and thought I should give one to you and the couple in Philly (hint- previous Comment). It'll take 6 hours to dub; was thinking of doing it overnight...

I have to say, Nilla Wafers and fruit juice was like theee snack back in 1973...

... I would pass on it now... but coldenginelogic is right, to a degree. Find a good health food store for healthy junk food for Lucas! Clif bars, molasses-based licorice, that kinda thing. They can be surprisingly price-competitive.
Don't get me wrong; I'm not a big healthy eater... but the stuff some folks give their kids now? Oreo Cereal or Code Red Mountain Dew? That is child abuse Kid's gonna keel over. (You prob knew that already.)

haven't seen either, i'll check em out, thanks

thats awesome! I still never got you to explain the soggy upside-down cardboard box thing to me though

death to journal run:
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Artists/journals/40950/

we're mailing out the lucas love gifts on monday...so keep your beautiful eyes out for it...we'll enclose some pics of our happy little family with one condition...you send some of yours back...cannot wait for your visit sweet girl...sam is making you a mix cd just for the occasion...

That's a very bizarre image! I've never thought of someone as a cardboard box before, yet alone, a soggy one!!

Summer is warm, so are the inventions with Hope Sandoval...

werd for returned wallets. i lost my first wallet at mcdonalds and it came back (also sans dinero) but at least it came back. now i'm a veggie. no mas BIG MAC

im sorry hon But im the same way. I always have things happen that I figure I'm supposed to learn lessons from. I know it doesnt make it easier, but i know what you're going through

Damn that really sucks. I hope things work out.

BTW, be blad you didn't get your license here in Massachussettes cuz for a whlie the license numbers were the same as social security numbers! Scary huh? Luckily I moved here from NY. I also have my SSN memorized so if that were to happen I'd be like "You motherfuckers! Get that shit off of there! If this gets stolen, bad enough they know where I live, I don't want them to know my SSN!!!"

Keep ya head up. Things will get better. Say hi to the little guy for me.