you didnt come here to make the choice. youve already made it. youre here to try to understand WHY you made it.
choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without
i so totally LOVE the matrix trilogy.
i'm watching reloaded right now which is probably my favorite of the three because it really is the glue that holds the rest of...
Read More
choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without
i so totally LOVE the matrix trilogy.
i'm watching reloaded right now which is probably my favorite of the three because it really is the glue that holds the rest of...
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
i talk too much.
because of that, i couldnt have the conversation i wanted to have last night.
now i have nothing to say.
just lots to think about.
i think too much about shit that most people cant understand...including me.
sometimes i try and put my thoughts into words so that i can deal with all that shit.
but i talk too much.
so...
Read More
because of that, i couldnt have the conversation i wanted to have last night.
now i have nothing to say.
just lots to think about.
i think too much about shit that most people cant understand...including me.
sometimes i try and put my thoughts into words so that i can deal with all that shit.
but i talk too much.
so...
Read More
avalon13chase:
meh +1
i too am pissy and such. lets talk tomorrow..Me and anyone are oil and water today
love you
i too am pissy and such. lets talk tomorrow..Me and anyone are oil and water today
love you
phoenixgirl:
i always talk too much too, sometimes i dont know when to shut up. 
thats right folks, its wednesday which means another "hump day update" as i mentioned last week, this entry will not contain any embedded images but it will link to hardcore shit that is not safe for work or prudes. if this sort of thing doesnt interest you then instead of continuing, this would be an excellent time to develop a new silly walk....
Read More
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
jay_blank:
I'll check the links out when I get home. Sounds like you had a blast (I'm not sure how you couldn't!)
Yeah....erm....I don't get to do anal because I'm well endowed too.....or something....
Yeah....erm....I don't get to do anal because I'm well endowed too.....or something....
phoenixgirl:
lucky guy, you get all the hotties huh?...im glad its wed., I get tomarrow off, and I am going to enjoy it!!
its going to be a good day today. busy. but good no less.
i am taking the day off so i can prep for a shoot. its not until tonight, but i have to pick up the girl from the airport at 4:20 (heh heh heh). its just so much easier for me when i dont have to deal with work on days that i...
Read More
i am taking the day off so i can prep for a shoot. its not until tonight, but i have to pick up the girl from the airport at 4:20 (heh heh heh). its just so much easier for me when i dont have to deal with work on days that i...
Read More
jay_blank:
Heh, have a great day! I used to make the drive from Albany to Buffalo in my college days. I can do that one in my sleep...
When I lived in NC, I used to love the drive to Buffalo. WV was the best because of the mountains. It was a 10 hour trip, but I loved it.
I may have to rent a car soon and take a drive somewhere.....
When I lived in NC, I used to love the drive to Buffalo. WV was the best because of the mountains. It was a 10 hour trip, but I loved it.
I may have to rent a car soon and take a drive somewhere.....
phoenixgirl:
I hope you are having a good week...i am in desparate need of a roadtrip
lets hear it for action packed days!!!
the plan was simple enough. get up early, drive up to pittsburgh with my son. pick up my daughters. have a fun filled day that included skating, a trip to the comic book store, food and a movie. i try and make a trip like once a month and do different things each time. easy as 22/7.
so...
Read More
the plan was simple enough. get up early, drive up to pittsburgh with my son. pick up my daughters. have a fun filled day that included skating, a trip to the comic book store, food and a movie. i try and make a trip like once a month and do different things each time. easy as 22/7.
so...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
phoenixgirl:
I actually can't handle throw up...I stay as far away from it as I can....but at least you got to spend the day woth yout kids, and thats good. My step-daughter is coming next weekend, and we really havent spent any time together in a long time, so I am looking forward to that.
debjay:
Modified plans and all at least you got to spend time with your kids which is the most important thing...it could have been worse..he could have been puking all day 
Have an awesome week! 
Have an awesome week! out of the night that covers me
black as the pit from pole to pole
i thank whatever gods may be
for my unconquerable soul
in the fell clutch of circumstance
i have not winced nor cried aloud
under the bludgeonings of chance
my head is bloodied but unbowed
beyond this place of wrath and tears
lies but the horror of the shade
and yet...
Read More
black as the pit from pole to pole
i thank whatever gods may be
for my unconquerable soul
in the fell clutch of circumstance
i have not winced nor cried aloud
under the bludgeonings of chance
my head is bloodied but unbowed
beyond this place of wrath and tears
lies but the horror of the shade
and yet...
Read More
jay_blank:
Excellent! I love it..I love the positive energy.
Life is all about taking risks for what you want. If one isn't willing to take the risk, then why bother living? It's not even 'living' then, it's 'existing'.
I admire your spirit and energy.
Life is all about taking risks for what you want. If one isn't willing to take the risk, then why bother living? It's not even 'living' then, it's 'existing'.
I admire your spirit and energy.
phoenixgirl:
you are a very inspiring person.......you should always try and go for what you really wnat, we are only here once, why live with regret?.....i need yyour drive and energy to rub off on me. 
i aint no perfect man.
i'm tryin to do the best that i can
with what it is i have...
sometimes I get discouraged
i look around and, things are so bleak
people are so weak
sometimes,
sometimes i feel like crying
sometimes my heart gets heavy
sometimes i just want to leave and fly away
sometimes i don't know what to do with myself...
Read More
i'm tryin to do the best that i can
with what it is i have...
sometimes I get discouraged
i look around and, things are so bleak
people are so weak
sometimes,
sometimes i feel like crying
sometimes my heart gets heavy
sometimes i just want to leave and fly away
sometimes i don't know what to do with myself...
Read More
jay_blank:
Sounds great! Tap into that positive creative energy!
..still thinking about a locale for you.....
..still thinking about a locale for you.....
jay_blank:
"charminig...REAL charming. thanks man."
now you can see why I'm not such a big hit with the ladies!
now you can see why I'm not such a big hit with the ladies!
since wednesday is affectionately known as "hump day" i have decided to dedicate my mid-week entry to my pornographic (s)exploits. while i will not post or embed any images or videos in these entries, i will use links to sites, pictures and other content that is significantly more hardcore than here on good ol' SG. so if that type of stuff is a bit much...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
futuramagoo:
if only all adult film studs had your brains and impeccable musical taste
joesph90:
Are you suggesting coconut's migrate?
watched a great movie the other day called the edukators. its a german flick about three activists who break into the homes of the wealthy. they dont steal anything...simply rearrange the furniture and leave a note, "your days of plenty are numbered" in an attempt to make their affluent victims feel unsafe--the very thing their wealth was designed to prevent. And then, as always...something...
Read More
Read More
phoenixgirl:
i think even if i had THAT kind of wealth, i know i wouldnt want all that crap...I am trying to simplify and just enjoy life...thats what its really all about...you are more rich than they are.
jay_blank:
Hmm.....this is a tough one. I can see where you're coming from. Have you ever spoken to them about it? Maybe they have a reason and maybe not.
Perhaps they wanted to enjoy what so many have sacrificed for?
Perhaps they wanted to enjoy what so many have sacrificed for?
so i went to a rich buddy of mine and told him that i was going to make him famous. i told him that i had found a new route he could take to ship his product and gain a competitive advantadge. i asked him to front me some cash so i could make a demonstration voyage and prove i knew what i was talking...
Read More
Read More
jay_blank:
Hitler Day - Public Enemy
500 years ago one man claimed
To have discovered a new world
Five centuries later we the people
Are forced to celebrate a black holocaust
How can you call a takeover
A discovery
Mass murderer
This side of the planet
Most people take it for granted
502 and still doin
Give a reason I'm hatin
October celebratin
The dead
Of the black the brown and red
Sick an tired
Of bein sick n tired
Dont jump to conclusions
Before I clear the confusion
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
I'm talkin bout Columbus
Hit me one
I dont hate nobody
I hate that day
Its as crazy as Hitler day
Hangin heads and snappin necks
Splittin up kin
Makin familys wrecked
Turned this planet to a sewer
Provin to all just a lil grab
Will do ya
Or do us
So my disgust
Got credit from the ones that
Read it
Aint blind to the fact
Of a whack headline
And if you didn't I pay
No mind
That's how I feel
That's how I feel
This iz madd real
But these days
Is crazy as Hitler day
I don't hate nobody
It's impossible to discover a land
When people are already living there
Some thanks for the givin
When times are hard
& some got the nerve to pray to God
Aint about turkey
& cider that gets me sick
It's that take from the indian trick
Lookin pretty grim
When they takin da pill
From the sucker seekin somethin to kill
Now he got a day to celebrate
Aint that a trip
Cause the indians aint got shit
May 31st when it comin it hurts
Remember the dead and it makes me curse
When they dont include 100 million
Of us black folks
That died in the bottom of boats
I can carry on bout the killin till
Dusk & dawn
And war ain't the reason they gone
Fourth of July a fuckin lie
When did we ever
Get a piece of the pie
Gotta whole day comin
Without no pay
Cause a fuckin job
Cant gimme no play
Even had enuff I huff & puff
At brothers sellin the stuff
Takin in washingtons
Lincolns
Not they birthdays
Payback for em makin us slaves
500 years ago one man claimed
To have discovered a new world
Five centuries later we the people
Are forced to celebrate a black holocaust
How can you call a takeover
A discovery
Mass murderer
This side of the planet
Most people take it for granted
502 and still doin
Give a reason I'm hatin
October celebratin
The dead
Of the black the brown and red
Sick an tired
Of bein sick n tired
Dont jump to conclusions
Before I clear the confusion
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
I'm talkin bout Columbus
Hit me one
I dont hate nobody
I hate that day
Its as crazy as Hitler day
Hangin heads and snappin necks
Splittin up kin
Makin familys wrecked
Turned this planet to a sewer
Provin to all just a lil grab
Will do ya
Or do us
So my disgust
Got credit from the ones that
Read it
Aint blind to the fact
Of a whack headline
And if you didn't I pay
No mind
That's how I feel
That's how I feel
This iz madd real
But these days
Is crazy as Hitler day
I don't hate nobody
It's impossible to discover a land
When people are already living there
Some thanks for the givin
When times are hard
& some got the nerve to pray to God
Aint about turkey
& cider that gets me sick
It's that take from the indian trick
Lookin pretty grim
When they takin da pill
From the sucker seekin somethin to kill
Now he got a day to celebrate
Aint that a trip
Cause the indians aint got shit
May 31st when it comin it hurts
Remember the dead and it makes me curse
When they dont include 100 million
Of us black folks
That died in the bottom of boats
I can carry on bout the killin till
Dusk & dawn
And war ain't the reason they gone
Fourth of July a fuckin lie
When did we ever
Get a piece of the pie
Gotta whole day comin
Without no pay
Cause a fuckin job
Cant gimme no play
Even had enuff I huff & puff
At brothers sellin the stuff
Takin in washingtons
Lincolns
Not they birthdays
Payback for em makin us slaves
phoenixgirl:
wow. Thank you.
another weekend is here and i am working my skinny black ass off to get things done for my website and such. i probably wont be any more than 20 seconds away from the computer at any point over the next couple of days. so drop me a line as regular work breaks increase productivity and maintain sanity.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
frolleinsuzy:
Hey, I have also a lot of work to do and sit the whole day in front of my computer or in bed with my notebook. I need a lot of free days
And thanks for your email
And thanks for your email
phoenixgirl:
that video was fucking hilarious.Office Space rocks!!
sometimes its good to just do nothing.
i was "sick" today because i needed a break from work to do other things. i have vacation time but i like to save it for a real vacation (or shoots). and they frown on usng sick days as vacation days...even for someone like me who hardly ever gets sick. but anyhow.
day started of a lil crazy....
Read More
i was "sick" today because i needed a break from work to do other things. i have vacation time but i like to save it for a real vacation (or shoots). and they frown on usng sick days as vacation days...even for someone like me who hardly ever gets sick. but anyhow.
day started of a lil crazy....
Read More
frolleinsuzy:
Sweetie, I know this problem with ex and children. I have an ex and our daughter is also 12 years old and sometimes its difficult to solve problems
phoenixgirl:
you hav to take time just for yourself, it is always good to recharge your bateries!!
i will catch up with you on monday
(but i'm not autographing that...)