audaciazero

Just home, soaked from rain, sweating from the humidity, lamenting. Let the weekend begin I suppose.

I am looking for two different kinds of relationships. Yes I am looking for my guy significant other. Someone that wants something real. But I am also looking for my soul mate. My best friend. It's going to take a long time because it is damn hard to truly open up, and because I choose to spend most of my time alone. These things take...
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Putting your cards on the table leads to pain and disappointment. Do not do it.

I've never believed a single kind word. In any context. when I hear the words I know that the speaker does believe in them, but I stop short. I can feel a moment. I can suck you in and devour and give everything at the same damn time. then I sober up and it's back under the surface. Where it can be controlled and nobody...
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On quiet introspective days like this I wish I had someone I could call a best friend. Or any kind of close friend at all. In the mean time it's me, sundies, and Jim Beam.

I don't believe in a higher power. Not in the way that the [no-one] who is going to read this would think. I believe in science. Our planet is amazing, fascinating, mystifying. Recently I read an article about life, specifically whether it has a meaning. Who knows? I've always felt that we are, simpy put, of this earth. We will remain a part of it....
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Recently I had an experience so thoroughly intoxicating that for an instant I was brought to the edge of tears. The unadulterated rawness of a moment is a high of its very own. Until next time.

Sick during a long weekend! Today's plans were ruined, hopefully I can get rest and tomorrow is a better day.

Ever have one of those days where all you want to do is shirk every obligation? Just call him up, and tell him to bring himself over here with a bottle of his favorite and make a day and night of not thinking at all? But it's Monday and good girls don't get pinned to beds on Monday mornings. They go to work.