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My heart is beating too fast and the anxiety is coming on stronger with each breath. Sniglet is whining to go out, I'm trying to get dressed faster now and make it to work with my mind intact.
Last night was all to familiar and I'm getting more tired each day. 4 sleeping pills into fighting insomnia I just lay there thinking of reasons to...
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ryan:
i know that feeling all too well...

kiss
it's so incredibly frustrating.
lily:
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Why if it isn't SucidieGirls launch anni! 3 years of being on this site and seeing it grow has gone by fast

I just worked a hole night for shit because there was some dumbass tough guy confusion at the end of the night and I think I gave someone the wrong change so I had to put all of my tips in the till....
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throb:
FUCK YEAH !!! skull mad skull
brightnight:
i'm not a tough guy. i know all about jerk-faces and loosing tips for resons beyond retarted. i've only commented once before and said you're are 6 steps beyond beautiful but i doubt you remember. anyway keep your chin up and stay sexy. take care.
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I am going to have a heart attack. I was already feeling anxious tonight and then the following happened. We have a couple of mice right now that we are trying to get rid of. They don't come out often and run when the kitchen light is turned on. I turned it on and waited a moment, walked up to the sink for some water,...
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ryan:
here you go darlin!

humane mouse traps

these are the ones we got and they worked well.. you just have to be patient.. and remember that mice are noctournal so your best chances for capture are at night. and sometimes if the mouse is small, you may need to add weight into the trap (like a nickle) to help it spring when mickey or minnie show up. as for bait, you kind of have to experiment. dry crackers didn't work for our guests. i think we rocked peanutbutter or ? dunno.

good luck with the houseguests.. xoxo
zombiehead2:
i used to have mice...i used to have a cat that ate mice...the cat ran away...i moved away...now i have no mice.

at least you don't have rats...
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I don't know what is wrong with me lately or how to snap out of it. The people I let close to me can feel it a mile away but I can't explain what exactly is wrong and the age old excuse of my having genetic chemical depression is getting tiresome. I'm sick of my emotions ruining my day. I need a damn vacation or...
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slaughtervein:
If I had the money, I'd send you on a vacation. I know I could definately use one. As for being proud? Well, I don't really know you, but...It seems you have quite a bit to be proud of. I read your profile and you seem to very intelligent. Probably more then you give yourself credit for.

And just by watching your journal and the way people respond to you tells me you're very well liked, admired and maybe even loved. You seem like you have a lot to offer this world. The potential to go places and do great things. But for whatever reasons, you might be holding yourself back more then anything.

So yeah, you're highly intelligent in my opinion. Anyone really reads your profile can tell that. By reading responses to your journal, you're obviously well liked. And to top it all off, you're absolutely gorgeous and devastatingly attractive.

So if you want to be proud of yourself for something, perhaps you can start there. You're quite an extraordinary young woman. Don't ever sell yourself short. Now if you liked The Yankees instead of The Red Sox, you'd be perfect! Just kidding. Enjoy your weekend. Right on Anais.
hyde:
i have a tendency to depression, i'm not sure if it's chemical or what but i've become to blame it on thinking TOO MUCH. I agree with the woman above that you seem like a very intelligent person, like myself. I over think everything. that can only lean to trouble. but with my intelligence and over thinking comes the need to fight this thing known as "depression". Find your symptoms, triggers of mood swings and fight them. when you feel the urge to curl into a ball and sleep all day, get up and exercise, go walk your dog, do the dishes, accomplish some sort of goal you set up for yourself to do that day. then at the end of the day when you have those feelings of uselessness and self-pity you can say "hey i did blank today i was productive, go me." Seems simple but you'd be amazed how it could make you feel. life is about making goals and accomplishing them, so on a day your feeling depressed and don't want to deal with the world, do this little exercise and it will be a little mood booster, try it out see if it works.

>;}
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I wonder who has been controlling my body and mind lately because it's a bit blurry and out of control. That doesn't make a lot of sense seeing as I have mellowed down my substance intake substantially. Maybe I am crazier sober. The days just seem to be melting together and the weather is confusing me.

I watched 4 Days in Panties at work tonight...
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slaughtervein:
Hope order and clarity are soon restored to your life. Enjoy your day. Right on.
presence:
i hear that...whenever im sober for days at a time people ask me whats wrong? are you high? and i feel very hyper, anxious and weirded out...dont let weather confuse you hes a dick and hes gettin what he wants...have a sexxiee time in boston
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Can you ever feel tears just below the surface as though they are going to errupt at any moment but not for any particular reason. Damn hormones.
I've been feeling my depression creep up these past few days so I put on a nice cabby hat and decided I am a newsie today.
Perhaps working on pictures of beautiful Seraphim will cheer me up a...
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thegarden:
Yeah.
Lucky you! shocked
hansel:
I'm totally giggling right now. shocked
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pharaoh:
hey!

well aside from (unsuccessfully) avoiding stupidity, i'm doing pretty well. getting drunk, chasing girls, wondering where the money all went... the usual.

how's things in pdx/slabtown??

i wish i had a teleporter so i could come visit for a few hours.
pharaoh:
windows?

that doesn't seem very slabby to me... wink

how are people supposed to forget what time it is?

i could use at least a day of rain here. i don't think it's rained since last november.
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london:
broken feet!!!!
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Allo,
A word of advice. Don't make fun of Siren and her chocolate induced broken foot. I did and karma dealt me a fractured toe. Siren and I are gimp twins now and went hopping on errands together.
I'm off to my bar to seek donations of vicodin smile.
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ryan:
lillithvain:
I'll send you a vicodin package asap. I pinched my sciatic nerve and they prescribed me a whole bottle which I can't take because it makes me drool on myself. Much luck in the future. Your beautiful~! kiss
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Allo,
I've decided to go on a lil' sober stint. I'm tired of letting my impulsive side take ahold of me and need some time to figure out what thoughts and emotions are real. bostondave rocks my socks and he is doing the same thing as me. We stayed in a watched Badder Santa tonight. Wooden pickles make me giggle.

My new set got accepted...
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philomath:
Too much fun, you! Very nice.
todd31:
sobriety is good for the body,mind,and soul wink glad to hear you have a new set coming wink wooden pickles are kinda funny especially slightly brownish red ones wink
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Allo,
Leave it up to insomnia to allow me to work a night shift last night (friday), finish editing a set, finish my new set, and shoot a new special set. Now I can rest, perhaps.
I did sleep a bit this morning but not nearly enough. No wonder I am such a sickly lil' gal who can spend a day in 100+ heat and...
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liquidflorian:
I hope you've gotten some rest sense this post. Any Idea when your set will be put up?
therevolutionary:
i love tub time