anais

I am hiding in my house until work tomorrow night. I can feel a bit of a bug coming on and I'm having difficulty picking and choosing thoughts out of my mind. They are all moving rather fast and interuppting one another in such a sly way that it takes me a moment to notice what has happened and weather I care. That could be...
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Damn goblin that erases journal entries. I went to the doctor today to see why my knee is growing a new friend on the side of it. He had no idea and set me up with an x-ray tomorrow and then an appt. with an orthopedic surgeon. Lovely. And here I thought my knee cap was just lonley and wanted a new friend. My lanlord...
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I figure it is time to update. I've gotten a lot accomplished in the past two weeks which is helping my mood quite a bit. I've been feeling not quite right but can't quite put my finger on what is wrong, so be it.

My left knee is growing a new friend on the side of it. Swollen golf ball, thank goodness for vicodin.

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There is a layer of stress beneath my skin and it is taking all I have not to tear it out.

Siren came to visit me at work tonight. I miss that girl. Definately made working on my day off less annoying. I want to go to the Download Festival.
My brain is too sleepy to create anything interesting at the moment, lovely insomnia.
*ANais
*new candids

sometimes feeling depressed and impulsive feels like it occurs at the most inappropiate moment...yet I can't help it, it is in my genes. The combination of both sends me into an awkward place. Perhaps I should attempt to sleep.
*ANais

*new candids in my pics

I just rented a cartoon about dog poo

Just got back from Ohio. Getting away for a few days helped a lot. I've have so much to do, procrastinations to evict, life to live.

*ANais

I just want to hug her one more time and ask if everything is allright. Let her know I care. Goodbye Arleta, you are beautiful and I'll never forget your amazing presence.
*Anais
It just hit me again that I wll never see her aside from the beauty in my mind. I miss you so much Arleta...

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Allo,
Things are looking up. I'll be able to fix my bounced rent check tomorrow. I've got the keys to my new place and can move in as soon as I am sure I have enough money to pay off my utilities. Last night was a good tip night and then I got to cover a shift tonight which looked more like a Friday then...
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Yafuckinghoo.
My week went from my rent check bouncing to my lanlord being fine with it and letting us move upstairs to a nicer non-street level apartment . Now we don't have to worry about our cracked window, broken heat, broken phoneline, tub with a massive hole in it, leaky faucet etc. Time to come up with an assload of money to pay my utilities...
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Long night. Unexpected late evenings always make me wonder if it was worth it or if staying at home would have been the wiser choice. There is something unsettling yet somewhat beautiful about walking home as the morning trains start running, traffic begins and garbage trucks finish with a royal blue sky.
Hung out with Jayne tonight, which was lovely as always. We giggled as...
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