OK so this is very possably my last post here...
an Update
Wedding in 11 days! i'm freaking the fuck out. I think everything is set but there is this little voice in the back of my head screaming at me. Its saying youre fooling yourself if you think your ready to fly down to vegas and get hitched your forgeting everything.
The new job...
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an Update
Wedding in 11 days! i'm freaking the fuck out. I think everything is set but there is this little voice in the back of my head screaming at me. Its saying youre fooling yourself if you think your ready to fly down to vegas and get hitched your forgeting everything.
The new job...
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lobster_mobster:
You have my cell number, yes? I will PM it to you just in case you don't. All I have is the number at the house for you and E, neither cell number, so... GIMME! I'm up at the Lake usually every Monday and Tuesday, so we should definitely hang out 
catagogo:
Amymay! I'll miss you when you leave SG, we should be myspace friends and I'll leave you all kinds of sweet internet lovin. Good luck with the wedding!
Working sucks... sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks!
I realized i'm not the type that buys greating cards. So working at Hallmark SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!
I realized i'm not the type that buys greating cards. So working at Hallmark SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!
So i tried to talk to a few people about this but they didn't seem to care... so i'm venting... sorry
So i faced my fear today.... it beat me.
I went to the eye doctor. Now that doesn't sound that bad but with my medical histroy i hate the optomitrist like most hate dentist. Its not the sound of a drill but the could...
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So i faced my fear today.... it beat me.
I went to the eye doctor. Now that doesn't sound that bad but with my medical histroy i hate the optomitrist like most hate dentist. Its not the sound of a drill but the could...
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galaxy42:
Hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
Do as much work as you can with your eyes now...
I hope it all turns out ok.
Do as much work as you can with your eyes now...
I hope it all turns out ok.
9005900:
Modern medicine works wonders these days.
I've had cataract surgery in each eye, 14 years ago, and retinal deattachments in both eyes in 1998. And in all cases my vision has been restored. I've lost a little peripheral vision, but not enough to affect my vision or driving. Still wear eye glasses to drive, but don't need any correction to read. I'll be 60 years old this year.
You'll be okay!
I've had cataract surgery in each eye, 14 years ago, and retinal deattachments in both eyes in 1998. And in all cases my vision has been restored. I've lost a little peripheral vision, but not enough to affect my vision or driving. Still wear eye glasses to drive, but don't need any correction to read. I'll be 60 years old this year.
You'll be okay!
Got our rings YAY
Got most things planned
Got a hair cut (I'll try to post a pic)
But parents... they are .... pain.
after much ado all of our parents are comeing. This is not something we could take for granted cause of all the shit that they've been giveing. E.s father said he wasn't comeing but his mom "convinced him with a bargen"...
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Got most things planned
Got a hair cut (I'll try to post a pic)
But parents... they are .... pain.
after much ado all of our parents are comeing. This is not something we could take for granted cause of all the shit that they've been giveing. E.s father said he wasn't comeing but his mom "convinced him with a bargen"...
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So i figured another update before i go grey wouldn't hurt.
We moved the wedding up to the 10th of june and cut from 200 people down to 20. Should be fun but i'm going a bit out of my mind planning the whole thing.
I recently realized that i lived in CA. I mean i've been here for almost a year and it never...
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We moved the wedding up to the 10th of june and cut from 200 people down to 20. Should be fun but i'm going a bit out of my mind planning the whole thing.
I recently realized that i lived in CA. I mean i've been here for almost a year and it never...
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badangela:
200 down to 20 is quite a lot. Good luck with the job interview. 
gayballs:
I'll miss you once you're grey
cum and go
cum and go
I'm going grey on June 1st and with any luck i'll stay that way. It has nothing to do with any of you. I think you're all wonderful people but i need to find a group of warm bodies to hang out with for a while. Being in rochester only made me remeber how much i miss hanging out with people. I would love to...
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omeganightmare:
there is a possability of me being free thursday night. Aslong as nothing comes up that is
sugadaddi:
Hey Amymay, sorry we're going to lose you on here, we had some nice chats. I'll catch you on AOL sometime.
Hey Amymay, sorry we're going to lose you on here, we had some nice chats. I'll catch you on AOL sometime.
On to new and brighter things... i just have no idea what they are.
So i've been thinking alot lately and i think i put my finger on whats wrong. I just don't fit in... Normaly i change to fit my enviroment. If someone needs a mother figure thats what i am. If they need some one to throw two year old tantrums thats what i give them. If they need an ear to cry on or someone to...
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naughtydevil:
Hi Amymay,
I hope you don't mind me sharing my thoughts.
I think it's natural to change to a certain degree when your in different situations.
For example, at work, i'm really quite because I just can't relate to the people I work with. However, at Uni, where people have more intelligent convo's they can't shut me up in most classes.
Around my friends, I'm the funny one, around my family, again, I'm quiter.
I guess, just learn to put yourself first sometimes, maybe get into the habit of making choices, then as you do, it will become more second nature. For example, if someone says what food do you want, decide, don't say whatever, or whatever your having. Maybe a silly example, but you know what I mean.
If you can paint, expressing yourself isn't a problem, you just need to do it more in a social situation. Life is too short to not do what you want, I used to do what your describing. If we were seeing a movie, i would just go along, now if it's not something I want to do, then I'll do something else.
Your probably perhaps discovering that 99 percent of people look after their own interests, so perhaps it's time you looked after yours more.
If your not sure what to do, maybe go to the library and get some books on different topics your interested in, that will at least get you thinking of different paths you want to persure and get involved in.
I'm in a similar situation atm, if you read my latest blog.
I hoped this has helped in some way.
Take care,
Benn.
I hope you don't mind me sharing my thoughts.
I think it's natural to change to a certain degree when your in different situations.
For example, at work, i'm really quite because I just can't relate to the people I work with. However, at Uni, where people have more intelligent convo's they can't shut me up in most classes.
Around my friends, I'm the funny one, around my family, again, I'm quiter.
I guess, just learn to put yourself first sometimes, maybe get into the habit of making choices, then as you do, it will become more second nature. For example, if someone says what food do you want, decide, don't say whatever, or whatever your having. Maybe a silly example, but you know what I mean.
If you can paint, expressing yourself isn't a problem, you just need to do it more in a social situation. Life is too short to not do what you want, I used to do what your describing. If we were seeing a movie, i would just go along, now if it's not something I want to do, then I'll do something else.
Your probably perhaps discovering that 99 percent of people look after their own interests, so perhaps it's time you looked after yours more.
If your not sure what to do, maybe go to the library and get some books on different topics your interested in, that will at least get you thinking of different paths you want to persure and get involved in.
I'm in a similar situation atm, if you read my latest blog.
I hoped this has helped in some way.
Take care,
Benn.
I think,
I give up
or
give in
or
give it all away.
I give up
or
give in
or
give it all away.
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omeganightmare:
yah doing alright miss amy?
yah doing alright miss amy?
remuemenage:
may the California sun heal you & bring you luck
girl of my heart
girl of my heart
so i kinda feel like i just got my heart riped out through my throught. I spent the night listening to old songs that make me remember old times and listening to Josh hit on my good friend rhi... lovely... truely lovely.
anyhow
Anyone want to do something this weekend? I'm desepert to beleave i have people to hang out with up here so is...
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anyhow
Anyone want to do something this weekend? I'm desepert to beleave i have people to hang out with up here so is...
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gayballs:
I hate that fucking feeling. when people who you have no real claim to will do what they can to make themselves feel good and it works out in a way that makes you feel shitty.
I should update but i have no idea what to say.
E. and i faught again last night... its back home and back to normal which kinda makes me sad. I'm sure its just stressed our wallet is hurting and his parents are just causing more and more shit. I'm makeing dinner....
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E. and i faught again last night... its back home and back to normal which kinda makes me sad. I'm sure its just stressed our wallet is hurting and his parents are just causing more and more shit. I'm makeing dinner....
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I"M HOME!!!
you have no idea how good it feels to be here. I still have to completely rearange the house to make room for andrew being here and to clean up after E being here alone for a month but
I"M HERE!
if you missed the adventures of Amy heres my last blog that tells all about the fun (note the sarcasam)
last blog
you have no idea how good it feels to be here. I still have to completely rearange the house to make room for andrew being here and to clean up after E being here alone for a month but
I"M HERE!
if you missed the adventures of Amy heres my last blog that tells all about the fun (note the sarcasam)
last blog
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galaxy42:
"Home... home again
I like to be here when I can."
- Pink Floyd
I like to be here when I can."
- Pink Floyd
necros:
all im gonna say is wow. and you can guess what thread im refering to