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******************* I'M FREE *********************

i JUST QUIT MY JOB!!!!!!

No more stress, no more crappy internship, no more psychotic boss.

I'm so relieved I want to cry. Yep, I am a MAJOR girl.

Congratulate me... this is a massive step in the right direction.

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cat:

I'm getting married...............

May 21, 2005

cat:

I'll be checking in on SG every now and then, but I'll be mostly away, til my next set goes up. Life is a little crazy now; what with all the big life changes and stuff. But I want to make sure I see you a lot before you leave in a couple of weeks, so any time you want to drop by, A and I are finally out of the hospital, and at my house. We'll be here. A LOT. As he's done with school and leaving his job. So please don't be a stranger. I hope you are well.

May 21, 2005

Ummm..... someone just tried to break into the house I am in. Alone. I am totally stressed out and can't stop shaking even tho nothing happened. Someone knocked on the door, since it isn't my house i didn't answer. I heard noises, and walked down to check it out, and someone was trying to jimmy the door open, they had something in through the door...
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keila:

Glad to hear it all went well!

Things are going pretty good I guess. Working a lot so I can save up money to move. Now I just need a job in Chicago. You'll probably be out of town when I'm there but I'm coming into chicago next thurs to sunday morning...may 26-29.

May 18, 2005

keila:

well, I'm comming into town because cornink is doing my tattoo on friday afternoon. K and I were talking about going out that night or sat. night to celebrate our birthdays so if you wanna come along I'm sure were gonna go out some where.

May 18, 2005

My interview went pretty well. I'm heading out to NY at the end of May to meet more people from his company and others. This guy is now a major advocate of mine, which is awesome, so even if he doesn't have anything available for me he's setting me up with a bunch of other people who might. Yay!

Miracle of miracles, the new Visa...
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bedheadchicken:

no kidding that's the least he could do! you shouldn't ask, you should TELL him what you're doing!

May 17, 2005

bedheadchicken:

let me know how it goes

May 17, 2005

I have an interview tomorrow for a job in NY. With the CEO of a major company.

I am totally freaked out like always, and badly need some good luck and thoughts from everyone. So do it!

Oh, so much pressure. This is basically my best (only?) shot at being able to make it to NY, this company knows I need Visa sponsorship, they requested...
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zabo:

I'm sure you'll do great!!!

May 14, 2005

cat:

sorry I've been out of touch as of late. I really did want to meet your girlfriends. But I hope you had a great time without me....

I don't know why those emails got bounced back to you, I got them just this morning, and it looks like you sent them yesterday, Strage,
anyway, I'm about to go downtown for a little girly shopping with Leah, give me a call, I might be interested in staying downtown to see a movie or something like that.
I hear "Crash" is really good.
love ya.
C

May 15, 2005

The de-porning of my house is still happening. I'm sure my visitors have secret porn lives of their own, but we've never discussed them and I wouldn't want to offend them in anyway by being so in your face about it. So, the porn, toys, books etc are all going away for the next 4 days.

Thanks for the concern Chris & itburns but I...
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ladymaze:

Thanks.

So sorry I missed you the other night. My phone has been acting up...I've been getting text messages hours, or even days, after they were sent.

May 9, 2005

misterdoom:

Damn... I'm coming into town on Wednesday. I'll see LadyK and elora but looks like I'll miss your seesters. ...And I had a list *this* long. (*Unrolls a scroll through the house*) None of it would have required leaving the house, though.

May 9, 2005

I wasn't able to make it to the party at Rodan last night, but it was probably better to stay home and keep trying to fight off this bug. That way I can go out and party in style soon

Today, I get to clean and de-porn my house. Yay!

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bedheadchicken:

why must you de-porn? that seems so senseless.

May 6, 2005

itburns:

hope you feel better and I agree with chris: don't waste good porn

May 6, 2005

I just can't shake this @#*%#%# BUG. My throat is KILLING me

Lately it's only been in the mornings tho, so hopefully I will start being able to swallow without crying sometime in the next few hours.

It is 6.53am. Why am I up?

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girl303:

sorry we didn't meet up...

next time...feel better.

May 5, 2005

girl303:

that SUCKS. cat didn't get any messages on her phone. we left that bar at 12ish and figured since u hadn't called u had gone to bed. she sent u that text soon after i talked to u. man, we owe u.

u were NOT forgotten...

May 5, 2005

EDIT Does anyone in Chicago have a sleeping bag or something I can borrow for a few days please? I have three friends coming to stay and only enough blankets for 2...
Back to your regularly scheduled programming

Thank you thank you thank you to everyone who was concerned about my crap-ass job situation, especially the couple that called to make sure I was okay....
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elora1:

yea. i do try different breathing techniques. and visualization stuff. and i always pound back the water to try to keep down the nausea! i guess (know) that we all have our own things we need to do.

May 4, 2005

nerdboy2345:

thanks

May 4, 2005

I got fired this morning.

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misterdoom:

Better in the morning then later. That way you have all day to celebrate.

Apr 30, 2005

cat:

not the greatest day, or night for that matter. my sister thinks she wants to move in and get married to her boyfriend, whom she's only known for 2 months, and is being completely PIG HEADED about it. and I'm feeling REALLY DEPRESSED about the entire thing. She's never been on her own, and she desperately needs to learn how to be independent-moving in with him is like the worst thing I can think of for her, but I'm like the last person on the planet she wants to hear that from.

Apr 30, 2005

I'm still here, just not feeling good. Both my physical and mental worlds are being bitches at the moment.

I'll get back to you all, promise, but for right now Am is taking a break from her life.

!Hasta la vista!

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girl303:

sorry that your worlds are being hard on u. hope u got that massage...that will definitely make u feel better.

Apr 27, 2005

itburns:

we all need a break every once in a while, followed by s clean start. hope you're well and that you know i'll help in any way i can

Apr 27, 2005

I want to see a movie this weekend, what do you recommend?

BTW, my "

" journal was about the fact that it was Monday, not in reference to my weekend. The weekend rocked, thanks to Cat. I'm trying to think of somewhere I can take her out next to say thanks for continuing my strippers / naked women / porn / Cat education....
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oracle:

Apr 26, 2005

itburns:

hey stranger, where you been?

Apr 26, 2005

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elora1:

it was great to 'kinda' meet you too! it's nice to put real life together with porn life!

i am really looking forward to the next event!!!

Apr 21, 2005

cat:

Me, naked? In realy life? Um...OKAY.

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