adilene

I hope you find someone to do your set. Congrats on the A's that's pretty badass. And yea I know what you mean about babysitting. Can't really do a whole lot. I hope you have a great weekend

I am so, so sorry for your loss. It will probably sound trite but the best thing you can do is remember the good times, the shared experiences, the times together. Yes, it hurts but it also keeps to keep them alive within you.
I lost my buddy of years and years to stomach cancer. It was ridiculously fast and ridiculously brutal and I was so angry at everyone and everything.
But then one day it hit me like a brick; fuck the anger and sadness for that cheapens the memory.
So now most of the time (I can't honestly say all) the memories I savor are the positive ones.
There are times that I'm sad and upset/angry about the loss, and that's only natural because we have emotional highs and lows but those good times eventually trump the bad.

Hang in there and, always, feel free to holler if you need a metaphorical shoulder.

-Scotty

Adilene,

This is a very sad story and I wonder why it all happened that way. When I lost my brother, many years ago, he was 4 year old and I was 16, to all effects I took care of him like if he was my son (my father was not around very much). I was devastated but I could not cry. It was just too much to cry. Many years later, I had a second chance (with a son of mine).

I am convinced these things happen for a reason. And the question now, I believe is what does it mean for you? You will never know what it meant for your friend. What are the beautiful things that this friendship brought to you? What did it teach you about yourself. Maybe you can, re-live the whole story of your friendship in your head and in your heart. You can do this to honour your friend and the gifts she brought to you and also to make sense of your own life.

What will happen now of the little brother?

A big hug (from a fellow human being)

Marc

great!!!