8spiders

Something screams in my sleep.

Is it me?

I dream often... So much that I can't tell what's real sometimes. Will you lend an ear to my dreams?

There was this one series of dreams where I used to be "that guy". The pathetic guy that drags his feet and feels sorry for himself. The spineless "nice guy" that no woman wants to be with...

Somewhere along the line I stumbled into a nightmare. I had this twin and he was trying to kill me. He had been a necessary reflection to develop my soul during creation, but then he had been cast away -- like a placenta. He wispered to me, once, in the dark.

"If I cannot have your life, nobody will."

Something woke me from these dreams... these nightmares. They shook me and yelled until I opened my eyes.

I'm not the person I was in these dreams. I'm someone else...

Two women, in as many months, have told me they love me. Yesterday, I watched porn with a quirky, pretty girl. This weekend I met a stripper and she gave me her phone number.

I laugh with my friends. They believe in me. I believe in myself. Nobody I'm with is ever lied to and no one ever gets hurt.

When I wake up, I feel good.

It's confusing to me now, that I ever had these strange dreams before...

Maybe I'm dreaming now, that I'm someone else. If that's the case, I wonder who I'll be when I wake up.