8spiders

I'm going to start this by saying.

FUCK

I sang AC/DC's Big Balls at rock and roll karaoke and everyone flipped out. God I'm Awesome.

It was my sister's birthday this week and I thought about calling her to patch things up between us. But then I remembered it was entirely not-my-fault we stopped talking in the first place.

Fuck her.

I miss my brother,...
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Today a woman told me a story about how her ex is breaking into her room and sniffing her panties.

Weird shit.

This same girl also told me a story about how her father busted the plate behind her nose, just for being too quick-lipped.

But what do you expect from an LA cop?

Today another girl was telling me about how some guy asked...
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I'm working like a dog. It's awesome.

But what will I do when it's all said and done? Maybe I'll join the circus.

Or become a Suicide Girl.

Not drunk, violent and so explosive that it impacts, scarring memory... No, instead it is sober, timid and meek.

This is how it ends on a Wednesday night.

It was the Socratic Method to begin with questions yielding answers wrapped in sheets and arms and legs... yet everything comes full circle,

"Is this how it ends?"

"What do you think?"

I remember her hands skipping...
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3(?)4(?) whiskeys and 2-3 beers later (dot(dot(dot)

oooh man, getting drunk with a friend that brings up your "ex" is a baaaad idea. i almost lost my shit. ALMOST.

she was only trying to help, but good lord. please, don't rock the boat... i can barely stand as it is.

does the body rule the mind or does the mind rule the body? i dunno......
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if i was blastin' a little Elvis Presley
would they pull me over and attempt to arrest me?


i'm noticing women's dress more. not like before, but now i'm looking at how well the shoes match with the purse.

do the drapes match the carpet?

ahhh, my life is b-b-b-busy. not busy, so much as just, well full.

i'm breakin' eardrums like i'm breakin' the...
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My friend is getting a divorce. He claims he's fine... and that's what worries me. Like Karnak, I see cracks. Flaws.

Just about everyone I know is married, engaged, or divorced. I feel soooo behind. I'm envious, in fact.

Will you marry me?

i am currently, perhaps briefly, working retail again, which i swore up and down i'd never do again after managing a small store and having the owner try and fuck me without the courtesy of a reach around. which, of course, is a serious breach of etiquette. the reach around is called a "courtesy" for a reason.

but as far as working retail goes, there...
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i'm trying really hard to pull my life together but days like today i just sleep and feel like shit and listen to Morrissey.

good lord, i feel so homosexual.

i really thought i was going to have to fuck off to Portland. i really felt like i needed family. i'd be with my brother and i know he'll always have my back.

my best...
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And it all comes...

crashing...

down...

I remember at one point

At one point everything was in control. Not controlled, but managable. I understood and related and reacted, and now...

Now...

I feel like I continue to toss my life into the wind. Lending everything to chance and circumstance.

I lost my best friend because of her husband's jealousy and my inability to handle it......
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I survived another year, despite your best efforts.

Fuck you and buy me drink.