85girl

Ever feel like a song sums you up perfectly? I have been very in-tuned with Dashboard Confessionals lately. I am not sure if it is because i am lonely or having a hard time in school...or if it is because my boy and i are struggling...but i listened to them my whole way home from vegas...and today this one really hit me hard-


Saints And Sailors

This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better.

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things and I'm pretty sure that few would notice. And this apartment is starving for an argument. Anything at all to break the silence.

Wandering the house like I've never wanted out and this is about as social as I get now. And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you 'cause they would never do, I would never do.

So don't be a liar, don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken. And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me.


besides the "everythings working" part this one pretty much sums me up right now. I love my boy...more than i ever thought i could love anyone...and i need for us to be ok. And in knowing that....i also know that i am going to feel like "A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better" for a while. We have destroyed each other....i am 20 and over emotional and untrusting and he is 22 and jaded. But i need to be a walking open wound to let myself heal...i just hope that he starts to open up so that we can heal together. ::sigh:: i am a hopeless romantic....i love this boy.

lol...i think i might be a little bit manic....in a complete change of mood...the last line "And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me" reminds me of my boy in a way that completely warms my heart...he looks like a hot punk rock boy with his ink and his faux hawk...and he definately swears like a sailor....but he has this amazingly beautiful smile with the most perfect lips...and his eyes always say the jokes on me (remember in a good way) because i am so dorky and his eyes either laugh at me or you can just tell that he thinks i am a spaz

anyways....after cheering myself up (like i usually do when i think hard about memories with my guy....lol, now i am thinking about this night when we laid under the stars and we made up constallations because the night was so clear but we couldnt actually find too many of the real constallations...we giggled and cuddled for hours)...i just need to be closer so that i have more opportunities for late night constallation naming ^_^ i am going to go take a bubble bath with my new happy thoughts....wow, i really am a moody moody bitch


question: which song sums you up? why?