7deuce

thank you all for your condolences.

it bothers me when i see that someone i care about is saying the exact same things to others that they say/said to me... it makes me wonder about the worth of their words... i wish i wasn't so controlled by my emotions.

i have a hard time believing in myself enough to believe the positive things others say about me... and things like these make it even harder and makes my doubt grow in abundance. i try to believe the best but it's not in my nature.... and when i try to talk about it i get made to feel like the bad guy for feeling the way i do and for wanting to talk about it instead of letting it fester inside of me and growing to resentment like i know it would.

i hate being in love... but i love being in love... it's so complicated...