7deuce

damn i'm in an awful way right now... it has been almost a year since i've been THIS DOWN but tonight just seems to be a night i'm feeling it worst. so many differant things have converged on me the last week or so and all of them are weighing on me heavily... and just now seemed to be the straw that broke the camels back... am i that bad a person? am ai a person that people easily look down on? for a long time i have just said, "fuck it. i'm me. i'm not changing for anyone." but does it pay to be you, to stick to your guns with such conviction that you are on a solitary rock, in the middle of nothing, alone?

sometimes i really hate being who i am... but its what i'm stuck with i guess...