Well I'm feeling a little better.... Cyn was right.... he is tired and we're both incredibly stressed... but I'm an earth sign so whenever I'm feeling incredibly down I do things (or want to do things) that connect me with this earth... which is why I've been eating what I want... cooking alot cause its meditative for me... and well sex just makes me feel better damnit... but I'm substantially younger in the sex stakes so I have to keep remembering that as well...
The real issue was Mark leaving.... I've been working so hard for the past 6 weeks I'm about to have a nervous breakdown... and I just didnt want to deal with Mark leaving.... he is my best friend... and I dont have many other friends after that... I have 3 other friends.. and they're all the same age I just realised they're all 35.... but Mark out of all of them was like my brother... he's another libran like my boy... caps and librans are totally drawn to one another... I just didnt want to deal... I just thought maybe it was going to be like last time when he was leaving that a company would make him and offer to stay so he would.... .but in helping him clean out his cupboards on Tuesday packing shit, throwing shit... it just overwhelmed me... I inherited so much stuff from him... he told whatever was in the house I could have .... I got some fish which is cool... I got a heap of pot which is even cooler.... and kitchen stuff... we've got enough food to last us months... and yeah... in nursing his little baby alot of the day so his wife could go and do things with the other kids it dawned on me.. the next time I see William he will be walking.. (he's 3 months old now).... its not the end of the world... but a substantial part of my life has moved away... its really surprised me how teary I am.... but then again I guess I havent had much loss to deal with my entire life....
more incentive to go to England I guess... I shall be going around Christmas time
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The real issue was Mark leaving.... I've been working so hard for the past 6 weeks I'm about to have a nervous breakdown... and I just didnt want to deal with Mark leaving.... he is my best friend... and I dont have many other friends after that... I have 3 other friends.. and they're all the same age I just realised they're all 35.... but Mark out of all of them was like my brother... he's another libran like my boy... caps and librans are totally drawn to one another... I just didnt want to deal... I just thought maybe it was going to be like last time when he was leaving that a company would make him and offer to stay so he would.... .but in helping him clean out his cupboards on Tuesday packing shit, throwing shit... it just overwhelmed me... I inherited so much stuff from him... he told whatever was in the house I could have .... I got some fish which is cool... I got a heap of pot which is even cooler.... and kitchen stuff... we've got enough food to last us months... and yeah... in nursing his little baby alot of the day so his wife could go and do things with the other kids it dawned on me.. the next time I see William he will be walking.. (he's 3 months old now).... its not the end of the world... but a substantial part of my life has moved away... its really surprised me how teary I am.... but then again I guess I havent had much loss to deal with my entire life....
more incentive to go to England I guess... I shall be going around Christmas time
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Later doll
J
I don't think there's anything more depressing in the world than one of your closest friends move away.
You start to notice it happen more and more around this age ( early-to-mid 20's )..people's lives start taking different paths, and one day you look around and you're all alone...
Wow, I'm really not helping here, am I? Sorry.
Anyways, the bright side is that true friends never really go away...my father still talks to his best friend, whom has been his best friend since he was eleven (my dad is 60 years old)...they still visit each other every few months...it's truly amazing thing to watch, two people who know each other so well, who have seen each other grow up, and go through every major incident life throw at us...so anyways, have faith that those that you care about will find a way to stay in your life.
Wow...I'm not helping at all, am I? Well, at any rate, I've been through this myself recently, so you have my empathy.
England, eh? That would be cool!