60ftqueenie

Well I'm stoned again.... its this whole damn working in the day business.... at least I got some good work over the past couple of days... I'm not saved yet but if I have another good shift I will be.. I ran up so many debts being unemployed.. mainly to my dealer... well the blood dude didnt come in but that was cool I did 2 sessions anyway so I earnt good money... my first session was with this like seriously 85 year old guy.. I had to help him up the stairs... basically he wanted a golder shower and that was it but I fluffed around with him for a while... let him do some leg worship and stuff and make him feel a little bit sexy.. I felt sorry for him.. even though people are that old they still have sexual urges.. I certainly want to have a sex life at that age... and I had the feeling that his wife had just died or something..... he just seemed so very lonely.... he told me he hadnt been able to cum in like months... and he cant get a full erection anymore.... I just felt bad for him... I pissed on him I tried to do it as slowly as possible so he could enjoy every second of it and he came... and then he cried a little bit ... partly sad and partly joyous... I gave him the longest hug when I was showing him out the door... he just so desperately needed some company and for a woman to pay attention to him... any kind of attention...sometimes I really feel we provide a humanitarian service...

Like this guy that came in the other day for a baby session... but he didnt really want any baby things like having a bath and being fed baby food and being put into diapers... he just wanted to be cuddled and told a story... and he just lay forever with this mistress while she mothered him... and by the end of the session he told her his real name and told her that he was being shipped off to Afganistan tomorrow and he didnt have any family to say goodbye to him.. and asked her if she would tell him her real name and if she would write to him while he was away... I felt like I was is some fucking movie.. this poor guy just came in to feel the safety and love of being a little kid again for one hour before he got shipped off to war.... it broke my fucking heart