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Hey, Thankyou for tonight. I'm sorry I got pissy over the girl comment. I just know i'm tougher then what most people think. and i think i proved that to ya. hehe. im sorry im so scared of commitment even in the slightest bit. It's just I dont want to fall to hard to fast. I mean how do you go from a 3 year engangement to boyfriend and girlfriend... I feel like I've lost so much and so little at the same time ya know? I miss Robbie so much, and I love him with all my heart, its hard to know when to move on... i feel so like.. i dunno how to put it. when i was with robbie, he took care of everything. from how my money was spent to how his was spent. i mean he budgeted just for me. i never had to pay for anything. which has left me with no knowledge of how to set aside or anything. its like i already knew he was there to care for me, and when i married him i knew what was going to happen and that id be alrite. I dont know anything anymore, and it scares me... I know I shouldnt rely on a guy to take care of me, and i didnt want to get to that point ever, but somehow i did, and im left to figure out all this shit on my own. im so scared.. alrite, im done. thank you so much.. x.kisses.x luv ya. roarie

SWEET!

i know i must seem like a wierd stalker or something, but im tryyying one last time before i leave!!! grrr, meanie. fine. if you want to play that way!! it's cuz you're black!! hah, how do you like that?!

i dont want to wake your "roomates" up

Thats cool. Does that mean you can call me now?
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Is it too wierd for me to say I miss ya? heh.
x.kisses.x
you make me feel like a stalker.

[Edited on Jun 03, 2006 3:35PM]

You skipped out on calling me yesterday, fucker!! What kind of sort-of boyfriend does that, lol. Hehehe... I know something you don't knoooooooow!!! Not really I'm just playing!! Maybe, I prolly know lots of things that you don't, but... yea.. I don't know where this is going. I'm just bored. I slept through church this morning, so I'm kinda pissed. I'm even more mad that I drove all the way to Bardstown Rd. and I got to be in EarXtacy for a full 3.5 minutes. Then I got sick again when I woke up this morning!!! I thought I was going to throw up on Christian. She'd be a meaner kittie then. Ummmm hmmm. I guess I'll go ramble on to someone else now.
PS. I don't date losers so either you're good at fooling me or you better become a, umm, not loser real quick!!! Hehe. Alrite, I'm really going now!
x.kisses.x
rOaRie

grrrr

Hey, why're you acting so wierd?

Why'd you get rid of all your stuff???

hehe, was it bad that that joke turned me on a little?
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I wish you didnt stay up all night!! Cuz I want to see you right NOW!!! GrrrRRrr... I'm going to send my evil sock monkey to bite you. Hey, or my old friends the scary green underwear!! man i havent thought of them in awhile. see you inspire me. oooo yea. i gots a present for you!!! x.kisses.x later. rOaRie

[Edited on May 29, 2006 1:52PM]

eating waffles alone sucks

You were fine. I'm just nervous to get really close to anybody right now.

x.kisses.x
roarie

[Edited on May 28, 2006 1:20PM]

hey, if your awake call me again

I would have still came and saw you if you really wanted me too! And yea I'm sure drinking for the first time in 7 months had something to do with it, but I've been having stomach problems for 3 weeks now too, so it was probably a mixture. Drinking wasn't as fun as I remember it to be. Probably because I'm happy now. Last year I drank from the time I woke up in the morning until the time I passed out cuz I felt sad all the time. I guess it's a good thing it doesn't have the same effect. Anyway!! I'm sorry I didn't get to see you last night, call me whenever you want today, I'll be out doing graduation stuff, and making myself look pretty so I don't get laughed at when I walk across stage. The girls are supposed to wear heels, but I don't think I'm going to for the simple fact that they're going to get stuck in the mud and I'll probably fall over on stage. So I'm off to go find some shoes that I can walk in. x.kisses.x rOaRiE

heh, 10 am and still no sleep. i couldnt do that. well hurry up sleep and wake up so i can see you!! x.kisses.x RoArie

EDIT: Hey it's 6, I just woke up from my nap, and Nina's having trouble with Kevin again so I'm going to go cheer her up. I wish I could do more than just give her advice. =/ x.kisses.x

[Edited on May 24, 2006 6:04PM]

okay its 12:20 and you still havent called and im getting scared that you died in the storm! please dont be dead!! call me! ... dont make me cry!

Hehe. Yea next time i'll pay for the free water.

yea that'd be cool. this time i have to remember to tell stick. he got pissed off and tried to run me over. seriously... anyway, i havent been on here lately because ive had one day off since the last day ive talked to you. so yea in case you were wondering i wasnt avoiding you. i have this wednesday thru next sunday off thank God. anyway, call me or something. x.kisses.x xox

sounnds good. lemme go get my phone outta my car. (i thought working till 10 was bad) id hate working till 12 x.kisses.x

Hah, well I'm glad you didn't burn your store down. That would be crazy because i go there way too much. Anyway, yea. Thursday sounds good. I'll prolly get my hour around 5 or 6 then. later. x.kisses.x