4evafilthy

Last nite was fucking great . I saw a couple of great bands and got completely shitfaced til 6 in da mornin. tons of fun!!!!!!drunken madness!!!!!!!! I was kinda bummed out on the scene though not that i ever really expectations on it or anything but everyone was just standing around watching the bands which is cool and all but i felt like i was around a bunch of contemporary punk rock adults. Is every one to cool to dance or pogo or whatever???? at least make it look like your into the music or are people there with other motives??? Are they there because if they go they will fit in with the crowd or the scene???? your always going to have that at a show but when it seems to be the majority its saddening. doesnt matter i guess cuz i still fucking rocked out. To some i might have looked like a fool. I wasnt going balistic or anything but i was really enjoying myself. I think its lame when you go to a show to enjoy the music (a punk show) and people are looking at you like your a dork. it doesnt bother me i just dont understand. It s not supposed to be cool from what i always understood it as. its kinda an oxymoron the word PUNK and COOL. But its really fucking cool. lol. i could type more but no ones gonna read this anyways but ill just think of it as my own personal journal or somethin of that nature. wait??? maybe i am a dork. maybe its not becuase i was having a good time. maybe im just a dork plain and simple. lol. something to ponder over. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT. haha