Ahoy there.
Ok, I sort of blew off my date yesterday. The other night at work I came to the realization that after I had been dumped back in january, I promised myself that I wouldnt be jumping into this mess known as dating anytime soon. I know its been six months, but I realized that Im in no hurry to jump back into any form of relationship. My mistrust and general unhappiness with all females is still way too high to force myself into a relationship. The only problem with this is that Im finding it very tough to pass up a chance with this incredible girl. And I only have the summer because she goes away to school at the end of august. So right now Im torn between just forgetting about her, or jumping into something that I want to to do, but at the same time, its waaaayyyy too soon. And to add more to the problem, as I mentioned before, shes my sister's friend so no matter what happens, Im going to see her again............
...........Well no matter what happens it seems that theres nothing I am better at than making a good situation horrible. No one can crush their own hopes and dreams the way I can destroy my own. You know I really like this girl but everything seems to be falling apart now. And the feelings I still have towards the female population dont help in the least bit. I know all girls arent the same, but for some reason Im having a tough time being able to trust ANY of them again. I dont know what the last girlfriend did to me, but it clearly has a long lasting effect.
Lately my ladyfriend and I cant even find time to hang out. Either one of us is working, or Im sleeping, or shes going riding etc. So, I really wanted this to work, but its really shaky right now. Im going to get my sister to talk to her as a friend (shes one of my sis' better friends) and have her try to figure out where I stand with this girl, where we stand together, if at all anymore.......
Ok, I sort of blew off my date yesterday. The other night at work I came to the realization that after I had been dumped back in january, I promised myself that I wouldnt be jumping into this mess known as dating anytime soon. I know its been six months, but I realized that Im in no hurry to jump back into any form of relationship. My mistrust and general unhappiness with all females is still way too high to force myself into a relationship. The only problem with this is that Im finding it very tough to pass up a chance with this incredible girl. And I only have the summer because she goes away to school at the end of august. So right now Im torn between just forgetting about her, or jumping into something that I want to to do, but at the same time, its waaaayyyy too soon. And to add more to the problem, as I mentioned before, shes my sister's friend so no matter what happens, Im going to see her again............
...........Well no matter what happens it seems that theres nothing I am better at than making a good situation horrible. No one can crush their own hopes and dreams the way I can destroy my own. You know I really like this girl but everything seems to be falling apart now. And the feelings I still have towards the female population dont help in the least bit. I know all girls arent the same, but for some reason Im having a tough time being able to trust ANY of them again. I dont know what the last girlfriend did to me, but it clearly has a long lasting effect.
Lately my ladyfriend and I cant even find time to hang out. Either one of us is working, or Im sleeping, or shes going riding etc. So, I really wanted this to work, but its really shaky right now. Im going to get my sister to talk to her as a friend (shes one of my sis' better friends) and have her try to figure out where I stand with this girl, where we stand together, if at all anymore.......
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