2coolforschool

My heart, once nourished with hope and compassion, now as black as death........

Alright, Ive completely given up all hope that anything good is going to happen to me in the forseeable future. It doesnt matter, its not gonna happen with that girl, my job is not going to get any better, and the worst part is Im just going to sit here in my shitty misery and do absolutely nothing to make it better. So dont bother trying to cheer me up cause its not gonna happen. And since I stopped drinking, it doesnt look like I have any escape method either. Anyone else ever get the shakes they needed a drink so bad? its been four very long days. But im gonna do it at least for now. After self destructing this weekend.
Man, I hate that picture so much. I can see the ex girlfriends arm around me. She completely changed into a person, into everything I hate. But I still find myself constantly wondering about what might have been. At the time it was the best relationship of my life. Now i look back and hate every second of it.

At least I have the Toronto trip to look forward to. Im going the fourth of July weekend, and might see the hip play if I can afford tickets. Three or four days in Toronto should be the shit. So if anybody's got any good places to go in TO., let me know.

I guess thats it for now hopefully you guys and ladies are feeling a bit better than me