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ok...i sewed my first things, 2 ribbon belts...one had a camoflauge pattern...there is a lot to sewing..a lot to learn...

also did a lot of shoveling...school is 2 hour delay tommorrow..crap, wanted a cancel



o well....

i wish i wa on an island ...or a mountain, or in a desert,.alone with all my work, my film, my videos, my photos, my computers...and i was alone...
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snow day...too bad it's sunday....i bought a nice sewing machine yesterday...so it's a good day to learn to sew...i my fashion classses need it for our fashion show,,,,the one's around are pretty much broken or being used at a middle school..anyone have any sewing tips?

himm...what to sew?

f....r........i..........d...............a.....................a..................a.......yyyyy!



thank god

email from d., i am so happy she was accepted to a fine art school....that is so her...that is all she needs to leap into the future and say farewell to the pain in her past.

ok, now back to me...hehe...

i don't have much to say today, work was hard but fun...and i am tired.

...........anyone wanna snuggle?

cya,
me

my wife and i wrote letter to each other on the topic of what is one thing i can i do to help our marriage...then we read each others and talked...we are going to do a different question every day and see if we can reunite...next question is how can i show kindness to my spouse...

this is not a new thing for us..it has...
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..i had a long talk with my wife this morning...we are going to take steps to try to bring us closer together in our marriage. i think our problems, basically living separate lives, are wearing on me/us...we need to make it work again or split.
i feel like we will make it work...time will tell. but for now i am definately feeling better, that at...
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it;s been a pretty fucked up day....i am so depressed....i feel lost...alone....don't even know what to say....

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dear god,
thank you for this cup of cafe bustelo. it is pulling my brain together.
me

going to a rock show tonight....to see kids from the high school where i teach play...should be fun...


later.me

my eyes collide head-on with stuffed
graveyards false goals i scoffed
at petiness which plays so rough
walk upside down inside handcuffs
kick my legs to crash it off
say ok ive had enough
what else can you show me

and if my thought dreams
could be seen
they'd probably
put my head in a guillotine

but it's all ma
it's life and life only[