I was going to make a smart remark, saying Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Which perhaps it is. Whatever.
Way back in the mid-90s when I first got online I searched for porn like most horny men. Watching pretty girls having orgasms was exhilarating. Even more so when they were bound and helpless. It still is, so I guess I know what's missing in my life! 🙄 But by accident I found Eolake Stobblehouse's (http://stobblehouse.com) Simple Nudes (https://www.simplenudes.com/) and through that discovered his DOMAI.com. Professional photographers and amateur models (unaugmented, hence Simple Nudes, etc). The effect was profound. Simply visiting the site to gaze at all those beauties like a kid in a candy store made me feel whole. I pretty much gave up porn, except for a very occasional peek which ultimately led to Japanese reality porn. Unfortunately, Eolake was forced to sell the site to MET-Art due to illness (he died earlier this year) and it now bears no relation to his original concept or ideals.
Anyway. What I now understand is, the defining quality of Beauty is how it makes you feel in yourself. If you feel wonderful, uplifted, human, sexually interested even, it's healing. If it makes you feel otherwise, it's simply not your idea of beauty. But I'm sure you'll get there eventually 😊