opiates are so good, and yet so bad. last night i indulged in a pinio grigio and percocet cocktail and got fuzzy until three in the morn with my idiot friends. we had a blast. my friend justin (go to his bands website: http://geocities.com/wehaveagents ) invited me to his first annual "dead celebrity dance party" which should be the event of the year. (any of...
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i'm quickly losing what little confidence i had in the human race. last night when i was leaving my job, i heard two inebriated jackasses picking on an unidentified victim. as i walked closer (my car was parked that way), i noticed that the victim was one of the many homeless people in our city. the drunks had commandeered his backpack and were playing a...
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kaidon81:
Yes, I'm sorry to tell you that the weekend was over at 12:00am Monday. 
*lol*
*lol* 
linz:
fuck that! that shit pisses me off so bad! meatheads should be castrated.
wow.
no physical ailments today, nor mental ones for that matter. band's going good, we've got five songs in the can already. everything's going well.
how cool is life if there's nothing to bitch about?
"i think it's kind of funny, i think it's kind of sad, the dreams i have of dying are the best i've ever had."
tears for fears, "mad world"
cheers,...
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no physical ailments today, nor mental ones for that matter. band's going good, we've got five songs in the can already. everything's going well.
how cool is life if there's nothing to bitch about?
"i think it's kind of funny, i think it's kind of sad, the dreams i have of dying are the best i've ever had."
tears for fears, "mad world"
cheers,...
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brokenalice:
I hate John Cusak :-P
had an anxiety attack last night. first one in a while, but pretty severe. i don't mean to sound egotistical, but i'm too smart for my own good. all my attacks start with the same train of thought: i start thinking about death. you know, questions like "what's the point of living if we're all going to die anyway?" or "has my life been validated...
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brokenalice:
I feel the same way consistently. I feel that I have a better understanding of the world than most people my age, or even out of the entire American populace. I believe I question things which most people disregard or aren't even conscious of, but its really pointless. It causes additional stress than what life hands to me neatly.
Panic attacks are completely in your mind; I used to get them. Every so often lately I feel I'm riding on the crest of a wave just waiting to collapse into a state of anxiety. Deep breathes will cure most obtrusive mental states. My pain used to be in my tummy though. All of the nerves in my body would decide to clench like the pussy of a virgin. I even went to the emergency room once...
It is a very interesting affliction though.
Panic attacks are completely in your mind; I used to get them. Every so often lately I feel I'm riding on the crest of a wave just waiting to collapse into a state of anxiety. Deep breathes will cure most obtrusive mental states. My pain used to be in my tummy though. All of the nerves in my body would decide to clench like the pussy of a virgin. I even went to the emergency room once...
It is a very interesting affliction though.
interesting birthday yesterday. my friends surprised me by bringing over mass quantities of my two favorite consumables: pinio grigio and sushi. i know a sushi and wine party probably doesn't sound like much of one to most of you, but then again, you don't know my friends. it was debaucherous fun at it's best. highlights included the freestyle rap showdown on my porch (two white...
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brokenalice:
oh wow you have friends that freestyle too?
Sounds like a nice birthday. I'm jealous. Mine always suck.
Sounds like a nice birthday. I'm jealous. Mine always suck.
linz:
yay! happy birfday..
it's official.
i'm old.
hooray.
"this is a birthday pony. this is a strange kind of mess, because i feel like the rest."
fugazi, "birthday pony"
cheers (all you younger) kids.
i'm old.
hooray.
"this is a birthday pony. this is a strange kind of mess, because i feel like the rest."
fugazi, "birthday pony"
cheers (all you younger) kids.
jint:
You're not 'old' untill you reach 40something. Or, that's what my 30something friends keeps telling me...
Damn! I'm a kid surrounded by semi-old people...
Damn! I'm a kid surrounded by semi-old people...
brokenalice:
heh, I wasn't asking where I can go in Tampa...
i know this shithole inside and out.
i know this shithole inside and out.
hello fellow idiot savants.
electricity through my town today, because i think we won this pagan pigskin tossing festival called the super bowl, or something to that effect. i could care less, to be frank ( not black!). looking forward to band practice tonight though. it should rock the casbah ( or the cradle of love, whichever you prefer) fer shure!
"hardly recognize simple things...
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electricity through my town today, because i think we won this pagan pigskin tossing festival called the super bowl, or something to that effect. i could care less, to be frank ( not black!). looking forward to band practice tonight though. it should rock the casbah ( or the cradle of love, whichever you prefer) fer shure!
"hardly recognize simple things...
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youthdecayed:
i had a name, now im a number.....
i listened to that album today. happy Bday tomorrow.
Im glad that Tampa won, because i hate the Raiders. I hate football, too. which means my hatred of the raiders is pretty fucking powerful. After they lost there were riots in Oakland all night. (i dont live far from there, and my band was in the studio that day, luckily before they lost)
i listened to that album today. happy Bday tomorrow.
Im glad that Tampa won, because i hate the Raiders. I hate football, too. which means my hatred of the raiders is pretty fucking powerful. After they lost there were riots in Oakland all night. (i dont live far from there, and my band was in the studio that day, luckily before they lost)
hazardstar2:
...happy birthday...
i feel much better today. thanks to all my suicidefriends who wished me well, i think it worked. not much new to report today, other than the fact that IT'S FUCKING REALLY COLD!!!! now, i know the rest of you (except brokenalice, she feels my pain) are saying to yourselves, "now, why would he bitch about it being so cold? it's january for christ's sake!"....
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linz:
"i'm unclean a libertine and everytime you vent your spleen i seem to lose the power of speech. your sliiping slowly from my reach. you grow me like an evergreen, you've never seen the lowly me at all."
yeah,i love placebo. i definatley love black market music and i thought the bowie duet was great. and yeah i am familiar with p and not u. they are pretty fucking cool from what i have heard.
yeah,i love placebo. i definatley love black market music and i thought the bowie duet was great. and yeah i am familiar with p and not u. they are pretty fucking cool from what i have heard.
kid_607_evil_ins:
I am an FBI AGENT!!!!!
*gushes at oscar nods*
i'm not playin' with you..i just forgot how to play
*gushes at oscar nods*
i'm not playin' with you..i just forgot how to play
sick today. bronchitis or something equally uncomfortable. my chest feels like the romans have misinterpreted my orders to be crucified, and are instead driving the nail through it (what a fucking analogy, eh?). i'm leaking various bodily fluids, and most of them are not the correct hue, but instead green or yellow versions. my throat is completely useless. i'm falling apart.........
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linz:
i love sunny day..i think my favortie song by them is a tie between "one hundred million" or "every shining time you arrive." have you heard the bowie version of "cactus"? it's on his "new" album...it's fucking bad ass!
anyway..get better soon!
anyway..get better soon!
kaidon81:
Hi! 
Sorry to hear that youaren't feeling well.
I hope you feel better soon.
Sorry to hear that youaren't feeling well.
I hope you feel better soon.
"this is my condition.
naked.
hysterical.
reaching to grab a hand that i just slap back at.
this is my condition.
desperate.
alone.
without an excuse,
tried to explain,
christ, what's the use?"
jawbreaker, condition oakland.
i figured today we'd let blake do the talking. he seems to always know the right thing to say.
cheers, kids.
naked.
hysterical.
reaching to grab a hand that i just slap back at.
this is my condition.
desperate.
alone.
without an excuse,
tried to explain,
christ, what's the use?"
jawbreaker, condition oakland.
i figured today we'd let blake do the talking. he seems to always know the right thing to say.
cheers, kids.
brokenalice:
I've been kinda busy with schoolwork, so I haven't been keeping my journal or peeps up-to-date. Tomorrow things should slow down a bit... I'll write more later.
linz:
thats my fucking favorite fugazi song! i think i have a general idea of what it is about, but i would like to hear what lynch has to say..i am reading this book called "lynch on lynch" but it's not written by lynch. weird, no?
i love rival schools..my favorite song is "undercover's on"